MY HEART GOES OH DHUMTANANA….. (complete story)
Pyar yeh sirf 4 letters ka bana word nhi hai mere liya
…..yeh woh hai jisne mere jindagi pure tarah badal di,mai joh bilkul stupid
,paraku type larka ,friends ko bas friends manta tha jisse friendship ki true
meaning bhi nhi pta the, toh pyar wyar uske palle nhi parne wali the but jab
iss pagal ko pyar hua toh uski jindagi
pure tarah badal gye ,maine phle bar kisse ka liya kuch feel kiya wen I was in
xii bt unfortunately we broked up wid great treagdy…he left me bcz he was jst
attracted toward me he said he love me bt only to fulfill his physical desire
….mai bilkul toot chuka tha ,even tried to commite suicide..bt jaisa kaha jata
hai jindagi ki har galti hume kuch sikha jata hai usse tarah yeh bhi hume bht
kuch sikha gye….family se barkar duniya ma koi sabse jada important nhi
hai,kuch bhi decision lo unke bare ma soch kr lo,never trust any1 so easily aur
love means only waste of time and totly bakwash …yeh mere soch ban gye the.
Mai India ka ek chote
se saher ranchi se hu,but mere dadi ka ghar is in delhi,so after completing my
xii I went there just to refresh out my life…mai bahut khush tha ek new
environment ma aakar,yeh mere pahle trip the in delhi…I was loving the capital
city.. par mere ghar ma mere chacha chachi,grandma and grandpa the,chacha chachi whole day busy in their job
and my grandparents usually take rest aur mai bachara din bhar bore hota
tha … I decided to make my fake profile
again as mere phle relation ka bad maine woh account delete kar diya tha,bt I
made a new one ,given completely a new look to my profile usually joined many
delhi gay groups….mujhe bahut se request mila,I accepted ,3-4 se conversation
bhi hua bt unme se ek tha randhir ,usse bahut se baat hue he was a good guy ,usse mere baat extend hone lage to
a hour,day and at last to a week…humne ek dusra ki interest,hobbies,liking,ex-life,way
of living a life,choice..aur bad ma humne apne number bhi exchange ki …humne
bahut sare baat ki,at last he is interested in dating me aur maine usse ha kha
diya ..
Uss din phle bar mai randhir se milne wala tha bahut excited
aur happy happy sa feel ho rha tha …usne mujhe ek café ma bulaya tha at 6 in
evening …I went there.. humne apne pics exchange nhi ki the issliya for me its
difficult to recognize him,I called him,bt usse pahle he woh mera picha se aakar bola ..” hi vaibhaw” .. I just
looked him he was tall cute goodlooking age approx 20,fair…. Maine usse hie kha
usne mujhe bahut he sophistically chair offer kiya ,he was just making me feel
special …humne bahut sare baat ki ,usne jb mujhe bataya that where he stay I
was completely in shock because woh mere he building ma rahta tha wid his
family,aur jb maine usse yeh baat btaya toh he laughted and said “tab toh
humare dosti bahut dino tk chalege” aur jb maine usse pucha ki tumne mujhe
pahchana kaise toh bhi woh mujh par hash diya aur kaha “pagal ur innocent face
which was searching someone at that time holding a cellphone in ur hand” iss
baat par toh mujhe bhi hasi aa gye ..we had really a great conversation ,woh
delhi ma tora jada he famous tha,jaisa uski baato se pta chala usne wapus jate
samai mujhe lift di in his car ,chatting ma maine usse btaya tha that I like to
have ice cream in nite so usne mujhe uss raat ice cream bhi offer ki …..that
drive was really great ..it was my first date after my break up and it was just
awesome……
Ghar wapus aakar bhi we were still connected through
watsapp…maine usse pucha any comments 4 me,toh usne mujhe kha ..”u r sweet
,good nature ,cute …bt tore innocent ho so be aware ,delhi is nt safe 4
u”..mujhe uski iss baat par hasi aa gye ….uss raat randhir ne mujhe btaya that
he is in relation aur uska naam hai sumit ,mujhe tora sa bura lga bt I was
happy that he shared his reality wid me …whatever it is bt mai khush tha ki iss
anjann saher ma ek itna accha dost mill gya Jaisa ki hum itne acche dost ban
chuke tha ,usne mujhe apne har baat share ki ,apne past present sare relation
ka bre ma btaya ,mai bhi bahut khush tha ,usne mujhse kha”woh aaj tak itna
kisse bhi facebook friend se nhi openly baat kiya tha” usne mujhe apne bf se
bhi milyaya he was also very good his name is sumit ,as randhir he is also
cute,handsome and charming…
Ek saam randhir ne mujhe call kiya aur woh chahata tha ki
mai uska sath ek gay party ma chalu,mere tabyat thik nhi the but usne bahut
kaha toh mai mann gya ,maine uss saam apne best dress phne,with best
deo,perfect shoes with perfect watch with that dress. Usne mujhe building ka
niche se pick kar liya ,he was in bike …woh bike pe itne saam ko with blowing
air and a bike ride ,I just loved it…
Hum ek club ma gya ,it was quiet good ,randhir ne mujhe
btaya ki iss party ma delhi ka bahut acche acche aur hi class families ka banda ane wale hai so just enjoy the
enviournment … mujhe yeh tora ajeeb lag rha tha kyuki yeh situation bilkul hi
naya tha mere liya but he hold my hand and took me inside..
