(Special thanks to Sonu Sindhi, Minal Verma, and Monty Mumbai.......for helping in Rajasthani dialogues )
episode 1
pyar.....ishq...mohabat..........kitane 'irritating' words hai na..............yeh pyar kab kisako ho jaye......pata hi nahi chalata......kabhi kisiko hasata hai....toh kabhi rulata hai........25 saal tak maine kabhi bhi iss so called "love' ke aagey haar nahi maani thi........main..... mera 'GYM'.......mere dost.......aur bindhast zindagi...........maano toh..' typical GOAN
guy'......'sushegaad'............main........Chrispian........aapka..CHRISmaine zindagi mein kabhi kisi baat ka tension nahi liya...........pyar karane ke baare mein kabhi socha nahi tha.........."a girl is only for sex...."......pyar -vyar in cheezo mein 'time waste ' nahi karaneka.........aur........Gay-love toh bahot door ki baat.......zindagi mast thi.........jaise highway par.....100 ke speed se bhag rahi thi........par ...........us raat meri zindagi ne U turn liya..........us raat main GYM bandh karake........mere dost sourabh ke 'birthday' party mein gaya tha.........hum sab dost aadhi raat tak pite rahe....."hey...chris......enough dude...........you already crossed your limit......"-raj"shut up man.....its sourabh's birthday........"-main apni masti mein tha"....hey chris......rohan arraned 2-3 girls.........wanna screw......??"-sourabh"kaminey....yaha yeh thik se khada nahi ho pa raha hai........'woh' kaise khada hoga?"-raj"hahahhaha..........no dear....i am going now......"-main table se uthh gaya......."mad.....where are you going?you are not in that state..........gaadi chala nahi paoge....."-sourabh"shut up........"-aur main kuchh sune bina........uthkar gaadi mein baith gaya.............sab kuchh hil raha tha.........haa....'drinks'...jyada ho gaya tha.........maine gaadi start ki........aur.......chal pada......2 km ke baad....suddenly....................."dhhhhhadhhhhaaaaak"karake aawaz huee.......koi mere gaadi ko aake takara gaya........"oh fuckkkk"-maine gadi stop ki........aur pichhe dekha......ek ladaka raste pe pada tha.........main gaadi se utar gaya..........aur bhagake usake paas gaya......woh ladka behosh ho gaya tha....saanse chal rahe thi....sar par chot lagi thi.....khoon beh raha tha........."oh god.........what i did this?..."-main bina kuchh soche samajhe usako uthaya.......jaha main khud chalane ki haalaat mein nahi tha.......waha usako uthake chal raha tha.... maine usako gaadi mein dala........... aur badi mushkil se flat pe pahucha.......sar bahot dard kar raha tha.......jaise kisine sar par bhojh rakha tha......maine usko mere 'bed 'pe litaya.........aur......ek gila kapada leke.....uske zakham saaf kiye............chehare se mere 'age' ka hi mehsoos ho raha tha.......25-26 ka......maine uska shirt utara jo....raste pe ghisane ke kaaran wah fata hua tha.........haath pe bhi kuchh ghav the........uske 'dressing style' se woh Goan nahi lag raha tha......uski pant bhi fat gayi thi.........so..maine woh bhi utaari.............aur............oh god........andar aur kuchh nahi tha..............underwear bhi nahi.......maine us ke paav ke zakham bhi saaf kiye..........waise toh khaate-pite ghar ka lag raha tha.....kamina.... meri neende udakar bindhast pada hua tha.........maine uspar ek chaadar daali aur.......main bathroom gaya.......chakkar sa aa raha tha.........just ...T-shirt utara......pant utari aur.....maine aur der nahi ki aur uske baju mein aakar so gaya........total flat*****kareeb kareeb 1 -2 ghante beet gaye.......aur meri aankh khul gayee.........maine uska muh..ekdam mere muh ke kareeb paya..........aur usaka ek paav mere thik 'dick' ke upar.........ekdam direct........usaki garam saanse...........nanga badan..............aur 'sharab ke nashe 'ne mujhe pagal kiya...........maine mera muh usake aur kareeb laya......aur ....usey 'smooch' kiya............pata nahi mujhe kya ho gaya tha........mere 'laude' ka size badal gaya.............mujhe kuchh hone laga........main kya kar raha tha ..mujhe hi pata nahi tha................aur maine usako ulta kar diya..........usaki taange faila di....aur..mere badan ki aag bujhane ke liye....mera khada 'hathiyar' usake andar dala diya...........woh toh behoshi mein tha.........phir bhi shayad kuchh dard mehsus kar raha tha......aur mere upar shayad 'bhediya' sawaar tha..........bina kisi baat ki parvah kiye.........machine jaise chalata gaya...........aur finally.......main shaant hua........ab thakaan mehsus ho rahi thi.......kuchh der baad main...phir se so gaya.......****phirse subah 6.30 baje meri aankh khul gayi..........pure hosh mein.....sar abhi bhi dard kar raha tha.........suddenly meri nazar 'side' mein nange pade us ladke par padi.........kuchh pal ke liye main usey bhool hi gaya tha......aur.... raat ka pura 'scene' mere aankho ke samane aa gaya...."oh...shit...............fuck....fuckkk.....fuckkkk............"mujhe mere galati ka ka ehsas ho raha tha......"god..........maine uska 'rape' kar diya................ek toh nashe mein gaadi chalayee........upar se accident kiya.........aur sabase badi cheez.......'saala....'rape' kar diya.......................ab toh bachana mushkil hai.................yeh jab...uthega....tab.........kya hoga?agar yeh 'police station' jaakar meri complaint kare toh..........?oh no............."
to be cont
episode 2
.....hamesha main subah 7.00 ko GYM open karata tha....par ab oh...possible nahi tha.....maine mere dost RAJ ko phone kiya......"hey raj...good morning........come to my flat yaar.......""what happened chris?any problem?"-raj".....dude..i am in terrible situation.........mere haatho kal accident hua........i banged one guy..........aur usako hosh nahi aa raha hai......""relax.......i am coming.......usko doctor ke paas leke jaayenge...."-raj"no....i can manage that.......just do a favor on me.........GYM ki keys collect kar aur..zara GYM open kar........""ok......take care......i am reaching in 15 minutes..."-raj*****raj aakar keys leke gaya...............2 ghante bit gaye.....par woh hosh mein aane ka naam nahi le raha tha........main toh pura ghabara gaya tha......maine aur der nahi ki......usako mere kapade pehanakar...gadi mein dala... aur....Goa.Medical.Collage ki ore chal pada................uspar treatment shuru ho gayi.....zindagi mein pehali baar mein itana tense tha........doctor ne uska scanning kiya.......aur mujhe andar bulaya....."yes...come in..........have a seat"-doctor"thanks..."-"aap koun hai......patient ke....?"-doctor"aa........."-ek pal ke liye kya bataoo woh samajh mein nahi aa raha tha....sach bataoo ya jhoot..."doctor....actually....woh kal raat mere gaadi ko takara gaya ......main waise hi usey uthakar mere ghar le aaya.....mujhe laga ki jald hi hosh mein aayega...par.......ab waisa nahi hua.....so yaha le aaya...."-"very good.................i appriciate.....that u did not left him on the road..............chalo,is paper pe sign karana.........as a friend.........."-doctor"ok........par woh thik hoga na?"-maine sign karate karate punchha"yeah thats what................chal..let me tell you in detail......................usko AMNESIA hua hai..........means.......deficit in memory caused by brain damage............matlab.....dimag par chot lagane ke kaaran....uski yaaddaash chali gayi hai......"-doctor"what??"-"yes......usko apana naam bhi yaad nahi hoga.......so.....aaj se jaise tum chahoge waise usaki zindagi mod sakate ho.........."-doctor"par...main kyon...?yeh mera koi nahi hai...."-"pata hai.....par.......yeh sirf hamare ilaaz ka tarika hai..........matlab hum usey ....relax...envoirnment mein rakhenge...............jisase usake thik hone ke 'chances' badhenge........aur mat bhulo ki yeh 'accident' tumase hua hai..........case ban sakata hai........ab isey thik karane ki jimmedari bhi tumhari hai....................agar tum issey 'accept' nahi karate ho.......toh isey mujhe 'police' ke haawale karana padega.....................choice is yours"-doctor"thik hai.....main isey mere ghar rakhunga......."mere paas aur koi 'option nahi tha....aur main 'police' ke lafade mein nahi padana chahata tha......."toh sabase pehale hum.....isey ek naam dege..............ek achha sa naam batao................tumhara naam kya hai?"-doctor"chris....i mean chrispian................""ok....toh..............krishna kaise rahega..............chris aur krish..............wow............krishna""good name.........""......chalo ek story banate hai.........krishna aur tum bahot achhe dost hai...........'dostana ' banaye?"-doctor"what the fuck........i am straight guy......"-"hahhaha....mazaak kar raha tha...........chalo 'sholey' wali dosti...jai-veeru...............woh anaath......ab woh tumhare saath hi rehata tha........tum kaam kya karate ho?"-doctor"mera khudaka GYM hai........"-"ok.....yeh tujhe GYM mein madad karata tha........thats it.....baaki kahani apane aap hi banegi......"-doctor"par yeh kitane din chalega?"-"jab tak....usaki yaad-dash wapas na aa jaye........"--doctor*****sachmuch main puri tarah se fans gaya tha.......kaash main jyada drinks nahi pita.................kaash main us haalat mein gaadi nahi chalata......kaash main usey ghar nahi laata.......itane saare kaash................yeh GOD bhi na....kya kya GAMES khelata hai.....koun ..kahaka krishna mere gale mein pad gaya.........main bahot pareshan tha.....tabhi"excuse..me..............aap chrispian ji hai na......?krishna hosh mein aaye hai...."-ek nurse aakar boli"ji haa....aata hoo.........."-aur main 'ward' mein gaya............pehali baar maine usaki khuli aankhe dekhi thi.......bina chehare ke bhav badale...woh mujhe dekhata hi reh gaya......."krishna................."-mere muh se apane aap nikal gaya.........
to be cont
episode 3
jaise hi maine usey awaaz di........woh soch mein pad gaya......"krishna......tu thik hai na?"-"aap kun ho"-usake muh se shabd nikal gaye......"main chris hoo ..tera dost........"-"mhu katthe hoo? .......mhara naam kaain hai?"-woh ek ke baad ke sawal karane laga......."tumhara naam krishna hai....main tera dost chris hoo............tumhe accident ho gaya tha krishna.................jisame tum apni yaad-dash kho baithe ho...........""Tu kashyo ke hai? "-usane mujhase punchha"what???"-sach kaho toh ...woh kya bola mere samajh mein nahi aaya......"krishna...yeh kya bol raha hai tu.......?kounsi bhasha.....?KONKANI...ya english....ya achhi..thik hindi mein bolo na..................tu thik hai na?"-.........sabse pehale mujhe thik se hindi nahi aa rahi thi...........aur ab yeh 'HI-FI' tarah ki hindi bol raha tha.........."Main thik thak choon"-krishna"cool down chris.................woh RAJSTHANI language bol raha hai........"-doctor"krishna tumhe mujhase pehale jaise....hindi mein baat karana padega......""mhane pato koni kaai chal riyo hai....."-krishna"oh god..........what is going on....? i am totally finished..................doctor saab itani badi sazaa?"- isake saath main kaise din kaatunga ..yeh mujhe hi pata nahi tha.........."relax......chris.........chalo bahar chalate hai..........sham tak hum issey ghar bhej sakate hai....."-doctor"ghar?....matalab mere ghar........?"-main aur doctor baahar aa gaye"doctor..........ab main pagal ho jaaunga...............isaki yaad-daash laate laate meri 'memmory' definately chali jaayegi........................hum thik se baat bhi nahi kar sakenge.........woh kya bolata hai....mujhe samajh mein hi nahi aa raha hai..........."-"cool............bhasha sirf 'communication 'ka 'medium' hai.................dil se baat karo........"-doctor"hmmm....what do you mean by 'dil se'.................aisa lag raha hai...ki dil hi nikal kar issey doo.........."ab tak mare dost bhi hospital pahuche the........."kya kaha doctor ne?"-sourabhmaine sab kuchh bataya................."pagal....why you told doctor that.....you did the accident?"-raj"raj...jo kuchh hua....woh ho gaya....................ab aagey kya hoga...?...............main isake saath kaise rahoo?"-"chal...........pehale usko ghar leke jaate hai........baaki usko bhagaane ka kaam tum hum par chhodo...................tum dekh lena wahi tera ghar chhod ke bhag jaayega"-rajek raat mein main ....aasamaan se zameen pe gir pada tha.....kaisi thi zindagi meri.....aur kya ban gayi thi.....
