Shahid Grewal----GAY: A LIFE OF CURSE??"

"GAY: A LIFE OF CURSE??"

  Gay: A life of  curse?

Ankush bhagte huye ghar  aaya aur apne bedroom me chala gaya aur usne door lock kr diya.

Mirror ke samne khade hoke woh apne aap ko dekhke sochne laga.

“yaar ye kya horha hai mujhe?”

Usne apni aankhe band ki to use Sushrut ki shirtless body dikhi, ye dikhte hi usne apni aankhe kholi to fir se use apni body me kuch changes dikhe ( I hope mujhe explain krne ki jarurat nahi ke kaise type ke physical changes Ankush ne mehsus kiye)

Ankush sirf 14 saal ka ladka tha 8^th std me padh rha tha aur ab uski growth horhi hai ye use samajh aarha tha.

Bachpan se hi use ladkon ki taraf ek alag type ka attraction raha hai. pyaar,infatuation,attraction ye sab words ka mtlb to woh nahi samajhta tha par use ye ehsas horha tha ke kuch to horha hai uske sath jo shayd thik nahi hai.

Aaj Ankush ke school me routine checkup tha isliye doctors aaye the aur sabko ek line me check kar rhe the. Ankush jaanbhujhkr Sushrut ke piche jake khada hogaya, Sushrut Ankush ka crush tha …school crush aur woh use apna pyaar samajhta tha. Sushrut ko shirtless dekhne ke liye Ankush kbse wait kr rha tha aur jab woh time aaya aur Sushrut ne apni shirt utari check up ke liye to Ankush ke dil ki dhadkane ekdam se tej hogayi aur uske hormones activate hogaye usne jaise taise check up complete kiya aur ghar aagaya.

Ab Ankush ke dimag me sawalon ka bhandar tha, uske sab dost ladkiyon ko notice krte the line marte the fir use hi kyu ladkon me interest aarha tha. Kahi woh abnormal to nahi? Kahi use koi bimari to nahi hui?  Sushrut agar ekdin school na aaye to Ankush ka din bura jata tha uske aaspass raho to usko positive vibes milte the bina kisi reason ke woh khush rehta tha aur jaise hi woh kisi aur ke closed gaya ya usne kisi ladki ka topic nikala to Ankush aag babula hojata tha…… Kya tha ye sab? Kya ye pyaar tha?

Ab dinba din woh inhi cheejo ke bare me sochne laga tha. Sushrut uska bachpan ka dost tha sabse closed frnd isliye sushrut use attention bhi bahot deta tha care bhi karta tha dono best friends ban gaye the. Par ab problem ye thi ke time ke sath Ankush ki feelings strong hone lagi thi use kuch sujh nahi raha tha, umar choti thi aur sawaal bahot bade par jawab mange to kisse? And finally usne himmat krke apne dad se pucha,

“papa, ladka aur ladki ekdusre ke sath shadi krte hai fir bachhe hote hai kya waise do ladke kar sakte hai kya?”

Ye sunke uske papa gussa hogaye, “kaha se sikhke aata hai ye sab pagal hai kya kuch bhi puchta rehta hai ja bhag yaha se.”

Dad ke reply se ye to use pta chal gaya tha ke ye kuch bura hi hai aur ab kya Ankush bura ladka tha? Kya use buri lath lag gayi thi?

Sawaal sawaal sirf sawaal…… jaha sab ladke masti karte the wahi side me akele baithke Ankush sochta rehta, “whats wrong with me? Kya horha hai mere sath? Puri dunia me main akela hi mila tha bhagwan ko defective banane ke liye?”

Ekdin Sushrut use apne ghar legaya porn movie dikhane aur usdin Ankush ki problems aur badh gayi. Porn movie ka hero dekhke Ankush excited horha tha aur Sushrut ladki ko dekhke ab use pakka yakeen hogaya ke use sirf aur sirf ladkon me interest hai. Usne Sushrut se pucha,

“yaar ye video kaha se laya tune?”

“are net pe sab milta hai re mujhe mere bade bhai ne diya and you know google pe search karo to sabkuch mil jata hai”

“achha? Kuch bhi search kar sakte hai?”

“ha re sabkuch, bhai bol rha tha mujhe.”

Ankush apne ghar chala gaya usne apne phone me net activate kiya google khola aur type kiya,

“what is mean by boy like boy” enter…

Bahot kuch search karne ke baad Ankush ne kuch words explore kiye… Homosexuality, Lesbian, Transgender, Bisexual…. And yes he got name for himself……… GAY…

Ankush ko kuch had tk uske sawalon ke jawab to mil gaye the ki woh Gay hai jise ladke pasand hai aur uske jaise bahot sare is dunia me hai, woh akela nahi hai jiski aisi choice hai par use negative baate bhi pata chali jaise ke gays se dunia nafrat krti hai, log ise normal nahi mante, ye ek Sin hai ek CURSE hai,ek mental disorder hai, ek abnormality hai………

Ye sab janne ke baad Ankush ke dil me firse sawal khade hogaye…. Kya me gay hu? Me koi paap kar rha hu? Kahi bhagwan mujhe iski saza to nahi denge me fail to nhi hojaunga? Nahi me abnormal nahi hosakta? Me pagal kaise hosakta hu? Itni sari dunia pagal kaise hosakti hai?