Waha bahut acche music baj rhe the and I love to dance
,music sunte he mujhse raha nhi gya ,I and randhir enjoyed the dance aur phir
hum side ma jaa kar just having some energy drinks uska bahut sare dost waha
tha usne unse mujhe milyaya ..unma sa ek tha shivin …he was little special ..
usne mujhe dekh kar joh randhir se kaha
woh mujhe bahut bura lga .. usne randhir
se kha “tum yaar itne cool ho aaj kya baat hai itne uncool guy ka sath club ma
aiye ho”… mujhe toh yeh baat sun kar he usse ek tappar dene ka mann kiya but
randhir ne mere side lete hue kha “ya u r rite but dnt u think its winter time
aur iss samai jada cool hone se sardi lag jayege ..”.. bachare shivin ki toh
muh ban gye aur mujhe uss par hasi aa rhe the …in that club party shivin ne
mujhe continuously check out kiya mujhe yeh baat bahut ajib lag rhe the ,ek toh
usne mere itne burai ki phir iss tarah kyu dekh rha hai ,jb ghar wapas ane ka
liya hum bahar nikle at that time also shivin was looking me and even he smiled
but I didn’t …aur yeh randhir aur sumit dono milkar mujhe tease karne lage
shivin ka naam se…
Randhir na mujhe btaya shivin is a son of very rich
businessman,woh tora alag hai uski bht phla ek relation tha but bahut bare
larai hue unka bick something like misunderstanding aur they broke up… uske
thik do din bad I was just shopping in a mall and I seen shivin over there
mujhe laga who mujhe pahchanega aur iss bar maine usse dekh kar smile kiya but
he ignored me …usne mujhe dekha tak nhi ..mujhe lga sayad nhi dekha hoga
issliya I only move ahead and said hie …aur usne mujhe hi ..ka sath sath
kha..”ha hie sun yaar u r not my type dude so plz stop following me u dnt
deserve to be my friend so stop being overfriendly..” .. mujhe kudh par he
bahut gussa aiya kyu maine usse toka,aur kudh ki insult kara li ..but mujhe
sachii itna bura lga ki mere anko se aansu aa gya…I ran to my home and cried
for whole day ,randhir se bhi kuch nhi kha .. just at that time I was feeling
so lonely …
Uss raat randhir mujhse mila he seen me as sad so mujhe jabardasti ek party ma le gya
..aur again I mat shivin ,sumit bhi waha tha issliya randhir uska sath dance
karne lga ..and I been alone over there in a croud…aur sumit ko kuch emergency
tha isliya randhir usse drop karne chala gya and asked me to wait par maine
usse kha diya I will come by my own ,par sadly club se bahar nikla toh bahar
koi bhi auto nhi mila ..i was just
walking in a lonely path ,in a dark night approx at 11 ,mausam bhi karab the
pani kabhi bhi aa sakti the ,suddenly picha se car ki horn baje and I turned
back it was a car of shivin ..he stoped and asked me to sit inside he will drop
me ..but I refused maine toh usse baat bhi nhi kiya just moved ahead par woh
phir horn mara aur shouted “vaibhaw yaar chal na aa ja ander “ but who is going
to listen it ..achanak barish suru ho gye aur mujhpar parne lage aur mai daur
kar ek tree ka niche chala gye ,and suddenly shivin bhi car se bahar aa kar
mere pass kara ho gya and said pure raat yahi rahna hai… maine kuch bhi reply
nhi kiya usne apne car ki door khol di and I just sat inside bcz mujhe sachii
uss samai bahut tandh lag rha tha.. Mai chup chap uski car ma baitha hua
tha,woh sirf driving pe concentrated tha kyuki uska bad shivin ne mujhse kuch
bhi baat nhi kiya ,usse pata tha that I live in randhir’s building so therefore
he knows my address so usne ek bar conferm karna bhi jaroorat nhi samjha…he was
very rude…mai pura bhig chukka tha mujhe bahut thand lag rhe the I was just
shivering ….achanak se tore dur par jaa kar usne gari roki,I wonder mera ghar
aa gya but it was not..yeh roadside ka ek tea stall tha aur woh bhi raat hone
ki wajah se wind up kar rhe tha ..shivin went there and brought 2 cup of hot
tea ..i was confused such a amir bap ka bigrail beta aur tea from roadside
,usne mujhe offer kiya bt I rejected bt uske aanke dekh kar maine cup of tea le
liya,maine socha chalo mai he kuch baat kar leta hu ..