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sham ko main 'so called' krishna ko mere flat pe leke aaya.......aane ke baad usase...ek labz bhi nahi bola.............woh bhi chup hi tha........jab se aaya....tab se woh 'sofa' pe hi baitha raha........shayad usey bhi...mera flat anjaan lag raha tha.........aur kyon na lage..................anjaan toh hi tha.......kuchh der baad sourabh aaya.......aur main aur sourabh mere room mein gaye.........woh bahar hi baitha raha.......bahot der humane baatein ki........aur suddenly sourabh bola"hey..chris...us raaj ki baat mat maan dude........"-sourabh"matlab?"-"woh bahar akela baitha hai.............maanata hoo.......tujhe usey jabardasti jhelana pad raha hai.....par woh mariz hai...................."-sourabh"mariz ho toh kya hua???.......maine usey yaha nahi bulaya.......mera 'flat' anathalay' nahi hai.......jo koi bhi aaye aur ruk jaaye...."-"waisey toh bahot bhola bhala lagata hai.............bhagawaan kare jald se jald usaki yaad-daash aaye..............tab tak sambhal lena yaar usey................dosti kar na usase"-sourabh"sourabh.....i have enough friends...................i dont want more........"-"ok.........chilla mat................aur agar dil kare.........at least usey khana dena..............bill chahe toh main pay karunga......"aisa kehkar sourabh bahar chala gaya.................main jo kar raha tha....woh sahi yaa galat yeh mujhe pata nahi tha..........par haa....bahot gusse mein zaroor tha...............dheere dheere raat ho gayi aur main bahar aa gaya.......woh waha hi baitha tha............pata nahi kaise itani der ek hi jagah pe baithake rehata hai........"kuchh khana hai kya?"-maine haatho se ishara karake kadi aawaz mein punchhausane ....sar hila kar 'haa' bola....maine freeze khola aur....'pork chops' aur 'pork skillet' oven mein garam karake.....plate banakar usey diya....kuchh der tak woh khane ko dekhata hi reh gaya......maine toh already khana start kiya tha......maine usaki taraf dekha......"khao na.........kya khana bhi bhool gaya?"-"Mane tha koni ki mhu kha saku. ....."-krishnausake chehare aur 'expressions' se mujhe pata chala ki...usey yeh khana pasand nahi hai.....aur woh nahi khana chahata......"toh bol mere baap.....kya khilau tujhe?"-maine gusse mein hi sourabh ko phone lagaya......"sourabh,tu bol raha tha na.......isako achha khana de...............plate bana ke diya hai........lekin sarkar bol rahe hai............yeh khane ka maan nahi kar raha hai........."-"what u gave him?"-sourabh"pork chops and pork skillet..."-"arey....woh rajsthani hai.....not Goan.....shayad Hindu ya muslim bhi ho sakata hai.......ek veg thali order kar aur de usey....."-sourabhmaine phone rakh diya aur.....udupi hotel se ek veg thali order ki........aur...usane chup chap maze se kha li........"toh ...aapke liye ab roz......veg khana banana padega..?.......kya kya tension yaar......"-sach-much dimag ka 'fuse' ud gaya tha........maine usko bathroom, wash-basin dikhaya......woh mujhse kuchh punchhana chahata tha........"thu(aap) mharati naraaz hai ka...?mhe koi galati kidi hai ka?"-krishna"boss.....please......agar mujhase bolana hai.....at least ENGLISH nahi aati..toh hindi mein bolane ki koshish karo..............nahi toh mat bolo.........."-"ji.......ka mhe...?.......nahi.......mhane maaf karo...............ka....main athe rehata tha..........pehale"-usane mujhase hindi mein baat karane ki koshish ki"haa......tu yaha hi rehata tha.....mere saath......aur Konkani bolata tha....kabhi kabhi hindi bolata tha.....achhi wali........rajsthani nahi........."-aur bina kuchh kahe.... main...sone ke liye bedroom gayasaala dimag ka dahi ban gaya tha............kuchh hi pal mein...main so gaya.......***der raat 2 baje meri aankh khul gayi.......aur...usaki yaad aayi..........main bed se uthake ....baahar aaya...........woh 'sofa' pe hi so gaya tha..............shayad usey thand lag rahi thi.......maine andar jaakar meri 'blanket' uthayee aur....usake upar daal di.......
to be cont....
Episode 4
dusare din woh mujhase pehale utth gaya....
6.30 baje main bhi utth gaya....GYM jo open karana tha.....
"good morning...."-maine bahar aate aate ussey kaha....jab maine uski ore dekha toh......toh..maine dekha ki usaki aankho mein aansu the......"kya hua dude....?"-".................."usney sirf apna sar hilaya.."-"Chill man....tension mat ley...koi problem hai kya?".-"Khoon......... nikal raha hai............pichhe se".-krishna"Oh......".-Mujhe parso ki raat yaad aayi...maine uske saath jabardasti rough sex kiya tha.....bina kisi lubrication ke..."arey.......Lagata hai.....doctor logo ne test karane ke liye andar kuchh dala hoga...kuchh anti-ceptics laga le....thik ho jayega...".
maine usey ek anticeptic cream di.....phir maine chay banayee....aur break-fast karake main usey ghar mein akela chhodkar Gym mein aa gaya....Jaate waqt maine usasey punchha....
"Kya tumhe roti,chapati,ya 'nan' banaana aata hai?"..."Ha...."-krishna ne sar hilaya"Toh ek kaam kar.....kitchen mein aata bhigokar chapati banaane ke liye tayyar kar.....main aane ke baad fry karata hoo.....".-"Ha..."-
***Aur main gym chala gaya......thodi toh rahat ki saans mili.......subah ka din achha gaya.......aur main ghar lotane ke liye badha....
tabhi meri nazar Church par pad gayi.........aur bahut saalo baad maine church mein paav rakha ...
"God.....i never asked anything from you...till today........aaj pehali baar kuchh maang raha hoo..........just a small request...'meri zindagi se usey nikaal de...'..aisa kuchh miracle kar ki woh mujhe ..humara accident......sab kuchh bhul jaaye......please...god..please"
aur main flat pe aa gaya......door bell baja di.......par bahut der tak darwaaza nahi khula......"krishna......krishna.......main aa gaya hoo"-
aur aakhir ........darwaaza khul gaya...
"kya yaar....kitani der.......you cant hear the bell sound?"-main hamesha ki tarah bhadaka...toh woh rone laga......."what happened now?"....meri nazar usake haatho par gayi...woh jale huye the......"oh...fuck........what is this?kya hua yeh?kaise hua...?"-"roti...... bana raha tha" "shit yaar.......god ......tujhe kisane yeh sab karane ke liye bola tha......?maine saaf saaf bola tha main aakar 'fry' karunga.............kyu mujhe chain se jeene nahi de raha hai tu?"-mera dimag satak gaya thamaine usake haatho ko 'burnol' lagaya......
"aur ab rona band kar............"
woh waisa hi sofa par let gaya......
kitchen sab ganda karake rakha tha....har jagah aata pada tha.....gas 'on' tha......uspar 'frying pan' lal ho chuka tha........
maine sourabh ko call kiya..."yaar sourabh.....mujhase aur nahi hoga..........i cant handle this all.... "-"kya hua?...."-sourabh"dono haath jala kar liye hai usane......saahab 'roti' banaane chale the.....very irritating yaar.."-"relax chris....."-sourabh"saala...pata nahi kounsa paap kiya tha....jo yeh saja mil rahi hai.....kitani achhi zindagi thi meri yaar.....Hell ban chuki hai......."-"sab thik hoga.....be cool..."-sourabh"kya thik hoga?....sab kuchh tere birthday ki wajah se hua.........shit.."-"trust in god......"-
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maine khana bana diya......pura veg............maine... do plates bana di........ek mujhe aur ek usey.....
aur maine khana start kar diya.......tabhi mujhe ehsaas hua ki...woh apane haatho se khana nahi kha payega....hey bhagawan....tumase kya maanga tha aur tu mujhe kya de raha hai.....woh mujhe dekh raha tha......
"kya dekh raha hai.....ruk..main khilata hoo......"-aur maine uske paas gaya....usaki plate haath mein li aur...usey khana khilana shuru kiya......woh mujhe dekhata hi reh gaya.....
********us din mujhe usako khilana...pilana....aur nehalana..bhi...pada.....
jab maine usko nehalakar...usaki underwear badalane ke liye gaya.......toh woh...mujhase door gaya.....
"idiot.....hahhaha......main sab kuchh dekh chuka hoo tera.....ab aur kuchh dekhana baki nahi hai......mad"
woh phir se mere paas aa gaya....aur maine usake kapade badal diye.....sachmooch....
jitana main usake door jaane ki koshish kar kar raha tha..utana hi na chahkar kareeb jaa raha tha......
to be cont
episode 5
ladate ,jhagadate,gussa karate...kaisey 15 din gujare yeh pata hi nahi chala.......
ab...krishna bhi....ghar mein dheere dheere ghulane laga tha......
mere dost bhi usase 'friendship' karane lage the......
krishna ke haath bhi thik ho chuke the.....ab woh apana kaam khud hi karata tha...woh thodi bahot hamari language samajhane laga tha........
maine bhi usake saath 'adjust 'karana sikh liya tha......yeh kaho ki....woh hi mere saath 'adjust' kar raha tha......
mujhe ab woh mere ghar ka ek hissa lagane laga tha...................
jaane kahasa se ek 'ajanabee' ghar mein aata hai.....aur yu 'jaadu' karake sabko apana bana leta hai..............
shayad bhagwan ne hi usey ..mujhe thik karane ke liye bheja tha.......'ghar' kya hota hai..yeh maine in 15 dino mein hi sikha tha.......nahi toh mere liye 'ghar' ka matlab sirf sone ki jagah thi.......na kabhi maa-baap ki suni na hi dosto ki........par iss kaminey ne bina kuchh kahe hi mujhe 'track' par laake chhoda tha.....
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us raat.....main 'guitar' ke saath chhed khani kar raha tha.......krishna sofa par baitha tha......
mere 'guitar 'ke dhun ko usane pakada aur kuchh ajeeb gaana shuru kiya......
.........."Baisa ra beera mhne pivariyele halo sa.......Baisa ra beera mhne pivariye pohchado sa..pivariye ri mhane olu aawe............"
"wow...........krishna ...bahut achha ga raha hai tu...."-"dhanyawadh ji...."-krishna"par isaka matlab kya hai???.."-"matlab?...main....mhane mhara ghar.......yaad aa raha hai......mujhe waha pahucha do"-krishna...ka chehara udaas hua"what is this krishna.....?tumhare aankho mein phir aansu?.......Rajsthani song tumako rulaata hai na.........toh ab 'Goan' song suno........u ll enjoy...sab dard bhul jaaoge"-"hmmmm......"-krishna
......"Kalzan san mog tuzo hanv kortam,......Sodanch tujea mogak axetam,Dis-rath sopnant tuka dekhtam,........Fudar chintun dukham golloitam….......Tum moga hene thene vaat chamkotanam,...Gomaan dinaim maka porva tuka nam,Hanv tuka mojench korunk motint chintanam,....Kiteak sandun gelaim maka somzonam...juliana.....juliana......moga mhojea........juliana......""u like krishna.....?.....krishna........oh krishna....moga mhojea.......oh krishna...."
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mujhe pata tha ki maine kya gaaya..woh krishna ko samajh mein nahi aaya....phir bhi pehali baar maine usake chehare par ek....alag si hansi dekhi thi.....jo mujhe bhi muskaan deke chali gayi......
shayad ..pichhale kahi dino se .....main usake chehare par yahi 'smile' dekhana chahata tha.......
mere saath woh bhi 'last lines' gungunane laga.........