In sab toofano ke bich shuru hogayi ek sabse badi war…….. Ankush ke self acceptance ki war, uske dil aur dimag ki cold war jiske liye abhi Ankush ki umar bahot choti thi par ab ye sab ruknewala bhi nahi tha… insab horror ki wajah se uska bachpana khatm hone laga tha woh kabhi apne aap ko ek papi ki tarah dekhta to kabhi ek bimar insaan ki tarah ya kabhi eknormal ladke ki tarah.. .

Dekhte dekhte din gujarne lage aur Ankush 10^th me aagaya. Important year tha isliye usne ye sari baate side me rakhi aur full dedication woh padhai ko dene laga.  Jab bhi udas hota to woh sushrut se milne chala jata uske sath time spend krke woh apne tention bhul jata.

10^th hone ke baad 11^th ke liye dono ne same clg me admission le li.

Dono eksath clg jate aur eksath wapas aate, dono ke frnds bhi same the. Dosti itni gehri thi dekhnewale indono ko bhai ka naam dete to Ankush ise apna pyaar samajhta. Sushrut ki care dekhke ab use bhi ye lagne laga tha ke woh usse pyaar karta hai kyunki itni care sushrut kisi aur ki nahi karta tha aur dono ka ekdsre ke bina ek bhi din nhi gujarta tha , ab to bas propose karna reh gaya tha. Halaki dono ki choice hobbies tastes sabkuch alag tha par yahi to rule hota hai na pyaar ka “Opposite attracts”.

Ekdin Ankush ki tabiyat bahot kharab hui aur use hospitalized krna pda tab Sushrut roj clg ke baad use hospital me milne jata aur clg ki sari baate btata aur yaha Ankush is baat se bahot khush hota… woh roj Sushrut ke sath shadi krne ke sapne dekhta, ek  ghar, 2bachhe aur Ankush and sushrut choti family happy family par uska sapna us din tuta jab Sushrut ne use btaya ke woh kisi ladki se pyaar karta hai…

“kya? R u mad? Tu usse kaise pyaar kar sakta hai?”

“what do u mean?” ankush ka instant weird reaction dekhke sushrut confused hoke bola.

“are I mean wow kya baat hai congrats kab kar rha hai use propose?” Ankush ne apni reaction change kr di.

“yaar propose kar diya and usne ha bhi bol diya”

“omg, really? How cheap I mean itne jaldi ha bol diya ladki thik nahi lag rhi mujhe” Ankush ko samajh nhi aarha tha kya bole.

“chal be kamine ab majak na kr chal hug de bhai ko” sushrut ke muh se ye bhai word sunke mano Ankush ke sine pe tir chal jate the.

Ankush gussa tha aur jealous bhi kyunki uske happy family ke sapne me usko ek ladki ne replace kar diya tha……. He felt broken, use lagta tha sushrut ne use cheat kiya hai dhoka diya hai par kya woh sachme dhoka tha?

Ab sushrut ki attention aur care uski gf ki taraf jyada thi aur dheere dheere woh Ankush se dur jane laga tha is baat se Ankush bahot gussa honelaga tha par woh use hurt nahi karna chahta tha.

Jo Sushrutki  opposite bate Ankush ko attract krti thi ab woh use irritate kr rhi thi par wahi baate uski gf ko achhi lagti thi. Aur ab time ke sath Ankush samajhne laga tha shayd sahi kehte hai umar ke sath hi samajdari aati hai.

Apne gusse aur feelings pe control krne ke tarike dhundhte dhundhte Ankush ko ek diary mili jo use uske papa ne gift di thi 16^th bday pe usne woh diary li aur likhna shuru kar diya.

“ diary……. Kaise likhte hai kya likhte hai mujhe nahi pata mujhe bas ek dost chahiye jiske sath me meri sari baate share kar saku aur aaj maine use dhundh liya hai…. its you my lovely diary J

Aaj shuruat to me Sushrut se hi karunga, mera best frnd mera pyaar, par jab use uska pyaar mila to me khush kyu nahi hua? Mujhe gussa kyu aaya? Kyunki shayd maine usse pyaar hi nahi kiya… ye to bas ek tadap thi uske sath rehne ki, bachpan ki dosti ko pyaar samajh baitha me. Par ab infatuation aur love ka mtlb samajh chuka hu, bachpan me mere mental disturbances aur usme sushrut ka love and support mujhe pasand aanelaga aur me uski taraf attract hone laga. Shayd is age me sabke sath aisa hi hota hoga ke unka best frnd hi unka pehla crush raha ho aur mere sath bhi wahi hua.

Ab mujhe undono ko eksath dekhke jealousy nahi hoti khushi hoti hai. Opposite attracts kehte to hai par dono ko eksath rehna ho to similarities bhi to honi chahiye… use wheat pasta with milk bahot pasand hai and I hate that… me uske sath pasta share nahi kr sakta so life kaise karunga…  Thnx to uski gf jisne mujhe pasta ka taste krwaya mano life ka taste mil gaya.