Me..”shivin do u like rain”
Shivin..”no I don’t”
Me..”aap ajib pagal ho rain kisse nhi pasand”
Shivin..”but I hate rain isse barish ma…” (bus itna kha kar
woh chup ho gye)
Me..”barish ma kya??..”
Shivin..”that’s non of ur business”
Aur shivin ne bahut he speed and roughly drive karte hua
mere building ka niche car roka ,mai usse thank you bolna chahata tha par woh
bola..”vaibhaw do me a favour and let me go fast” mai chup chap uske car se
utar gya bahar bht joro se barish aa rha tha aur uski yeh rough behavior ne
mujhe bahut hurt kiya tha kyuki aaj tk mujhse koi bhi iss tarah baat nhi kiya
tha it was really hurting…raat bahut ho gye the issliya mai chachi ko call kr
ka bta diya that chachu will not like me
to come so late so I m staying in randhir’s home ..as his parents where out of
station …randhir ne mujhe shivin ka sath dekha aur woh daur kar niche aiya
..usne mujhe sorry kha bcz woh mujhe sath nhi laya aur mujhe itne sare prob ho
gye,I said ok uska sath mai uska flat ma gya ,jate sath I changed ,charged d
battery of my cell as it was low ,chachi kabhi bhi call kar sakte the … mai
washroom se drawing room ma aiya toh randhir was sitting with lots of questions
,like ..tu shivin ka sath kya kar rha tha?…woh aur tere dosti ho gye kya?..
tumlog kya kya baat kiya? ..do u like him? ..and all short of backwash
questions ..i started answering all d ques ..suddenly randhir’s cell blinked wid
msg..jaisa ki uska cell sofe ma tha and it was near to me so I seen to his
phone ..as we became like very good friend so I knows all his passwords..i seen
there is a text from a watsapp..it was of shivin..”randhir yaar tu plz dekh
liyo apne dost ko ,sala pura bhig gya tha iss
weather ma kahi kuch ho na jaye” mujhe yeh text dekh kar internally
bahut khusi hue he care for me..tabhe randhir mujhe tease karne lga toh maine
usse kha “yaar I am not his type ..even I dnt deserve to be his friend…”
randhir laughted usne mujhe kha yaar dost nhi samajhta toh itne hak se yaha
drop nhi karne ata aur uper se shivin he have a lots of attitude woh toh kabhi
nhi ata ..randhir ne mujhe shivin ka bre ma btaya he is I.T student ,uski pahle
relation bahut emotional the but his bf left him bcz usse parai ma concentrate
karna tha sayad aur shivin ka pyar ka karan woh parai ma acche se dayan nhi de
paa rha tha …they were batch mates ..mujhe yeh reason sunkar bus yahi thought
aiya such a stupid person jisne itne pyare relation ko tor diya woh bhi aise
pagalpan wali reason ka liya..bachara shivin …I decided I don’t deserve to be
his friend bt now I will teach him how to live a life again … maine randhir se
uski num lekar usse text kiya in watsapp saying thank u …he replied its ok ..