"krishna.....oh krishna....moga mhojea.......oh krishna........""you know krishna?.........moga mhojea matalab......my love....mere sanam...hahaha..."-main hans pada
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raat ho chuki thi......
raat ko hum.....beach pe gaye.......waha bahot saari...tuti-futi bhasha mein baatein ki.......
bhel puri ...pani puri khake ghar laute......
krishna hamesha ki tarah sofa par sone gaya.......
"krishna......"-"ji sa............"-krishna"mere saath bed par andar so jao.........."-"ji nahi....yaha thik..hai"-krisha"main keh raha hoo na......."-
krishna mere gusse ko jaanata tha......so woh bechara chupchap apana bistar leke mere bed pe aa gaya.........
"maine tumhe bahot sataya na krishna....."-"nahi ji....."-krishna
krishna mere 'side' mein hi so gaya tha........mujhe usake hoth bula rahe the..........maine kuchh kahe punchhe bina.......usake hotho ko 'lock' kar diya.............usane bhi apani aankhe band kar di.......garam saanse....mehsus ho rahi thi..........hum dono ek ajeeb duniya mein the....
...tabhi..........mujhe us raat ka nazara yaad aaya.....aur maine.....mere hotho ko usase alag kar diya....aur bed se uthkar bahar gaya......
"kya hua sa...?mharese....koi galati hui......?"-krishna"nahi krishna....galati tumase nahi....galati toh maine ki hai...................krishna main achha insan nahi hoo...i am not a good human being........i raped you.........us raat jab tum behosh the...maine tumhare saath jabardasti...anal sex kiya tha.............mere upar shaitaan sawaar tha.........i am sorry krishna"-pehali baar mujhe meri kisi baat ka afsos ho raha tha....
"koi baat nahi...mhara sab kuchh thara hi to hai......"-krishnakrishna ki baat ne mujhe rula diyamaine uthkar usey gale lagaya........
"raanaji...thu mhane pyar karein hai kain?"krishna
"pata nahi......mera dil .....teri ore khinch raha hai....."
"par main thane...pyar karoo choo.........."-krishna
us raat hum ek dusare ke baho mein so gaye..........bina kuchh kiye.....shayad meri zindagi ne naya mod liya tha......mujhe bhi pyar hone laga tha...woh bhi ek ladake se.........
to be cont....
Episode 6
Din ke baad din ja rahe the....waisa hi hamara pyar bhi badh raha tha...aur yuhi mahina beet gaya.....
Mere dosto ke liye..."krishna" ka matlab sirf ek saza thi....jise main bhugat raha hoo.......par woh sab yeh nahi jaanate the ki...woh sazaa mere liye kab ki ek 'uphaar' ban chuki thi.....
Krishna hamesha subah mujhase pehale uthata tha.....aur saaf-safaee ka karata tha...khana banana usako nahi aata tha...par hamesha mujhe help karata tha......baad mein hum dono gym jaate the.... dophar ghar aate....khana khate.....dosto ko milate....yuhi din nikal jaata tha...
Kahe toh "full to dhamaal"...woh bhi GOA ke envoirnment mein ghulane laga tha....usake saath mera ek dil ka rishta ban chuka tha......humein ek dusare ki itani aadat ho gayi thi ...ki..agar zarasa bhi woh mere nazaro se door hua toh main ghabara jata tha....
Us raat hum dono mere dosto ke saath miramar beach pe baithe the...hansi mazaak chal raha tha....samundar ki thandi hawa kuchh alag hi maza de rahi thi...
aur tabhi Raaj aakar mere 'lap' par.. apana sar rakh ke so gaya....
usake liye yeh normal tha.......
par yeh dekhakar krishna ki vaat lag layi......usaki jalan ko main dekh sakata tha.........aur usaka jalana bhi swabhavik tha...mere kareeb woh kisiko dekh nahi sakata tha....aur mere lap par sirf usaka hi haq tha........
"Chris...saale.....tera vibrator...chalu ho raha hai..."-raa
"Kaminey....uthhh......ja"-maine raaj ko phenk hi diya....
krishna ki aankhe mujhe ghur kar dekh rahi thi...pehale krishna mujhase darata tha...par ab main krishna se darane laga tha.....
Ab ghar jaakar krishana ko manana padanewala tha.......
Krishna muh phula ke baitha tha.....
"Hey krishna.....ghar chale kya?"...maine krishna se punchha
Usane sar hilake haa bola.......aankho se gussa chhalak raha tha.....
"Chalo bhai.....apane boss.. ka hukum hai....lets go.."-aur hum sab uth gaye....
Sourabh aagey gaya....usake pichhe Raaj aur Aseem gaye....aur main krishna ke pichhe chalata raha.......mera mood krishna ko hasaane ka tha...
'Kaminey...ko gussa bahut jaldi aata hai......'
Road ke uss paar hamari car park ki thi....sabane road cross kiya.....aur krishna road cross kar hi raha tha tabhi....
Ek toofaani speed se aati gaadi krishna ko takarayee...
"Krishhhhhhhnaaaaaaaaaaa......"-mere muh se chikh nikali.....ek pal ke liye meri saanse ruk gayi......aankho ke saamane andhera chaa gaya......ek pal aisa laga ki sab khatam ho gaya
krishna raaste par pada tha...khoon pani ki tarah beh raha tha....main toh kuchh dekhane ke haalat mein nahi tha....
sirf zor zor se rota raha.....mere dosto ne 108 ko call kiya......aur kuchh pal main hum G.M.C....pahuch gaye.....
Krishna bahot serious tha......mere muh se ek baat bhi nahi nikal rahi thi.....nikal rahe the toh sirf aansu......
puri Zindagi mein kisike liye itana roya nahi tha.....sirf krishna ko khone ka daar har pal sata raha tha.....Bure bure vichar baar baar maan mein aa rahe the...aur..mere dost mujhe sahara de rahe the........
Har ek church....ek mandir...masjid... jaakar humane maatha rakha.......aur aakhir main usi church gaya...jaha maine bhagwan se pehale kuchh maanga tha... ....... ki 'mere zindagi se krishna ko nikaal do'.
church mein jaakar main ghutano par gir gaya........
"God...ji haa....meri hi galati hai....maine hi tumase maanga tha ki krishna ko mere life se nikal do.....but....this is not the way....you cant do this.........now things are changed god ...ab main krishna se pyar karata hoo......usake bina zinda rahake bhi main murda banake rahoonga....ab humare sirf jism 2 hai....aatma se toh hum kabase ek dusare se jud chuke hai.............krishna ke bina chris adhura hai.................please god......uska pyar mujhe nahi mila toh bhi chalega ....par usaki jaan mujhe vapas de do...... please god ..please...".
church se seedha main hospital gaya.......aur....tab doctor ne kaha...".he is out of danger...."
tab mere aankho ne sab kuchh keh diya.......aansu to rukane ke naam hi nahi le rahe the......ye woh aansu the...jisako main zindagi bhar bhi bahane ko taiyar tha.....bahot khush tha main......khushi ki koi seema nahi thi.......laga raha tha jaise aasmaan ko hi chhoo liya ho....
par krishna ko hosh mein aane pure do din lage...
hum sab bahar the........
tabhi doctor ne kaha.....
"suno......patient ko hosh aa gaya hai....."-
"woooo....doctor you rockkk.......main usey mil sakata hoo?"-
"ji ha...kyu nahi.......par tum mein se....ATEEQ koun hai...?"-doctor
"ateeq???......doctor usane CHRIS kaha hoga........."-sourabh
"ji nahi.....woh baar baar ateeq ko bula raha hai......."-doctor
"pata nahi koun........par hum mein koi ATEEQ nahi hai...."-Raaj
"koi baat nahi......tum log usey mil sakate ho"-doctor
aur main bhagake krishna ke paas gaya......woh das kadamo ka faasala us waqt 10 kilometer ka laga........
krishna ki khuli aankhe dekhakar maan bhar gaya......maine sab kuchh pa liya.....
maine usey gale lagaya...
"where is ATEEQ?"-krishna ne mujhe apane se dur karate huye kaha...
"ateeq koun krishna?"-main usey punchha
"ATEEQ...my ateeq.........and i am not krishna.......mhara naam RAJVEER hai.....aap log koun hai?"-krishna
"yeh kya keh rahe ho krishna.......main tumhara chris......ye raaj....yeh yeh sourabh......yeh aseem....aur tu English kab sikha.?"-
"what do you mean English kab sikha......New york se graduate hoo main......aur main aap logo ko nahi jaanata hoo......mere ateeq ko bulao...."-krishna
to be cont
episode 7
"Krishna...main chris.....enough dude....mazaak mat kar yaar.........mujhe pata hai.....tu gussa hai....mat sata na........i m sorry...."-mujhe kuchh pata nahi chal raha tha.. ki kya ho raha tha....
Tabhi doctor ne humein bahar bulaya....doctor ko hum ne uski history batayee.......
Baad mein doctor ne pehale wale doctor se baat ki....aur woh pehale wala doctor kuchh check-ups ke baad ...hum se mila....
"Congrats chris....you are too good.....tumane kar dikhaya...'krishna ki puri ki puri....yaad dash waapas aagayi hai.....only thing.....pichhale ek mahine mein kya hua....woh usey yaad nahi hai....so you are also safe now..."-doctor
Doctor ki baat sunake aisa laga jaise mere pairo ke niche ki zameen hil gayi hai...
Par mere dost log khush lag rahe the....
"Hey...chris....gaya na tera tension....now chill...and come back on track...."-raaj
"Par..abhi bhi uska Goa mein humaare siva koi nahi hai.....hum usey aisa nahi chhod sakate..."-maine raaj ki baat ko moda
"arey ab fir se lafde mein mat pad.......tu are free now....."-RAAJ
"Aur tu toh yahi chahata tha na.....".-sourabh
"Haa sourabh...par aise nahi....achhi tarah se vida karana chahata tha........hamare ek mahine ki dosti ko...aisa thukara ke nahi jaane dunga main usey....."-chris
"oh chris......chal lets go......."-sourabh
"doctor ...humare saath bitaya hua...ek pal bhi yaad nahi aayega?ek mahine mein jo lamhe hum ne yaadgaar banaye...woh sab ab mitti mein mil jaayenge?....."-chris
"kuchh keh nahi sakate.........usake dimag ke ek bhag mein tum sabki yaadein 'padi' hogi.....like hidden files in a computer......jo computer mein hoti hai....lekin dikhayi nahi deti hai...........par main sure nahi hoo ki usake 'brain' ka woh part fir se active hoga ki kahi....."-.doctor
"doctor... main jara usey fir se mil sakata hoo......kyon main usey akela nahi chhod sakata......usko yaad ho ya na ho....mere liye woh humaara dost hai......main usey kisi 'safe' haatho mein soupana chahata hoo......"-chris
"yes ...you can....but only one person......"-doctor
main fir se krishna ke paas gaya......
woh aankhe band karake pada tha....
"krishna...."-mere awaaz se usne aankhe kholi......
"rajveer.......rajveer hoo main........"-krishna
"sorry......rajveer........."-
"tum mere gaadi se takraaye the...raat 1.30 baje.............yaad hai..?"-
"hmmm...haa......mujhe yaad hai.........main rasta cross kar raha tha......chemist ke shop mein ja raha tha...........tabhi main gaadi ko takaraya tha...........achha......toh woh gaadi tumhari thi.......tum chala rahe the................... dekh meri haalat....sar pe patti dekho...................aagey se driving karate waqt dhyan rakhana......................"-krishna
"aur ATEEQ koun hai?"-
"ATEEQ mera dost ...usake liye hi toh main medicine lene ja raha tha...................oh god.......he is in ward number 344....mujhe waha jaana hai....."-krishna
"wait wait...utho mat...........woh thik hai...............uss se baat karani hai tumhe?"-
"haa...haa.....mujhe atwwq se baat karani hai.......kaha hai woh....?"-krishna
"mobile number hai uska?"-
"haa........9680968012"-krishna
krishna ne bataya hua number maine dial kiya..............
jaise phone ki ring baji....mera dil jor se dhadkane laga...
aur aakhir mein ......kisine phone uthaya......
maine aankhe band ki.......
"hello....."-
"hello....ateeq?"-
"ji haa......bol raha hoo....aap koun hai?-usaki awaaz se mere gaal par aansu ki bunde chhalakane lage...
"ji...ateeq main........main chris.....aapka dost krishna.....sorry..RAJVEER hospital mein hai......aap kaha hai?"-
"kya...?kya hua usey....?.......woh thik hai na?...koun se hospital mein VEERji?....."-ateeq
"dekhiye...woh bilkul thik hai....uska road accident hua tha.....darane ki koi baat nahi hai......aap kaha ho.....?"-
"main....margao mein hoo....actually woh pichhale ek mahine se missing hai....."-ateeq
"haa.....jaanate hai hum.....main aapko sab kuchh batata hoo......aap margao HDFC bank ke paas ruk jayiye...mera dost aapko lene aayega....."-
aur maine phone rakh diya...........aur raaj ko usey 'pick up' karne ke liye bhej diya....
"ab khush..?aapka dost aa raha hai.....mera dost usey lene ke liye gaya hai..."-
"haa......thank you very much.....aapka naam kya hai?"-krishna
"ji...chrispian............."-
"agar maine aapko chris bulaya toh chalega...?"-krishna
"ji.....actually ..mere sab dost mujhe chris hi bulate hai............."-
"aap mujhe krishna keh kar kyu bula rahe the....?-krishna
"haa...?..woh ek lambi kahani hai...phir kabhi bataunga....."-
"batao na......."-krishna
"actually...mera ek dost tha.........jo bilkul tumhari tarah dikhata tha.......yahi aankhe...yahi naak....yahi'lips'......aisehi baal....rang roop..........yeh sunake aapko tajub hoga.......woh ladka hokar bhi ..bahot pyar karata tha main uss se....."-mere aankhe phir se gili ho gayi..
"aur ab woh kaha hai........"-krishna
"pata nahi...na jaane kaha kaha............ab toh mera dil hi uska pata hai...........kamina,mujhe pyar ka rog lagaake chala gaya..................par ek na ek din woh zaroor aayega.......".
"ji....main bhi aapke liye duva karunga......yeh pyar aisa hi hai......"-krishna
"aapke kabhi kisise pyar kiya hai....?"-
"ji haa......main bhi ek ladke se pyar karata hoo....aur woh dusara teesara koi aur nahi...ateeq hai"-krishna
"ateeq?"-
"haa.....ateeq...jitana main 'Rough'..utana hi woh 'soft'...........jitana main 'forward' utana hi woh 'sharmila'....jitana main usasey pyar karata hoo..utna hi woh mujhase karata hai...................mere bina ek pal bhi nahi ji sakata hai woh....."-krishna
"itana bharosa hai ateeq par.....?"-
"ji haa......tum apane krishna ke siva zinda ..reh sakate ho...?"-krishna
"aagey ka pata nahi.... main toh abhi se marane laga hoo.........kaise mile tum ateeq se?"
"hahahha.....main ek rajput hoo...jab ki ateeq hamare gaon mein rehane wala ek sidha sadha ladka.... tab main new york se lauta tha..........
************ goan mein hamara daraara tha......Raj gharana jo thaira humara.....lagbhag sabhi humase darate the......
us din.....main mere dosto ke saath 'ghoda'leke tehalane gaya tha.....tabhi....hamaree nazar 'ateeq' par pad gayee.........
ekdam ladkiyo jaisa tha...... woh humein dekhkar daar gaya........
humane ghoda roka......
main ghode se niche utara....mere dost usey chhedane lage.......
"kathe ja rayo hai?"-maine uss se punchha
"ji ghar ja raha hoo ranaji..."-woh ghabara gaya...
"Tharee.... itni himat ke tu manee dikh kar bhaage hai?"-
"ji naee....ranaji"-
mere dosto ne uspar do thappad laga diye....
mujhe bahot maza aa raha tha....aur woh bechara ro raha tha......
mera kameena pan aur gir gaya...
"niche baith......."-aur maine mera paayjame ka 'nada' dheela kar diya........aur mera khada 'hathiyaar' usake saamane rakha....
"innhe muh mein lee le....."-woh dekhata hi reh gaya...
mere dost hans rahe the......aur woh...sar hila ke nahi bol raha tha...
maine uspar aur ek thappad mara....
"oh mharo hukam hai......"-mujhe gussa aa gaya
aur maine jabardasti se mera 'lund' uski muh mein ghusa diya.....
usane turant usey muh se nikal diya...
"ji oh.... mhaasu koni huve. ...baas aa rahe hai..."-woh ro raha tha....
"baas aa riyo toh naak band kar le.....nai toh laaree se le le....ulta ho ja...."
aur mere dosto uske haath aur pair pakade.......aur maine ek bahot sharm-nak kamina pan kar diya.......
aur usey waha phenk ke hum chale gaye.....
jo kuchh hua usey main bhul gaya.....
ek 'week' baad woh mujhe dikhayee diya.......main pahaad ki choti par gaya tha....
usey dekhkar mera lauda fir se khada ho gaya......
maine ghoda uski taraf mod diya.....
tabhi pata nahi kya hua.....ghoda kuchh uchhal gay aur main gir gaya....waha pahaad ko ek bahot badi aur gehari daraar thi....aur main us darrar ke muh par jaake atak gaya......zindagi aur maut ke bich main jhulane laga tha.....
aur tabhi waha Ateeq daudkar aa gaya.......usake paas do raste the...ek mujhe bachana...aur dusara......apane beizzati ka 'revenge' lena....
to be cont....
EPISODE 8(Final episode)
"Aur phir?ateeq ne tumhe bachaya ?-maine krishna se punchha..
"Haa....pure 15 minute bahot koshish karake ateeq ne mujhe bachaya....aur jaise hi main upar aa gaya....woh bina pichhe mude chalata raha...
***maine usko awaaz di....aur woh ruk gaya
"Sukriya..apana naam toh batao?"-
Lekin usane ek labz bhi nahi nikaala...aur chal pada....
Aise hi 2 din beet gaye....mujhe mera maan kha raha tha....baar baar ateeq ka chehara aankho ke samane aa raha tha....uss se ek baar maafi mangani thi....
Par kaha dhundata main usey?....naam ,ghar,galli... kuchh pata nahi tha...
bahot dhunda usey.......
Aur aakhir mujhe woh mil gaya....
"Why you are following me? Ya phir se gaand marna chahate ho mhari?......agar aisi baat hai toh....apane lund ki bhook mita do...aur mera pichha chhod do.."-ateeq
"Mhane galat mat samjho....i m sorry.."-
"Its..ok..............ab mil gayi na maafi..........now you can go"-ateeq
"Aap english jaante ho?"-
"Gareeb zaroor hoo..anapadh nahi.."-aisa keh kar ateeq chala gaya
Us din ke baad...din bhar main ateeq ke hi khayalo mein dubane laga...raato ki neende bhi udd gayi thi...har din uski ek zalak pane ke liye main betaab rehata....
Sab kaam chhodake pahad par jaata....taaki woh mil sake.....woh bhi mujhe har din dekhata..par ek halki si muskaan bhi nahi deta....
8 din yahi chal raha tha....
Aur ek din us ne meri taraf aakar kaha
"Aap aisa kyun kar rahe ho?kya problem hai aapko"-ateeq
"Main kya kar raha hoo?"-
"Yehi...mera pichha...last 8 din se aap mere pichhe hi pade hai".-ateeq
"Tune mhara jeena haraam kar diya hai...aisa lagane laga hai ki...tujhe chahane laga hoo main..."-
"Bas....aisi baata aapko shobha nahi deti ranaji.....aap bade log ho..aapka kya jaayega?..par hum gareeb log hai....hamari izzat hi humara sab kuchh hai..."-ateeq
"Sirf ek baar mere gale se lag jao na..."
Aisa keh kar maine jabardasti se usey apane baho mein le liya.....woh bejaan sa reh gaya....aur maine usey chuma......kuchh der tak kuchh nahi hua......lekin phir... dheere dheere woh bhi meri taraf khichane laga....
Dono ek dusare mein kab kho gaye yeh humein hi pata nahi tha....kab hum zameen par aa gaye aur kab tan se kapade utar gaye....aur kab hum ek dusare ke baaho mein kho gaye ..sab kuchh hi pal mein ho gaya.....
"pyar karane laga hoo tumase......aur ek baat main yeh sab lund ki bhook mitane ke liye nahi kar raha hoo.......Kal miloge na?....."-
"Hmmm.........mhara intzaar karana..."-ateeq
Aur uss din ke baad .... hum har din milane lage.....har roz wahi hota.tha...hum ghanto tak ek dusare se baatein karate...ek dusare ke baho main kho jaate.....
Aur ek kisiki nazar hum par pad gayi......usane jaakar yeh baat mere baba ko bata di...baba ko bahot gussa aaya...
Jab main ghar aaya.....toh pahale mere gaal par ek thappad pada...... inhone mujhe bahot dantaa...
"Namard kahi ke.....puri gaon ki saari ladakiya chodata..toh kuchh nahi kehata ...lekin aisi cheeze?...sharam nahi aati kya?....."-baba
"Sharam kyo baba...mujh mein ek dil hai..jo ek dusare dil se pyar karata hai..."
Baba ka gussa aur chad gaya..usane mujhe bahar jaane ke liye mana kar diya...waha ateeq ka toh mujhase battar haal ho gaya tha....usake abba aur chacha ne usey bahot maara.....hum dono tadap rahe the......
Aur thik 4 din baad.....maine ateeq ko ek dost ke haato ek 'chitthi' bheji....raat ko main sabki nazar churakar ghar se bhag gaya....aur sidha ateeq ke ghar aaya...ateeq ke ghar sab so rahe the....main ateeq ko dabi awaaz di ....aur....ateeq bhi bina kuchh kahe puchhe mere saath bhag gaya.....pyar toh yeh hota hai ..usane apane aap ko puri tarah mere hawale kiya tha....badi mushkil ke baad...hum goa pahunche..
.....aisa laga ki ab sab dukh khatam ho gaye....humein ek room bhi mila....aur do din pyar ki baarish mein gaye......waha sab duriya mit gayi.....hum puri tarah ek dusare ke ban chuke the......aur.....achanak ateeq ki tabiyat bighad gayee.....main usey hospital lekar gaya....der raat ko doctor ne ek medicine lane ko kaha....aur main wahi laane ja raha tha ki......
..................tumhari gaadi se takara gaya......."-krishna
***
Krishna ki baato ne mujhe rula hi diya...woh toh puri tarah ateeq ke pyar mein duba tha......mujhe aisa laga ki main khamkha unake bich mein aa raha tha.....woh toh puri tarah ek dusare ke ban chuke the....... mera na jaane usake jeevan mein koi sthan nahi tha........
Ateeq bahut 'lucky' tha . .jise krishna jaisa pyar karanewala mil gaya tha.........aur main sabase 'unlucky' zindagi mein pehali pyar kisise pyar kiya...aur woh 'at last' one sided ho gaya......
Kuchh der baad hospital mein ateeq aa gaya......woh nazara dekh kar sabaki aankhe gili ho gayi.....woh dono gale mil gaye....
"Raanaji.......ek mahine se aap kaha the...main samajha aap mujhe akela chhod kar chale gaye....."-ateeq
"pagal.....mhari jaan hai tu...aur koi jaan ko chhod sakata hai ka......par......Ek mahina....?accident toh kal raat ko hi hua na...."-krishna
"Kuchh nahi rajveer................piichhale ek mahine se aap 'coma' mein the......"-maine kisi aur ko bolane nahi diya....kyo ki main baat ko aur badhana nahi chahata tha...
"Ranaji aapke baba ka phone aaya tha....unko humara pyar manjoor hai......unhone humein firse rajsthan bulaya hai.......mere abbu ko bhi unhone manaa liya hai..."-ateeq
Un dono ke chehare par khushi dekhkar main mera saara dukh bhul hi gaya tha....yeh pyar aisa hi hota hai...........koi kuchh bhi kahein par aakhir jeet sachhe pyar ki hi huee thi.....shayad GOD ne uesy sirf mujhe sahi raaste par laane ke liye bheja tha.....krishna ke saath bitaya ek mahina..mujhe sab kuchh sikha gaya........meri bejaan zindagi apane raaste par chal padi....shayad.....yehi mere pyar ki kahaani ka 'climax' tha......