I asked I dnt deserve to be ur friend so mujhe kiss hakk se
tum gari ma baitha kar mere building tak chorne aiya …he said yes u r rite u
dnt deserve to be my friend bcz I am very kamina and u r very innocent ..tu
bigar jayega mere sath rahkar…maine bina kuch socha samjhe I replied ..mai
bigarne ka liya tayar hu…
Uska bad maine bahut wait kiya but uska koi reply nhi aiya
sayad woh soo gya hoga ..tb tk randhir bhi sumit se baat karte karte soo chukka
tha ..subha ma mere cell ka vibration se mre niend khule it was a call from
shivin …I picked good mor kaha usne kha goodmorning in a new day chal jaldi se
ready ho aur niche awo I m waiting outside ur building…maine kha kyu ..he
said..tujhe bigarne ka liya….
Mai jaldi se bed par
se utha aur jaldi se ready ho gya ,maine apne favourite blue colour ki shirt
phne ,aur daur kar niche aiya…shivin was waiting 4 me with a sweet smile in his
face,maine pahle bar unki chahare par itne acche smile dekhe..usse dekh kar he
lag rha tha he was happy..i said wat happen..aaj yu he achanak..he just smiled
aur kha tu bus baith na yaar..?.. aur mere liya door khol diya ,mai toh bilkul
shock ma tha ki itna arrogant larka ko aaj kya ho gya ,itna soft..?.. mai chup
chap baith gya he again smiled ,mujhe toh samajh he nhi aa rha tha ki yeh kya
ho rha hai ,car ma hum dono bilkul chup the no one talked..suddenly a car
stoped it was a theatre … mai toh bilkul shocked tha joh mujhe kl tak apna dost
bnane layak nhi samajh raha tha woh aaj mujhe movie ka liya laya hai… maine
usse pucha bhi aaj movie ka liya how..? toh usne kha ..”bus mann kiya toh aa
gya ..” I decided to take it positively and just take it as a good sign of our
friendship.. but jab hum ander gya tb mujhe pta chala ..it was a part of
twilight..breaking down..i said to myself ..yeh itne romantic movie dekhne ka
liya mujhe kyu laya hai …
Finally movie katam ho gye ,movie ka time bhi woh bahut he
acche tarah behave kiya ,after movie he took me for lunch ..he honoured me to
order it..tb tak hum tore open ho gye tha aur kuch kuch baate start ho gye
..like u r basically 4m?..studies..? hobbies..? movies..? family..? isse bich
maine unse kha he diya ..shivin I am confused kl tak u literally did’nt like me
aur aaj yeh ..? wo tora confuse sa ho gya but usne mujhe btaya … usse pta tha
sumit aur randhir relation ma hai aur randhir ka sath mere closeness dekh kar
unhe laga ki mere aur randhir ka bich ma kuch hai aur hum sumit ko cheat kr rhe
hai ,but uss barish wale din sumit aur randhir ko sath phir se dekha and even
sumit na he usse kha tha mujhe drop karne ..?..later on usse pta chala randhir
and I were just like best buddies.. but unfortunately kisse 3 rd person ka
entry se he sayad unke phle relation tooti the ,woh mujhe khte khte literally
started crying…o god phle bar maine kisse itne mature guy ko baby type rote
dekha …jitna woh bahar se hard tha utna he ander se soft tha..maine usse bina
kuch kahe hug kr liya ….he said I m ok.. usne kha dekha na yaar mai kitna
kamina hu ki mai jiska bhi close ata hu woh mujhe chor ka chala jta hai..ha yaar
maine kha that u dnt deserve to be my friend ,u r uncool …bt u know phle bar
itne bhir me tu nazar aiya joh sayad inn sab se alag tha,waise mai apne dost
bht he soch samajh kar select karta hu but nw I accept u in my life as my
friend and this movie and treat is a way of saying sorry to my friend for my
misunderstanding .. bus itna he kha tha
ki maine kha bus mujhe aur kuch nhi sunana … shivin se maine kha dekho kisse ko
bhi itne jaldi dekh kr koi decision mat liya kro …aur bus mujhe kuch nhi sunana
hai tum kamina ho but ab mere dost ho ..as har ek friend kamina hota hai,but
important hota hai…