***************the end*****************
love u all....
manlove goa
episode 1
pyar.....ishq...mohabat..........kitane 'irritating' words hai na..............yeh pyar kab kisako ho jaye......pata hi nahi chalata......kabhi kisiko hasata hai....toh kabhi rulata hai........25 saal tak maine kabhi bhi iss so called "love' ke aagey haar nahi maani thi........main..... mera 'GYM'.......mere dost.......aur bindhast zindagi...........maano toh..' typical GOAN
guy'......'sushegaad'............main........Chrispian........aapka..CHRISmaine zindagi mein kabhi kisi baat ka tension nahi liya...........pyar karane ke baare mein kabhi socha nahi tha.........."a girl is only for sex...."......pyar -vyar in cheezo mein 'time waste ' nahi karaneka.........aur........Gay-love toh bahot door ki baat.......zindagi mast thi.........jaise highway par.....100 ke speed se bhag rahi thi........par ...........us raat meri zindagi ne U turn liya..........us raat main GYM bandh karake........mere dost sourabh ke 'birthday' party mein gaya tha.........hum sab dost aadhi raat tak pite rahe....."hey...chris......enough dude...........you already crossed your limit......"-raj"shut up man.....its sourabh's birthday........"-main apni masti mein tha"....hey chris......rohan arraned 2-3 girls.........wanna screw......??"-sourabh"kaminey....yaha yeh thik se khada nahi ho pa raha hai........'woh' kaise khada hoga?"-raj"hahahhaha..........no dear....i am going now......"-main table se uthh gaya......."mad.....where are you going?you are not in that state..........gaadi chala nahi paoge....."-sourabh"shut up........"-aur main kuchh sune bina........uthkar gaadi mein baith gaya.............sab kuchh hil raha tha.........haa....'drinks'...jyada ho gaya tha.........maine gaadi start ki........aur.......chal pada......2 km ke baad....suddenly....................."dhhhhhadhhhhaaaaak"karake aawaz huee.......koi mere gaadi ko aake takara gaya........"oh fuckkkk"-maine gadi stop ki........aur pichhe dekha......ek ladaka raste pe pada tha.........main gaadi se utar gaya..........aur bhagake usake paas gaya......woh ladka behosh ho gaya tha....saanse chal rahe thi....sar par chot lagi thi.....khoon beh raha tha........."oh god.........what i did this?..."-main bina kuchh soche samajhe usako uthaya.......jaha main khud chalane ki haalaat mein nahi tha.......waha usako uthake chal raha tha.... maine usako gaadi mein dala........... aur badi mushkil se flat pe pahucha.......sar bahot dard kar raha tha.......jaise kisine sar par bhojh rakha tha......maine usko mere 'bed 'pe litaya.........aur......ek gila kapada leke.....uske zakham saaf kiye............chehare se mere 'age' ka hi mehsoos ho raha tha.......25-26 ka......maine uska shirt utara jo....raste pe ghisane ke kaaran wah fata hua tha.........haath pe bhi kuchh ghav the........uske 'dressing style' se woh Goan nahi lag raha tha......uski pant bhi fat gayi thi.........so..maine woh bhi utaari.............aur............oh god........andar aur kuchh nahi tha..............underwear bhi nahi.......maine us ke paav ke zakham bhi saaf kiye..........waise toh khaate-pite ghar ka lag raha tha.....kamina.... meri neende udakar bindhast pada hua tha.........maine uspar ek chaadar daali aur.......main bathroom gaya.......chakkar sa aa raha tha.........just ...T-shirt utara......pant utari aur.....maine aur der nahi ki aur uske baju mein aakar so gaya........total flat*****kareeb kareeb 1 -2 ghante beet gaye.......aur meri aankh khul gayee.........maine uska muh..ekdam mere muh ke kareeb paya..........aur usaka ek paav mere thik 'dick' ke upar.........ekdam direct........usaki garam saanse...........nanga badan..............aur 'sharab ke nashe 'ne mujhe pagal kiya...........maine mera muh usake aur kareeb laya......aur ....usey 'smooch' kiya............pata nahi mujhe kya ho gaya tha........mere 'laude' ka size badal gaya.............mujhe kuchh hone laga........main kya kar raha tha ..mujhe hi pata nahi tha................aur maine usako ulta kar diya..........usaki taange faila di....aur..mere badan ki aag bujhane ke liye....mera khada 'hathiyar' usake andar dala diya...........woh toh behoshi mein tha.........phir bhi shayad kuchh dard mehsus kar raha tha......aur mere upar shayad 'bhediya' sawaar tha..........bina kisi baat ki parvah kiye.........machine jaise chalata gaya...........aur finally.......main shaant hua........ab thakaan mehsus ho rahi thi.......kuchh der baad main...phir se so gaya.......****phirse subah 6.30 baje meri aankh khul gayi..........pure hosh mein.....sar abhi bhi dard kar raha tha.........suddenly meri nazar 'side' mein nange pade us ladke par padi.........kuchh pal ke liye main usey bhool hi gaya tha......aur.... raat ka pura 'scene' mere aankho ke samane aa gaya...."oh...shit...............fuck....fuckkk.....fuckkkk............"mujhe mere galati ka ka ehsas ho raha tha......"god..........maine uska 'rape' kar diya................ek toh nashe mein gaadi chalayee........upar se accident kiya.........aur sabase badi cheez.......'saala....'rape' kar diya.......................ab toh bachana mushkil hai.................yeh jab...uthega....tab.........kya hoga?agar yeh 'police station' jaakar meri complaint kare toh..........?oh no............."
to be cont
episode 2
.....hamesha main subah 7.00 ko GYM open karata tha....par ab oh...possible nahi tha.....maine mere dost RAJ ko phone kiya......"hey raj...good morning........come to my flat yaar.......""what happened chris?any problem?"-raj".....dude..i am in terrible situation.........mere haatho kal accident hua........i banged one guy..........aur usako hosh nahi aa raha hai......""relax.......i am coming.......usko doctor ke paas leke jaayenge...."-raj"no....i can manage that.......just do a favor on me.........GYM ki keys collect kar aur..zara GYM open kar........""ok......take care......i am reaching in 15 minutes..."-raj*****raj aakar keys leke gaya...............2 ghante bit gaye.....par woh hosh mein aane ka naam nahi le raha tha........main toh pura ghabara gaya tha......maine aur der nahi ki......usako mere kapade pehanakar...gadi mein dala... aur....Goa.Medical.Collage ki ore chal pada................uspar treatment shuru ho gayi.....zindagi mein pehali baar mein itana tense tha........doctor ne uska scanning kiya.......aur mujhe andar bulaya....."yes...come in..........have a seat"-doctor"thanks..."-"aap koun hai......patient ke....?"-doctor"aa........."-ek pal ke liye kya bataoo woh samajh mein nahi aa raha tha....sach bataoo ya jhoot..."doctor....actually....woh kal raat mere gaadi ko takara gaya ......main waise hi usey uthakar mere ghar le aaya.....mujhe laga ki jald hi hosh mein aayega...par.......ab waisa nahi hua.....so yaha le aaya...."-"very good.................i appriciate.....that u did not left him on the road..............chalo,is paper pe sign karana.........as a friend.........."-doctor"ok........par woh thik hoga na?"-maine sign karate karate punchha"yeah thats what................chal..let me tell you in detail......................usko AMNESIA hua hai..........means.......deficit in memory caused by brain damage............matlab.....dimag par chot lagane ke kaaran....uski yaaddaash chali gayi hai......"-doctor"what??"-"yes......usko apana naam bhi yaad nahi hoga.......so.....aaj se jaise tum chahoge waise usaki zindagi mod sakate ho.........."-doctor"par...main kyon...?yeh mera koi nahi hai...."-"pata hai.....par.......yeh sirf hamare ilaaz ka tarika hai..........matlab hum usey ....relax...envoirnment mein rakhenge...............jisase usake thik hone ke 'chances' badhenge........aur mat bhulo ki yeh 'accident' tumase hua hai..........case ban sakata hai........ab isey thik karane ki jimmedari bhi tumhari hai....................agar tum issey 'accept' nahi karate ho.......toh isey mujhe 'police' ke haawale karana padega.....................choice is yours"-doctor"thik hai.....main isey mere ghar rakhunga......."mere paas aur koi 'option nahi tha....aur main 'police' ke lafade mein nahi padana chahata tha......."toh sabase pehale hum.....isey ek naam dege..............ek achha sa naam batao................tumhara naam kya hai?"-doctor"chris....i mean chrispian................""ok....toh..............krishna kaise rahega..............chris aur krish..............wow............krishna""good name.........""......chalo ek story banate hai.........krishna aur tum bahot achhe dost hai...........'dostana ' banaye?"-doctor"what the fuck........i am straight guy......"-"hahhaha....mazaak kar raha tha...........chalo 'sholey' wali dosti...jai-veeru...............woh anaath......ab woh tumhare saath hi rehata tha........tum kaam kya karate ho?"-doctor"mera khudaka GYM hai........"-"ok.....yeh tujhe GYM mein madad karata tha........thats it.....baaki kahani apane aap hi banegi......"-doctor"par yeh kitane din chalega?"-"jab tak....usaki yaad-dash wapas na aa jaye........"--doctor*****sachmuch main puri tarah se fans gaya tha.......kaash main jyada drinks nahi pita.................kaash main us haalat mein gaadi nahi chalata......kaash main usey ghar nahi laata.......itane saare kaash................yeh GOD bhi na....kya kya GAMES khelata hai.....koun ..kahaka krishna mere gale mein pad gaya.........main bahot pareshan tha.....tabhi"excuse..me..............aap chrispian ji hai na......?krishna hosh mein aaye hai...."-ek nurse aakar boli"ji haa....aata hoo.........."-aur main 'ward' mein gaya............pehali baar maine usaki khuli aankhe dekhi thi.......bina chehare ke bhav badale...woh mujhe dekhata hi reh gaya......."krishna................."-mere muh se apane aap nikal gaya.........
to be cont
episode 3
jaise hi maine usey awaaz di........woh soch mein pad gaya......"krishna......tu thik hai na?"-"aap kun ho"-usake muh se shabd nikal gaye......"main chris hoo ..tera dost........"-"mhu katthe hoo? .......mhara naam kaain hai?"-woh ek ke baad ke sawal karane laga......."tumhara naam krishna hai....main tera dost chris hoo............tumhe accident ho gaya tha krishna.................jisame tum apni yaad-dash kho baithe ho...........""Tu kashyo ke hai? "-usane mujhase punchha"what???"-sach kaho toh ...woh kya bola mere samajh mein nahi aaya......"krishna...yeh kya bol raha hai tu.......?kounsi bhasha.....?KONKANI...ya english....ya achhi..thik hindi mein bolo na..................tu thik hai na?"-.........sabse pehale mujhe thik se hindi nahi aa rahi thi...........aur ab yeh 'HI-FI' tarah ki hindi bol raha tha.........."Main thik thak choon"-krishna"cool down chris.................woh RAJSTHANI language bol raha hai........"-doctor"krishna tumhe mujhase pehale jaise....hindi mein baat karana padega......""mhane pato koni kaai chal riyo hai....."-krishna"oh god..........what is going on....? i am totally finished..................doctor saab itani badi sazaa?"- isake saath main kaise din kaatunga ..yeh mujhe hi pata nahi tha.........."relax......chris.........chalo bahar chalate hai..........sham tak hum issey ghar bhej sakate hai....."-doctor"ghar?....matalab mere ghar........?"-main aur doctor baahar aa gaye"doctor..........ab main pagal ho jaaunga...............isaki yaad-daash laate laate meri 'memmory' definately chali jaayegi........................hum thik se baat bhi nahi kar sakenge.........woh kya bolata hai....mujhe samajh mein hi nahi aa raha hai..........."-"cool............bhasha sirf 'communication 'ka 'medium' hai.................dil se baat karo........"-doctor"hmmm....what do you mean by 'dil se'.................aisa lag raha hai...ki dil hi nikal kar issey doo.........."ab tak mare dost bhi hospital pahuche the........."kya kaha doctor ne?"-sourabhmaine sab kuchh bataya................."pagal....why you told doctor that.....you did the accident?"-raj"raj...jo kuchh hua....woh ho gaya....................ab aagey kya hoga...?...............main isake saath kaise rahoo?"-"chal...........pehale usko ghar leke jaate hai........baaki usko bhagaane ka kaam tum hum par chhodo...................tum dekh lena wahi tera ghar chhod ke bhag jaayega"-rajek raat mein main ....aasamaan se zameen pe gir pada tha.....kaisi thi zindagi meri.....aur kya ban gayi thi.....
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sham ko main 'so called' krishna ko mere flat pe leke aaya.......aane ke baad usase...ek labz bhi nahi bola.............woh bhi chup hi tha........jab se aaya....tab se woh 'sofa' pe hi baitha raha........shayad usey bhi...mera flat anjaan lag raha tha.........aur kyon na lage..................anjaan toh hi tha.......kuchh der baad sourabh aaya.......aur main aur sourabh mere room mein gaye.........woh bahar hi baitha raha.......bahot der humane baatein ki........aur suddenly sourabh bola"hey..chris...us raaj ki baat mat maan dude........"-sourabh"matlab?"-"woh bahar akela baitha hai.............maanata hoo.......tujhe usey jabardasti jhelana pad raha hai.....par woh mariz hai...................."-sourabh"mariz ho toh kya hua???.......maine usey yaha nahi bulaya.......mera 'flat' anathalay' nahi hai.......jo koi bhi aaye aur ruk jaaye...."-"waisey toh bahot bhola bhala lagata hai.............bhagawaan kare jald se jald usaki yaad-daash aaye..............tab tak sambhal lena yaar usey................dosti kar na usase"-sourabh"sourabh.....i have enough friends...................i dont want more........"-"ok.........chilla mat................aur agar dil kare.........at least usey khana dena..............bill chahe toh main pay karunga......"aisa kehkar sourabh bahar chala gaya.................main jo kar raha tha....woh sahi yaa galat yeh mujhe pata nahi tha..........par haa....bahot gusse mein zaroor tha...............dheere dheere raat ho gayi aur main bahar aa gaya.......woh waha hi baitha tha............pata nahi kaise itani der ek hi jagah pe baithake rehata hai........"kuchh khana hai kya?"-maine haatho se ishara karake kadi aawaz mein punchhausane ....sar hila kar 'haa' bola....maine freeze khola aur....'pork chops' aur 'pork skillet' oven mein garam karake.....plate banakar usey diya....kuchh der tak woh khane ko dekhata hi reh gaya......maine toh already khana start kiya tha......maine usaki taraf dekha......"khao na.........kya khana bhi bhool gaya?"-"Mane tha koni ki mhu kha saku. ....."-krishnausake chehare aur 'expressions' se mujhe pata chala ki...usey yeh khana pasand nahi hai.....aur woh nahi khana chahata......"toh bol mere baap.....kya khilau tujhe?"-maine gusse mein hi sourabh ko phone lagaya......"sourabh,tu bol raha tha na.......isako achha khana de...............plate bana ke diya hai........lekin sarkar bol rahe hai............yeh khane ka maan nahi kar raha hai........."-"what u gave him?"-sourabh"pork chops and pork skillet..."-"arey....woh rajsthani hai.....not Goan.....shayad Hindu ya muslim bhi ho sakata hai.......ek veg thali order kar aur de usey....."-sourabhmaine phone rakh diya aur.....udupi hotel se ek veg thali order ki........aur...usane chup chap maze se kha li........"toh ...aapke liye ab roz......veg khana banana padega..?.......kya kya tension yaar......"-sach-much dimag ka 'fuse' ud gaya tha........maine usko bathroom, wash-basin dikhaya......woh mujhse kuchh punchhana chahata tha........"thu(aap) mharati naraaz hai ka...?mhe koi galati kidi hai ka?"-krishna"boss.....please......agar mujhase bolana hai.....at least ENGLISH nahi aati..toh hindi mein bolane ki koshish karo..............nahi toh mat bolo.........."-"ji.......ka mhe...?.......nahi.......mhane maaf karo...............ka....main athe rehata tha..........pehale"-usane mujhase hindi mein baat karane ki koshish ki"haa......tu yaha hi rehata tha.....mere saath......aur Konkani bolata tha....kabhi kabhi hindi bolata tha.....achhi wali........rajsthani nahi........."-aur bina kuchh kahe.... main...sone ke liye bedroom gayasaala dimag ka dahi ban gaya tha............kuchh hi pal mein...main so gaya.......***der raat 2 baje meri aankh khul gayi.......aur...usaki yaad aayi..........main bed se uthake ....baahar aaya...........woh 'sofa' pe hi so gaya tha..............shayad usey thand lag rahi thi.......maine andar jaakar meri 'blanket' uthayee aur....usake upar daal di.......
to be cont....
Episode 4
dusare din woh mujhase pehale utth gaya....
6.30 baje main bhi utth gaya....GYM jo open karana tha.....
"good morning...."-maine bahar aate aate ussey kaha....jab maine uski ore dekha toh......toh..maine dekha ki usaki aankho mein aansu the......"kya hua dude....?"-".................."usney sirf apna sar hilaya.."-"Chill man....tension mat ley...koi problem hai kya?".-"Khoon......... nikal raha hai............pichhe se".-krishna"Oh......".-Mujhe parso ki raat yaad aayi...maine uske saath jabardasti rough sex kiya tha.....bina kisi lubrication ke..."arey.......Lagata hai.....doctor logo ne test karane ke liye andar kuchh dala hoga...kuchh anti-ceptics laga le....thik ho jayega...".
maine usey ek anticeptic cream di.....phir maine chay banayee....aur break-fast karake main usey ghar mein akela chhodkar Gym mein aa gaya....Jaate waqt maine usasey punchha....
"Kya tumhe roti,chapati,ya 'nan' banaana aata hai?"..."Ha...."-krishna ne sar hilaya"Toh ek kaam kar.....kitchen mein aata bhigokar chapati banaane ke liye tayyar kar.....main aane ke baad fry karata hoo.....".-"Ha..."-
***Aur main gym chala gaya......thodi toh rahat ki saans mili.......subah ka din achha gaya.......aur main ghar lotane ke liye badha....
tabhi meri nazar Church par pad gayi.........aur bahut saalo baad maine church mein paav rakha ...
"God.....i never asked anything from you...till today........aaj pehali baar kuchh maang raha hoo..........just a small request...'meri zindagi se usey nikaal de...'..aisa kuchh miracle kar ki woh mujhe ..humara accident......sab kuchh bhul jaaye......please...god..please"
aur main flat pe aa gaya......door bell baja di.......par bahut der tak darwaaza nahi khula......"krishna......krishna.......main aa gaya hoo"-
aur aakhir ........darwaaza khul gaya...
"kya yaar....kitani der.......you cant hear the bell sound?"-main hamesha ki tarah bhadaka...toh woh rone laga......."what happened now?"....meri nazar usake haatho par gayi...woh jale huye the......"oh...fuck........what is this?kya hua yeh?kaise hua...?"-"roti...... bana raha tha" "shit yaar.......god ......tujhe kisane yeh sab karane ke liye bola tha......?maine saaf saaf bola tha main aakar 'fry' karunga.............kyu mujhe chain se jeene nahi de raha hai tu?"-mera dimag satak gaya thamaine usake haatho ko 'burnol' lagaya......
"aur ab rona band kar............"
woh waisa hi sofa par let gaya......
kitchen sab ganda karake rakha tha....har jagah aata pada tha.....gas 'on' tha......uspar 'frying pan' lal ho chuka tha........
maine sourabh ko call kiya..."yaar sourabh.....mujhase aur nahi hoga..........i cant handle this all.... "-"kya hua?...."-sourabh"dono haath jala kar liye hai usane......saahab 'roti' banaane chale the.....very irritating yaar.."-"relax chris....."-sourabh"saala...pata nahi kounsa paap kiya tha....jo yeh saja mil rahi hai.....kitani achhi zindagi thi meri yaar.....Hell ban chuki hai......."-"sab thik hoga.....be cool..."-sourabh"kya thik hoga?....sab kuchh tere birthday ki wajah se hua.........shit.."-"trust in god......"-
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maine khana bana diya......pura veg............maine... do plates bana di........ek mujhe aur ek usey.....
aur maine khana start kar diya.......tabhi mujhe ehsaas hua ki...woh apane haatho se khana nahi kha payega....hey bhagawan....tumase kya maanga tha aur tu mujhe kya de raha hai.....woh mujhe dekh raha tha......
"kya dekh raha hai.....ruk..main khilata hoo......"-aur maine uske paas gaya....usaki plate haath mein li aur...usey khana khilana shuru kiya......woh mujhe dekhata hi reh gaya.....
********us din mujhe usako khilana...pilana....aur nehalana..bhi...pada.....
jab maine usko nehalakar...usaki underwear badalane ke liye gaya.......toh woh...mujhase door gaya.....
"idiot.....hahhaha......main sab kuchh dekh chuka hoo tera.....ab aur kuchh dekhana baki nahi hai......mad"
woh phir se mere paas aa gaya....aur maine usake kapade badal diye.....sachmooch....
jitana main usake door jaane ki koshish kar kar raha tha..utana hi na chahkar kareeb jaa raha tha......
to be cont
episode 5
ladate ,jhagadate,gussa karate...kaisey 15 din gujare yeh pata hi nahi chala.......
ab...krishna bhi....ghar mein dheere dheere ghulane laga tha......
mere dost bhi usase 'friendship' karane lage the......
krishna ke haath bhi thik ho chuke the.....ab woh apana kaam khud hi karata tha...woh thodi bahot hamari language samajhane laga tha........
maine bhi usake saath 'adjust 'karana sikh liya tha......yeh kaho ki....woh hi mere saath 'adjust' kar raha tha......
mujhe ab woh mere ghar ka ek hissa lagane laga tha...................
jaane kahasa se ek 'ajanabee' ghar mein aata hai.....aur yu 'jaadu' karake sabko apana bana leta hai..............
shayad bhagwan ne hi usey ..mujhe thik karane ke liye bheja tha.......'ghar' kya hota hai..yeh maine in 15 dino mein hi sikha tha.......nahi toh mere liye 'ghar' ka matlab sirf sone ki jagah thi.......na kabhi maa-baap ki suni na hi dosto ki........par iss kaminey ne bina kuchh kahe hi mujhe 'track' par laake chhoda tha.....
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us raat.....main 'guitar' ke saath chhed khani kar raha tha.......krishna sofa par baitha tha......
mere 'guitar 'ke dhun ko usane pakada aur kuchh ajeeb gaana shuru kiya......
.........."Baisa ra beera mhne pivariyele halo sa.......Baisa ra beera mhne pivariye pohchado sa..pivariye ri mhane olu aawe............"
"wow...........krishna ...bahut achha ga raha hai tu...."-"dhanyawadh ji...."-krishna"par isaka matlab kya hai???.."-"matlab?...main....mhane mhara ghar.......yaad aa raha hai......mujhe waha pahucha do"-krishna...ka chehara udaas hua"what is this krishna.....?tumhare aankho mein phir aansu?.......Rajsthani song tumako rulaata hai na.........toh ab 'Goan' song suno........u ll enjoy...sab dard bhul jaaoge"-"hmmmm......"-krishna
......"Kalzan san mog tuzo hanv kortam,......Sodanch tujea mogak axetam,Dis-rath sopnant tuka dekhtam,........Fudar chintun dukham golloitam….......Tum moga hene thene vaat chamkotanam,...Gomaan dinaim maka porva tuka nam,Hanv tuka mojench korunk motint chintanam,....Kiteak sandun gelaim maka somzonam...juliana.....juliana......moga mhojea........juliana......""u like krishna.....?.....krishna........oh krishna....moga mhojea.......oh krishna...."
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mujhe pata tha ki maine kya gaaya..woh krishna ko samajh mein nahi aaya....phir bhi pehali baar maine usake chehare par ek....alag si hansi dekhi thi.....jo mujhe bhi muskaan deke chali gayi......
shayad ..pichhale kahi dino se .....main usake chehare par yahi 'smile' dekhana chahata tha.......
mere saath woh bhi 'last lines' gungunane laga.........