He smiled aur kha chal tujhe ghar chor dete hai …aur ghar
jate hue usne kha vaibhaw ..u know mere life bahut limited hai mere bahut kamm
dost hai ..i let very less people to enter in my life and I let u to enter in
my life as a friend … bus sachii ..guys yeh baat uski ..touched my heart … I
stared likeing him usse pal I felt like …my heart start beating 4 him…mujhe bus pyar ho gya …maine uske taraf
dekha aur ek smile ki sayad uss samai mre pas koi word nhi the…
Usne mujhe ghar chora I was just jumping like anything …mai
bahut khush tha …internally kya pta kyu mai itna khush tha…. Ghar jaa kar grand
mom aur grand pa ko bht irritate kiya …randhir ko call kiya ..usne kha I m in
class maine usse kha khi pe bhi ho plz jaldi mujhse milo nhi toh I m going to
be mad …mujhe kuch share krna hai… woh gadha bhi shock ma tha mre itne pagalo
ki tarah baat sunkar..usne kha ok meet me after 15 minute I will be in ur
place.. I said I m waiting….woh aiya maine usse sab kuch sachii sachii btaya
abt all things woh toh bus mujhe tease krne lga…. Mere aur shivin ki friendship
meter tore se aage barhe….we started chating …calling time increased…..msg
limits over hone lge sirf usse baat kae ka ..i was happy bcz next week was my
birthday ,the day which had changed my life ..Din raat bas shivin se baat karte
he gujarne laga,life bahut acche lagne lage the,ab bus chah the toh bus usse
apni jindagi ma samil karne ki… next week mere b’day the it was 24th November
2012… I was very excited about my b’day..i know randhir ,sumit,aur shivin ne
bhi jaroor mre liya surprise plan kiya hoga 22nd November ko shivin ne mujhe kha tha ki woh mere iss b’day
ma mujhe bahut bare surprise dega..mai pure tarah sure tha ki woh mujhe propose
karega …I m also ready for that …
23RD nite raat ma randhir ne mujhe terrace ma bhulaya ..mai
internally bahut khush tha that they will give me surprise..my thought came
true …randhir ka sath baki dost mere liya cake laye tha with lots of gifts
,shivin bhi tha woh bhi bahut khush tha ,woh toh pagalo ki tarah dance kar rha
tha ,usse itna khush dekh kar mujhe bahut accha lga randhir ne mujhe kuch books
deya tha as a gift ,aur mre shivin ne mujhe gift ma ek bara sa card tha with
roses but sit is that it is of yellow colour…
Raat ma 3 ‘o clock mai apne room aiya opened his card usma
likha tha that “for u my gift is that I will nvr be sad or arrogant as u want
its my promish to u chotu,behind this there is a great reason which u will love
to know ..(he calls me chotu)” mai toh khusi se dance karne lga ,I am dam sure
that woh kal mujhe propose karega ,mai daurte hue randhir ka pass gya aur usse
card dikhlaya ,usne mujhe hug kiya aur kha congratulation duffer finally u r
getting ur crush or something called love in ur life …guys u know uss din mai
apni life ma sayad sabse jada khush tha bahut he excited tha ..randhir ne
mujhse concent kar ka mere b’day party humare terrace ma he rakhe ,he only
arranged for music,food,invitations..mai ghar par baitha bus soch rha tha ki
kya hoga saam ma party ma shivin kya bolega.??.how will I react..??
24th ka dopaher ma sumit aiya usne mujhe dekh kar bahut
daatha kyuki raat ko mai kya phne wala tha yeh maine abhi tak decide nhi kiya
tha ,even my hair is looking very bad …usne mujhe makeover ka liya jabardasti
le gya .he completely changed my look ….we did a shopping and ready for
evening..randhir ne mujhe dekh kar kha
tha I still remember..”shivin is going to die 4 u “..
Raat hue I went to the party to host with sumit ..randhir ne
mujhe welcome kiya bahut sara balloon phor kar mere uper ,party ma aiya hue
mere friends ,family sabhi na mujhe wish kiya ..shivin nhi aiya tha ..maine
randhir se kaha usse call karne ,he said ..”he is in way”..