"krishna.....oh krishna....moga mhojea.......oh krishna........""you know krishna?.........moga mhojea matalab......my love....mere sanam...hahaha..."-main hans pada
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raat ho chuki thi......
raat ko hum.....beach pe gaye.......waha bahot saari...tuti-futi bhasha mein baatein ki.......
bhel puri ...pani puri khake ghar laute......
krishna hamesha ki tarah sofa par sone gaya.......
"krishna......"-"ji sa............"-krishna"mere saath bed par andar so jao.........."-"ji nahi....yaha thik..hai"-krisha"main keh raha hoo na......."-
krishna mere gusse ko jaanata tha......so woh bechara chupchap apana bistar leke mere bed pe aa gaya.........
"maine tumhe bahot sataya na krishna....."-"nahi ji....."-krishna
krishna mere 'side' mein hi so gaya tha........mujhe usake hoth bula rahe the..........maine kuchh kahe punchhe bina.......usake hotho ko 'lock' kar diya.............usane bhi apani aankhe band kar di.......garam saanse....mehsus ho rahi thi..........hum dono ek ajeeb duniya mein the....
...tabhi..........mujhe us raat ka nazara yaad aaya.....aur maine.....mere hotho ko usase alag kar diya....aur bed se uthkar bahar gaya......
"kya hua sa...?mharese....koi galati hui......?"-krishna"nahi krishna....galati tumase nahi....galati toh maine ki hai...................krishna main achha insan nahi hoo...i am not a good human being........i raped you.........us raat jab tum behosh the...maine tumhare saath jabardasti...anal sex kiya tha.............mere upar shaitaan sawaar tha.........i am sorry krishna"-pehali baar mujhe meri kisi baat ka afsos ho raha tha....
"koi baat nahi...mhara sab kuchh thara hi to hai......"-krishnakrishna ki baat ne mujhe rula diyamaine uthkar usey gale lagaya........
"raanaji...thu mhane pyar karein hai kain?"krishna
"pata nahi......mera dil .....teri ore khinch raha hai....."
"par main thane...pyar karoo choo.........."-krishna
us raat hum ek dusare ke baho mein so gaye..........bina kuchh kiye.....shayad meri zindagi ne naya mod liya tha......mujhe bhi pyar hone laga tha...woh bhi ek ladake se.........
to be cont....
Episode 6
Din ke baad din ja rahe the....waisa hi hamara pyar bhi badh raha tha...aur yuhi mahina beet gaya.....
Mere dosto ke liye..."krishna" ka matlab sirf ek saza thi....jise main bhugat raha hoo.......par woh sab yeh nahi jaanate the ki...woh sazaa mere liye kab ki ek 'uphaar' ban chuki thi.....
Krishna hamesha subah mujhase pehale uthata tha.....aur saaf-safaee ka karata tha...khana banana usako nahi aata tha...par hamesha mujhe help karata tha......baad mein hum dono gym jaate the.... dophar ghar aate....khana khate.....dosto ko milate....yuhi din nikal jaata tha...
Kahe toh "full to dhamaal"...woh bhi GOA ke envoirnment mein ghulane laga tha....usake saath mera ek dil ka rishta ban chuka tha......humein ek dusare ki itani aadat ho gayi thi ...ki..agar zarasa bhi woh mere nazaro se door hua toh main ghabara jata tha....
Us raat hum dono mere dosto ke saath miramar beach pe baithe the...hansi mazaak chal raha tha....samundar ki thandi hawa kuchh alag hi maza de rahi thi...
aur tabhi Raaj aakar mere 'lap' par.. apana sar rakh ke so gaya....
usake liye yeh normal tha.......
par yeh dekhakar krishna ki vaat lag layi......usaki jalan ko main dekh sakata tha.........aur usaka jalana bhi swabhavik tha...mere kareeb woh kisiko dekh nahi sakata tha....aur mere lap par sirf usaka hi haq tha........
"Chris...saale.....tera vibrator...chalu ho raha hai..."-raa
"Kaminey....uthhh......ja"-maine raaj ko phenk hi diya....
krishna ki aankhe mujhe ghur kar dekh rahi thi...pehale krishna mujhase darata tha...par ab main krishna se darane laga tha.....
Ab ghar jaakar krishana ko manana padanewala tha.......
Krishna muh phula ke baitha tha.....
"Hey krishna.....ghar chale kya?"...maine krishna se punchha
Usane sar hilake haa bola.......aankho se gussa chhalak raha tha.....
"Chalo bhai.....apane boss.. ka hukum hai....lets go.."-aur hum sab uth gaye....
Sourabh aagey gaya....usake pichhe Raaj aur Aseem gaye....aur main krishna ke pichhe chalata raha.......mera mood krishna ko hasaane ka tha...
'Kaminey...ko gussa bahut jaldi aata hai......'
Road ke uss paar hamari car park ki thi....sabane road cross kiya.....aur krishna road cross kar hi raha tha tabhi....
Ek toofaani speed se aati gaadi krishna ko takarayee...
"Krishhhhhhhnaaaaaaaaaaa......"-mere muh se chikh nikali.....ek pal ke liye meri saanse ruk gayi......aankho ke saamane andhera chaa gaya......ek pal aisa laga ki sab khatam ho gaya
krishna raaste par pada tha...khoon pani ki tarah beh raha tha....main toh kuchh dekhane ke haalat mein nahi tha....
sirf zor zor se rota raha.....mere dosto ne 108 ko call kiya......aur kuchh pal main hum G.M.C....pahuch gaye.....
Krishna bahot serious tha......mere muh se ek baat bhi nahi nikal rahi thi.....nikal rahe the toh sirf aansu......
puri Zindagi mein kisike liye itana roya nahi tha.....sirf krishna ko khone ka daar har pal sata raha tha.....Bure bure vichar baar baar maan mein aa rahe the...aur..mere dost mujhe sahara de rahe the........
Har ek church....ek mandir...masjid... jaakar humane maatha rakha.......aur aakhir main usi church gaya...jaha maine bhagwan se pehale kuchh maanga tha... ....... ki 'mere zindagi se krishna ko nikaal do'.
church mein jaakar main ghutano par gir gaya........
"God...ji haa....meri hi galati hai....maine hi tumase maanga tha ki krishna ko mere life se nikal do.....but....this is not the way....you cant do this.........now things are changed god ...ab main krishna se pyar karata hoo......usake bina zinda rahake bhi main murda banake rahoonga....ab humare sirf jism 2 hai....aatma se toh hum kabase ek dusare se jud chuke hai.............krishna ke bina chris adhura hai.................please god......uska pyar mujhe nahi mila toh bhi chalega ....par usaki jaan mujhe vapas de do...... please god ..please...".
church se seedha main hospital gaya.......aur....tab doctor ne kaha...".he is out of danger...."
tab mere aankho ne sab kuchh keh diya.......aansu to rukane ke naam hi nahi le rahe the......ye woh aansu the...jisako main zindagi bhar bhi bahane ko taiyar tha.....bahot khush tha main......khushi ki koi seema nahi thi.......laga raha tha jaise aasmaan ko hi chhoo liya ho....
par krishna ko hosh mein aane pure do din lage...
hum sab bahar the........
tabhi doctor ne kaha.....
"suno......patient ko hosh aa gaya hai....."-
"woooo....doctor you rockkk.......main usey mil sakata hoo?"-
"ji ha...kyu nahi.......par tum mein se....ATEEQ koun hai...?"-doctor
"ateeq???......doctor usane CHRIS kaha hoga........."-sourabh
"ji nahi.....woh baar baar ateeq ko bula raha hai......."-doctor
"pata nahi koun........par hum mein koi ATEEQ nahi hai...."-Raaj
"koi baat nahi......tum log usey mil sakate ho"-doctor
aur main bhagake krishna ke paas gaya......woh das kadamo ka faasala us waqt 10 kilometer ka laga........
krishna ki khuli aankhe dekhakar maan bhar gaya......maine sab kuchh pa liya.....
maine usey gale lagaya...
"where is ATEEQ?"-krishna ne mujhe apane se dur karate huye kaha...
"ateeq koun krishna?"-main usey punchha
"ATEEQ...my ateeq.........and i am not krishna.......mhara naam RAJVEER hai.....aap log koun hai?"-krishna
"yeh kya keh rahe ho krishna.......main tumhara chris......ye raaj....yeh yeh sourabh......yeh aseem....aur tu English kab sikha.?"-
"what do you mean English kab sikha......New york se graduate hoo main......aur main aap logo ko nahi jaanata hoo......mere ateeq ko bulao...."-krishna
to be cont
episode 7
"Krishna...main chris.....enough dude....mazaak mat kar yaar.........mujhe pata hai.....tu gussa hai....mat sata na........i m sorry...."-mujhe kuchh pata nahi chal raha tha.. ki kya ho raha tha....
Tabhi doctor ne humein bahar bulaya....doctor ko hum ne uski history batayee.......
Baad mein doctor ne pehale wale doctor se baat ki....aur woh pehale wala doctor kuchh check-ups ke baad ...hum se mila....
"Congrats chris....you are too good.....tumane kar dikhaya...'krishna ki puri ki puri....yaad dash waapas aagayi hai.....only thing.....pichhale ek mahine mein kya hua....woh usey yaad nahi hai....so you are also safe now..."-doctor
Doctor ki baat sunake aisa laga jaise mere pairo ke niche ki zameen hil gayi hai...
Par mere dost log khush lag rahe the....
"Hey...chris....gaya na tera tension....now chill...and come back on track...."-raaj
"Par..abhi bhi uska Goa mein humaare siva koi nahi hai.....hum usey aisa nahi chhod sakate..."-maine raaj ki baat ko moda
"arey ab fir se lafde mein mat pad.......tu are free now....."-RAAJ
"Aur tu toh yahi chahata tha na.....".-sourabh
"Haa sourabh...par aise nahi....achhi tarah se vida karana chahata tha........hamare ek mahine ki dosti ko...aisa thukara ke nahi jaane dunga main usey....."-chris
"oh chris......chal lets go......."-sourabh
"doctor ...humare saath bitaya hua...ek pal bhi yaad nahi aayega?ek mahine mein jo lamhe hum ne yaadgaar banaye...woh sab ab mitti mein mil jaayenge?....."-chris
"kuchh keh nahi sakate.........usake dimag ke ek bhag mein tum sabki yaadein 'padi' hogi.....like hidden files in a computer......jo computer mein hoti hai....lekin dikhayi nahi deti hai...........par main sure nahi hoo ki usake 'brain' ka woh part fir se active hoga ki kahi....."-.doctor
"doctor... main jara usey fir se mil sakata hoo......kyon main usey akela nahi chhod sakata......usko yaad ho ya na ho....mere liye woh humaara dost hai......main usey kisi 'safe' haatho mein soupana chahata hoo......"-chris
"yes ...you can....but only one person......"-doctor
main fir se krishna ke paas gaya......
woh aankhe band karake pada tha....
"krishna...."-mere awaaz se usne aankhe kholi......
"rajveer.......rajveer hoo main........"-krishna
"sorry......rajveer........."-
"tum mere gaadi se takraaye the...raat 1.30 baje.............yaad hai..?"-
"hmmm...haa......mujhe yaad hai.........main rasta cross kar raha tha......chemist ke shop mein ja raha tha...........tabhi main gaadi ko takaraya tha...........achha......toh woh gaadi tumhari thi.......tum chala rahe the................... dekh meri haalat....sar pe patti dekho...................aagey se driving karate waqt dhyan rakhana......................"-krishna
"aur ATEEQ koun hai?"-
"ATEEQ mera dost ...usake liye hi toh main medicine lene ja raha tha...................oh god.......he is in ward number 344....mujhe waha jaana hai....."-krishna
"wait wait...utho mat...........woh thik hai...............uss se baat karani hai tumhe?"-
"haa...haa.....mujhe atwwq se baat karani hai.......kaha hai woh....?"-krishna
"mobile number hai uska?"-
"haa........9680968012"-krishna
krishna ne bataya hua number maine dial kiya..............
jaise phone ki ring baji....mera dil jor se dhadkane laga...
aur aakhir mein ......kisine phone uthaya......
maine aankhe band ki.......
"hello....."-
"hello....ateeq?"-
"ji haa......bol raha hoo....aap koun hai?-usaki awaaz se mere gaal par aansu ki bunde chhalakane lage...
"ji...ateeq main........main chris.....aapka dost krishna.....sorry..RAJVEER hospital mein hai......aap kaha hai?"-
"kya...?kya hua usey....?.......woh thik hai na?...koun se hospital mein VEERji?....."-ateeq
"dekhiye...woh bilkul thik hai....uska road accident hua tha.....darane ki koi baat nahi hai......aap kaha ho.....?"-
"main....margao mein hoo....actually woh pichhale ek mahine se missing hai....."-ateeq
"haa.....jaanate hai hum.....main aapko sab kuchh batata hoo......aap margao HDFC bank ke paas ruk jayiye...mera dost aapko lene aayega....."-
aur maine phone rakh diya...........aur raaj ko usey 'pick up' karne ke liye bhej diya....
"ab khush..?aapka dost aa raha hai.....mera dost usey lene ke liye gaya hai..."-
"haa......thank you very much.....aapka naam kya hai?"-krishna
"ji...chrispian............."-
"agar maine aapko chris bulaya toh chalega...?"-krishna
"ji.....actually ..mere sab dost mujhe chris hi bulate hai............."-
"aap mujhe krishna keh kar kyu bula rahe the....?-krishna
"haa...?..woh ek lambi kahani hai...phir kabhi bataunga....."-
"batao na......."-krishna
"actually...mera ek dost tha.........jo bilkul tumhari tarah dikhata tha.......yahi aankhe...yahi naak....yahi'lips'......aisehi baal....rang roop..........yeh sunake aapko tajub hoga.......woh ladka hokar bhi ..bahot pyar karata tha main uss se....."-mere aankhe phir se gili ho gayi..
"aur ab woh kaha hai........"-krishna
"pata nahi...na jaane kaha kaha............ab toh mera dil hi uska pata hai...........kamina,mujhe pyar ka rog lagaake chala gaya..................par ek na ek din woh zaroor aayega.......".
"ji....main bhi aapke liye duva karunga......yeh pyar aisa hi hai......"-krishna
"aapke kabhi kisise pyar kiya hai....?"-
"ji haa......main bhi ek ladke se pyar karata hoo....aur woh dusara teesara koi aur nahi...ateeq hai"-krishna
"ateeq?"-
"haa.....ateeq...jitana main 'Rough'..utana hi woh 'soft'...........jitana main 'forward' utana hi woh 'sharmila'....jitana main usasey pyar karata hoo..utna hi woh mujhase karata hai...................mere bina ek pal bhi nahi ji sakata hai woh....."-krishna
"itana bharosa hai ateeq par.....?"-
"ji haa......tum apane krishna ke siva zinda ..reh sakate ho...?"-krishna
"aagey ka pata nahi.... main toh abhi se marane laga hoo.........kaise mile tum ateeq se?"
"hahahha.....main ek rajput hoo...jab ki ateeq hamare gaon mein rehane wala ek sidha sadha ladka.... tab main new york se lauta tha..........
************ goan mein hamara daraara tha......Raj gharana jo thaira humara.....lagbhag sabhi humase darate the......
us din.....main mere dosto ke saath 'ghoda'leke tehalane gaya tha.....tabhi....hamaree nazar 'ateeq' par pad gayee.........
ekdam ladkiyo jaisa tha...... woh humein dekhkar daar gaya........
humane ghoda roka......
main ghode se niche utara....mere dost usey chhedane lage.......
"kathe ja rayo hai?"-maine uss se punchha
"ji ghar ja raha hoo ranaji..."-woh ghabara gaya...
"Tharee.... itni himat ke tu manee dikh kar bhaage hai?"-
"ji naee....ranaji"-
mere dosto ne uspar do thappad laga diye....
mujhe bahot maza aa raha tha....aur woh bechara ro raha tha......
mera kameena pan aur gir gaya...
"niche baith......."-aur maine mera paayjame ka 'nada' dheela kar diya........aur mera khada 'hathiyaar' usake saamane rakha....
"innhe muh mein lee le....."-woh dekhata hi reh gaya...
mere dost hans rahe the......aur woh...sar hila ke nahi bol raha tha...
maine uspar aur ek thappad mara....
"oh mharo hukam hai......"-mujhe gussa aa gaya
aur maine jabardasti se mera 'lund' uski muh mein ghusa diya.....
usane turant usey muh se nikal diya...
"ji oh.... mhaasu koni huve. ...baas aa rahe hai..."-woh ro raha tha....
"baas aa riyo toh naak band kar le.....nai toh laaree se le le....ulta ho ja...."
aur mere dosto uske haath aur pair pakade.......aur maine ek bahot sharm-nak kamina pan kar diya.......
aur usey waha phenk ke hum chale gaye.....
jo kuchh hua usey main bhul gaya.....
ek 'week' baad woh mujhe dikhayee diya.......main pahaad ki choti par gaya tha....
usey dekhkar mera lauda fir se khada ho gaya......
maine ghoda uski taraf mod diya.....
tabhi pata nahi kya hua.....ghoda kuchh uchhal gay aur main gir gaya....waha pahaad ko ek bahot badi aur gehari daraar thi....aur main us darrar ke muh par jaake atak gaya......zindagi aur maut ke bich main jhulane laga tha.....
aur tabhi waha Ateeq daudkar aa gaya.......usake paas do raste the...ek mujhe bachana...aur dusara......apane beizzati ka 'revenge' lena....
to be cont....
EPISODE 8(Final episode)
"Aur phir?ateeq ne tumhe bachaya ?-maine krishna se punchha..
"Haa....pure 15 minute bahot koshish karake ateeq ne mujhe bachaya....aur jaise hi main upar aa gaya....woh bina pichhe mude chalata raha...
***maine usko awaaz di....aur woh ruk gaya
"Sukriya..apana naam toh batao?"-
Lekin usane ek labz bhi nahi nikaala...aur chal pada....
Aise hi 2 din beet gaye....mujhe mera maan kha raha tha....baar baar ateeq ka chehara aankho ke samane aa raha tha....uss se ek baar maafi mangani thi....
Par kaha dhundata main usey?....naam ,ghar,galli... kuchh pata nahi tha...
bahot dhunda usey.......
Aur aakhir mujhe woh mil gaya....
"Why you are following me? Ya phir se gaand marna chahate ho mhari?......agar aisi baat hai toh....apane lund ki bhook mita do...aur mera pichha chhod do.."-ateeq
"Mhane galat mat samjho....i m sorry.."-
"Its..ok..............ab mil gayi na maafi..........now you can go"-ateeq
"Aap english jaante ho?"-
"Gareeb zaroor hoo..anapadh nahi.."-aisa keh kar ateeq chala gaya
Us din ke baad...din bhar main ateeq ke hi khayalo mein dubane laga...raato ki neende bhi udd gayi thi...har din uski ek zalak pane ke liye main betaab rehata....
Sab kaam chhodake pahad par jaata....taaki woh mil sake.....woh bhi mujhe har din dekhata..par ek halki si muskaan bhi nahi deta....
8 din yahi chal raha tha....
Aur ek din us ne meri taraf aakar kaha
"Aap aisa kyun kar rahe ho?kya problem hai aapko"-ateeq
"Main kya kar raha hoo?"-
"Yehi...mera pichha...last 8 din se aap mere pichhe hi pade hai".-ateeq
"Tune mhara jeena haraam kar diya hai...aisa lagane laga hai ki...tujhe chahane laga hoo main..."-
"Bas....aisi baata aapko shobha nahi deti ranaji.....aap bade log ho..aapka kya jaayega?..par hum gareeb log hai....hamari izzat hi humara sab kuchh hai..."-ateeq
"Sirf ek baar mere gale se lag jao na..."
Aisa keh kar maine jabardasti se usey apane baho mein le liya.....woh bejaan sa reh gaya....aur maine usey chuma......kuchh der tak kuchh nahi hua......lekin phir... dheere dheere woh bhi meri taraf khichane laga....
Dono ek dusare mein kab kho gaye yeh humein hi pata nahi tha....kab hum zameen par aa gaye aur kab tan se kapade utar gaye....aur kab hum ek dusare ke baaho mein kho gaye ..sab kuchh hi pal mein ho gaya.....
"pyar karane laga hoo tumase......aur ek baat main yeh sab lund ki bhook mitane ke liye nahi kar raha hoo.......Kal miloge na?....."-
"Hmmm.........mhara intzaar karana..."-ateeq
Aur uss din ke baad .... hum har din milane lage.....har roz wahi hota.tha...hum ghanto tak ek dusare se baatein karate...ek dusare ke baho main kho jaate.....
Aur ek kisiki nazar hum par pad gayi......usane jaakar yeh baat mere baba ko bata di...baba ko bahot gussa aaya...
Jab main ghar aaya.....toh pahale mere gaal par ek thappad pada...... inhone mujhe bahot dantaa...
"Namard kahi ke.....puri gaon ki saari ladakiya chodata..toh kuchh nahi kehata ...lekin aisi cheeze?...sharam nahi aati kya?....."-baba
"Sharam kyo baba...mujh mein ek dil hai..jo ek dusare dil se pyar karata hai..."
Baba ka gussa aur chad gaya..usane mujhe bahar jaane ke liye mana kar diya...waha ateeq ka toh mujhase battar haal ho gaya tha....usake abba aur chacha ne usey bahot maara.....hum dono tadap rahe the......
Aur thik 4 din baad.....maine ateeq ko ek dost ke haato ek 'chitthi' bheji....raat ko main sabki nazar churakar ghar se bhag gaya....aur sidha ateeq ke ghar aaya...ateeq ke ghar sab so rahe the....main ateeq ko dabi awaaz di ....aur....ateeq bhi bina kuchh kahe puchhe mere saath bhag gaya.....pyar toh yeh hota hai ..usane apane aap ko puri tarah mere hawale kiya tha....badi mushkil ke baad...hum goa pahunche..
.....aisa laga ki ab sab dukh khatam ho gaye....humein ek room bhi mila....aur do din pyar ki baarish mein gaye......waha sab duriya mit gayi.....hum puri tarah ek dusare ke ban chuke the......aur.....achanak ateeq ki tabiyat bighad gayee.....main usey hospital lekar gaya....der raat ko doctor ne ek medicine lane ko kaha....aur main wahi laane ja raha tha ki......
..................tumhari gaadi se takara gaya......."-krishna
***
Krishna ki baato ne mujhe rula hi diya...woh toh puri tarah ateeq ke pyar mein duba tha......mujhe aisa laga ki main khamkha unake bich mein aa raha tha.....woh toh puri tarah ek dusare ke ban chuke the....... mera na jaane usake jeevan mein koi sthan nahi tha........
Ateeq bahut 'lucky' tha . .jise krishna jaisa pyar karanewala mil gaya tha.........aur main sabase 'unlucky' zindagi mein pehali pyar kisise pyar kiya...aur woh 'at last' one sided ho gaya......
Kuchh der baad hospital mein ateeq aa gaya......woh nazara dekh kar sabaki aankhe gili ho gayi.....woh dono gale mil gaye....
"Raanaji.......ek mahine se aap kaha the...main samajha aap mujhe akela chhod kar chale gaye....."-ateeq
"pagal.....mhari jaan hai tu...aur koi jaan ko chhod sakata hai ka......par......Ek mahina....?accident toh kal raat ko hi hua na...."-krishna
"Kuchh nahi rajveer................piichhale ek mahine se aap 'coma' mein the......"-maine kisi aur ko bolane nahi diya....kyo ki main baat ko aur badhana nahi chahata tha...
"Ranaji aapke baba ka phone aaya tha....unko humara pyar manjoor hai......unhone humein firse rajsthan bulaya hai.......mere abbu ko bhi unhone manaa liya hai..."-ateeq
Un dono ke chehare par khushi dekhkar main mera saara dukh bhul hi gaya tha....yeh pyar aisa hi hota hai...........koi kuchh bhi kahein par aakhir jeet sachhe pyar ki hi huee thi.....shayad GOD ne uesy sirf mujhe sahi raaste par laane ke liye bheja tha.....krishna ke saath bitaya ek mahina..mujhe sab kuchh sikha gaya........meri bejaan zindagi apane raaste par chal padi....shayad.....yehi mere pyar ki kahaani ka 'climax' tha......
***************the end*****************
love u all....
manlove goa
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