Shivin finally aa gya bahut he dasing lag rha tha blue
colour ki shirt aur shaded blue colour ki jeans ..he was just looking hot as usual .. shirt
uss par bahut acche lag rhe the aise bhi he have a gym toned body… usne phir se
mujhe flowers diya with chocolates woh bht he khush tha smiling aur mujhe usne
mujhe compliment bhi diya bt he said in my ear …”chotu hot lag rhe ho party ka
laundo ka dil machal jayega tujhe dekh kar..” maine usse kha compliment de rhe
ho ya burai kar rhe ho usne bus smile ki …but woh ..side ma chala gya aur kisse
ko call karne lga aur jab wapus aiya toh maine usse pucha wat happen?? ,toh woh
bola waiting for ur gift,tu chahata hai na mai humesa khush rahu aur phle jaisa
gussa kabhi na hu toh uska liya,u know I have to say something …phir achanak uska
cell ring hua aur woh bahar chala gya ,mujhe lga mere liya kuch laya hoga …jb
aiya toh uska sath ek larka tha ,patla dubla,fair goodlooking ,shivin ne uski
hath pakre the …randhir ne usse dekha toh
woh shock ho gya ,sumit ne kha chal udher but shivin ne mujhe rok liya
woh khusi se aiya aur mujhe kha..”chotu he is ammay ..my ex my present my
future…” ammay ne apne hath baraye maine usse hath milaya aur hie kha ..i was
just shocked my heart was completely broken ..mere aanko ma pani aa gya I just
excused from them and ran to my room.. Mai daurta hua apne room aa gya ,I was
crying like hell,randhir as my best friend mere halat samajh raha tha woh bhi
mre picha picha aiya ,maine usse hug kiya aur bahut roya mujhe bus uss ammay
par gussa aa raha tha ,woh toh shivin ko chor kar chala gya tha phir wapus kyu
aiya …randhir ne mujhe samjhaya ki ,I should be strong …party ma aiya log kya
sochega ,so I should go and cut a cake for them and start a party in a manner
and allow them to have a dinner ….maine situation ko samajhte hue wahi kiya
,uss samai shivin ko jaise mujhpar dayan he nhi tha woh toh apne ammay ma koya
hua tha ,but suddenly woh aiya mere pass aur mujhe side ma le gya aur ek gift
dekar kaha..chotu tere liya..aur I seen u r crying wat happen?.. maine kaha nothing
serious randhir se larai ho gye the issliya bus ..and I am happy for u.. usne
kaha raat ma baat krte hai mera call pick karna.maine usse baat krte hue uski
gift kholi..it was a newly launched phone,mai itne expensive gift usse nhi le
sakta tha issliya maine usse kuch bhi bahana kar ka yeh wapus kar diya aur usse
sorry bhi bol di ….party ka bad mai apne room aa gya ,mujhe bahut bura feel ho
raha tha ,na jane kyu mere aanko ma pani aa jaa rhe tha ,yes I was crying for
shivin …randhir ne mujhe bahut samjhaya but mujhe toh sab kuch aajib se lag rhe
the ..loneliness..toota hua..painfull..hurted… raat ma I think 11 ma shivin ne
call kiya just to wish me my last wish ..woh bahut khush tha usne mujhe dusra
din milne ka liya kaha ..randhir ka kahne par maine ha kha diya..
Next day I went there ..shivin mera wait kr rha tha ,usne
mujhe hug kiya aur milte he mujhe kha..”chotu aaj kal bahut sad lag rhe ho
kisse se pyar ho gya hai kya ?..” maine kha ..”just sutapp”..shivin ne mujhe
btaya ki how ammay was feeling guilty for wat he done ,woh bhi uske bina nhi
rah sakta tha ….phir usne kaha chal yaar mujhe ek laptop karidne hai actually
ammay ki lapii karab ho gye hai aur uski assignment test hai ..mujhe tora ajib
laga bcz mai toh pakka nhi leta apne bf se itna expensive gift …but hmm I
helped him aur usne mujhe dopaher ma ghar chor diya ..mujhe bahut bura feel ho
rha tha …I was in real love wid him ..but as love is not to take but to give ..
mai uss saam bahut sad tha randhir ne mujhe coffee diya ,main eek sip he liya tha
ki shivin ne mujhe call kiya and invited in a party which he was giving to
welcome ammay in his life again … maine socha tha ki mai strong banuga but yeh
dil hai ki manta nhi ..mujhe rona aa gya ..randhir ne mujhe iss time bahut
daatha usne mujhe kha “kya 20 th centuary ki tarah roo rhe ho ,if u really love
him then u must have a capability to get ur love in ur life…aur tu woh cheap
ammay ka karan roo rha hai..” maine usse pucha cheap kyu ,he said “ammay dnt
love shivin ,he only love his money ..” usne mujhe uski past breakup ki reason
bhi btaya jisma shivin ko kisse na btaya
tha ammay sex hookup karta hai wid a rich guys just for money …isse baat ko
lekar unka breakup hua tha in reality jisse bad ma ammay ne yeh kha kar hide
kar diya tha that he want to concentrate in studies so he dumped shivin..aur
yeh shivin toh kuch bhi ammay ka khilaf nhi sun sakta so usse kawn samjhaye
……randhir ne mere annko ka aansu pocha
aur kha ..”be strong yaar..i know u really love him aur tujhe usse apne life ma
kinch kar lana hoga…” but I was sad bcz shivin toh mujhse pyar he nhi karta tha
woh toh ammay se karta tha,iss par bhi randhir ne mujhe daatha aur kha..”how
silly u r ,jab shivin pure tarah toot chukka tha uss samai ammay kha tha,jab
woh rota tha uss samai uski aasu pochne ka liya aamay tha kya..? usko tune
sambala, tu hai jisne usse dubara jina sikhaya ..aur aaj toh usse iss tarah
bhul jayega ..maine finally decide kiya ,ki mai uss ammay ko apne aur shivin ka
bich nhi ane dunga ,I will just throw him from our life …mai itne jaldi har nhi
mann sakta ..? I will get him in my life .aur shivin ko kudh ki value ka
aahsaas dila kar rahuga...maine randhir se kha we will go to the party tu tayar
ho aur mai bhi tayar ho kar aata hu ,wait for me in car ..aage kya hoga yeh
bina kuch soche samjhe bus pata the toh yeh ki agar iss bar mere shivi ka dil
toota toh sayad he cant survive aur randhir ki baat sunkar mai sure tha ki
ammay is going to hurt him again…that day we went to a party ,as usual rich
logo ki faltu ki expensive party ,hum waha ander gye shivi was there wid
ammay…but unfortunately I seen shivi was busy attending other guests but mr ammay jii
busy in flurting wid other guys …mujhe yeh dekh kar ammay ko ek tappar marne ka
mann kiya but I didn’t …tore der ka bad mai waha side wale lounge ma baith gya
aur aapne shivi ko dekhne laga who sachii bahut cute lag rha tha …achanak tori
der ma Dj ne music play ki and all went to a dancing floor as it was a normal
friends get together so waha par humare bht sare female friends bhi present the
…the environment of party was getting rock …hard music and hard dance ….shivi
,randhir and aven ammay was all lost in enjoying ,mujhe bht bura feel ho rha
tha unhe sath dekh kar ,so I left d place and came home….
Next day shivi came my home but uss samai mujhe kuch gifts
lene the as mere cousions ki b’day the so i have to go 4 shopping so I asked
shivi ,if he cn come wid me toh he laughted and said yes …we been 2 near by mall ,I was
just buying a gifts then suddenly shivi asked me to go near by shop as he have
to buy some shirts ….as he was quiet look into brands so he always buy an
expensive shirts ,as at the time of billing he remembered he don’t have his
cards as it was wid ammay ,usne mujhe btaye he had to do d billing of last nite
party iss liya uske pass hai ,mujhe toh sachii uss kamina ammay par bht gussa aiya
…I decided I will talk abt it wid shivi ,but at that time I paid d bill wid my
card and came out ,I asked him that I want to drive ,aur took a car in a
resturent as I have to talk something ….usse maine kha diya wat ever I think abt
ammay …he just slept me widout listning anything more ….and moved on …I felt
really bad yeh maine kya kar diya …….but as I had decided I will not left him
like this ….mai janta tha ki agar iss tarah shivi raha ammay ka sath toh woh
use bht hurt karega and he will break out ,mera shivi toot jayega ….its better
to hurt him once and save his rest of life …
Maine bahut socha sabse phle toh mujhe bht bura lga ki yeh
maine kya kiya woh use itna pyar krta hai toh uske bare ma bura kaise sun sakta
hai aur pyar se bharkar toh koi nhi hota sabse jada bharosa toh kisse ko bhi
aapne pyar par he hote hai ,so maine he ussse call kiya sorry kha …mujhe laga
tha I have to explain a lot par maine jaise he call kiya he was crying in a
phone usne mujhse kha woh bahut confuse hai aapne iss riste par ,woh bahut pyar karta hai aamay se par har kisse se
har roj kuch na kuch sunane ko milte hai use ammay ka bare ma use bht hurt hota
hai par woh ammay par bht bharosa karta hai with his closed eyes …aur uss din
maine bhi ammay ka bre ma kha toh he really felt hurt bcz sayad uss samai woh mujhe
aapna sabse close dost manta tha aur agar yeh mai kha rha tha means sayad issme
kuch reality hoge…woh bht roo rha tha ..he was continuously crying …uski mood
change karne ka liya humne unse kha mujhe ice cream khane hai agar woh sath
chal sake toh nhi toh mai aakele he jaa rha hu …mujhe pta tha he will not let
me go alone as he think delhi is nt safe for me ..unhone kha 10 min bad apne
building se niche awo I will be there at ur place ….hum ice cream shop ma gye
mai har woh kosis ki jisse woh aapne problems bhool jaye itne problem hone par
bhi usne kha mai yeh sare clearify karne ka liya ammay ko prob nhi de
sakta,agar mai use puchuga toh use lgege that I don’t trust him ….mujhe uski
iss baat par ek idea sujha ,I asked him do u really love him …he laughted and
said yes …..toh maine kha ,now its time for ammay to show his love and prove
his real love for u..!!...he said how …toh maine use btaya I want to do a
loyality test at him …and I made a fake facebook profile of mine,bahut acche se
bahut bare bare baat kiya ,bahut pyare pyare baat kiya maine aur finally he was
in my trap we decided to meet ,for this randhir ka ek bahut acche friend atif
ne humare help ki ,as he was also belong to a rich background ,ussne bht acche
se showoff kiya apne paiso ki ammay ko in his first date finally unki num
exchange ho gye continuous call sms hone lge ….ammay sayad yeh bhul gya tha ki woh
relation ma hai ,finally woh din aa gya ammay atif ka sath intimate hona
chahata tha so atif called him in his flat ,bcz uske mom dad stay in pune ,so
he live alone in delhi ..issliya hume place ki toh koi problem nhi hue …uss samm maine shivi
ko sab kuch btaya abt my plan ,use atif ki cell ki messages bhi dekhaye par use
mujh par dil se sayad bharosa he nhi tha,so
I decided to take him to atif’s home uss samai ammay aur atif ek sath the ,wen
we been there ammay was just wearing a bathrobe …he was in atif’s bed …yeh sab
dekh kar shivi was completely hurt ..unke bich ma bht larai hue …at d end shivi
was broken ,woh toot chukka tha ,he lost his faith from love ….kisse bache ki
agar sabse pyare khilawna toot jate hai
toh woh jiss tarah rota hai use tarah shivi was crying aur iss jagah toh shivi
ki trust aur dil dono toota tha ….iss
breakup ko shivi ki body bear nhi kar paye and he fall ill ..he was suffering from
thypoid …use high fever ho gya ..aur khi na khi mujhe usske liya guielt feel ho
rha tha sayad yeh sab mere karan he hua ….maine uski bht care ki ,aunty yani ki
uski mom ka sath mil kar humne use thik kar diya now he was f9…jaise he woh pure
tarah thik ho gya usne mujhse ek din achanak kha” vaibhaw u love me”….mai toh
pure tarah sock ma aa gya ,but usne kha randhir ne use sb kuch bata diya hai
,but said sorry vaibhaw but mai tere liya filhal aisa kuch bhi nhi feel karta
hu ,hope tu samajh rha hai,par tere jagah mere sare friends se bharkar hai tu
special hai yaar mere liya ,mera best friend 4 ever …mujhe tora bura lga tha
par I was happy bcz we were best friend
from then ….and then after 7 month 8 days bad it was augest 16 th,2013 ,shivi proposed
me …he said “isss kamine ko ek chote se innocent se bache se pyar ho gya hai
and it was u ..” mai toh pagal ho gya tha uss din and from that day we r
together …har din larai hote hai humare aur har din ek dusre ko pyar se manate
hai …..and now I and I know he also truly believe this is wat we call a true
aur sachha wala pyar …….i love him..!!..
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