Ab me bda hogaya hu samajdar bhi, pyaar aur attraction ka mtlb samajhne laga hu shayd sushrut ka mere life me aane ka reason bhi yahi tha. Kehte hai na pehla pyaar ya to successful hota hai ya kuch sikha ke jata hai par kabhi khali hath nahi chhodta…….. one min… kya ye pyaar tha??? Lol I am still confused.

Par ab me aajad hu sushrut ke memories se and shayd ab waqt aaya hai partner dhundhne ka :D

Chalo ab gud nite tc”

Din gujarte gaye aur ab time aaya graduation ka, Ankush ko ye pata tha ke use apni life explore karni hai to is choti city me rehke koi fayda nahi use udna tha aur yahi sochke usne bola,

“papa mujhe engineering karni hai Mumbai se”

Papa khush hogaye aur unhone permission de di.

“my dear bff  diary…….

Me Mumbai jane wala hu aur ab shuru hoga mere life ka new phase, new city new college, new ppl and most of that hot hot se ladke……. Wowwww I am so excited maja aayega aur hope so ke ek bf bhi mil jaye… par nervousness bhi bahot hai nayi jagah naye log aur me akela sushrut bhi nahi hoga mujhe sambhalne ke liye……… hushhhhh pta nahi kya hoga but I think achha hi hoga mujhe to aisi hi feelings aarhi hai jaise movie me hero jata hai Mumbai aur uske dreams pure hote hai waisa hi mere sath hoga

Chalo ab sota hu gud nite.”

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“tu akela reh lega na waha? Koi problem ho to phone kar diya kar woh Shirke uncle rehte hai waha unka no save kar liya na…”

“ha papa tention na lo me sambhal lunga”

“yaha to tu itna reserved rehta hai, na jyada bolta hia na kuch ab aise ladke ki tention nhi hogi to kya hoga”

“chalo dad me jarha hu train chut rahi hai bye”………

Aur Ankush ki train Mumbai ke liye nikal gayi…!!

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“Mumbai… sapno ka shahar… sach me kitna khubsurat hai. Yaha ke log, atmosphere, locals sab kitna xciting hai… aur ha maine to aate hi Shahrukh aur Salman ka ghar dekh liya I wish unhe bhi dekh pata khair koi nhi ab yahi rehna hai kabhi na kabhi mulakat to ho hi jayegi.

Waise maine to room le liya hai, achhe log hai khana bhi achha hai aur ab kal se clg bhi hai hope woh bhi achha hoga… #nervous.   Gud nite.”

Dusre din Ankush ready hoke clg jane laga.. bahot dara hua tha akela jarha tha naya clg naye log uper se ragging ka dar.

Jaise woh apne room se nikla use jor se awaz aayi…

“in ladko ne to jina mushkil kar diya hai, kabhi kaanch todte hai kabhi gamla kabhi insan ka sar, ek din sabki pitaai kar dunga………………………………………”

Kuch log use samjha rhe the ye dekhkar usne ek ladke se pucha,

“are kuch nahi ye frustrated uncle hai jab dekho tab choti choti baat pe jhagadte rehte hai”

Ankush ne un baton ko avoid kiya aur woh nikal gaya clg jane ke liye.

Uska nervous chehra dekhke k clg me koi bhi samajh lle ke ye fresher hai.

“Oh hello… ruk”   Ankush clg ke building me jarha tha ke use piche se awaz aayi, woh ruk gya aur piche dekha to  4ladke aur 1 ladki ek ped ke niche banaye bench  pe baithe the. Dekhne se hi sab dropper students lag rhe the unke ajib se kapde weird style and ladki kuch jyada hi modern and sunder thi.

“chal intro de” ek ladke ne kaha.

“ji…. My name is Ankush …..”

“oye hindi me”  ek ladke ne uski baat katte huye kaha.

“Mera naam Ankush Deshpande hai, me 1^st year IT ka student hu aur Kolhapur se aaya hu”

“ohh kolhapuri mirchi… hai to bada sweet and cute tu… woh gana suna hoga na “me Kolhapur se aayi hu”

“ha  suna hai”

“to gana ga aur uspe lavni krke dikha fatafat” ladki ne bola.

“ji??????????  Me yaha dance? Mujhe nhi aata dance krna”

“oye tu senior ko mana krta hai chal nach warna aage jo hoga woh isse bura hoga.”

Ankush ke ab pasine chhutne lage the woh dar gaya aur idhar udhar dekhne laga ke koi use dekhe na. uska masoom chehra aur dare huye expressions se woh aur bhi cute lag rha tha.

Woh gana shuru krne hi wala tha ke ek ladka piche se aaya,

“oye kamino ye kya tumne firse freshers ko satana shuru kar diya chalo hame movie ke liye late horha hai” kehte huye use Ankush ko jane ka ishara kiya tabhi ladki bol padi,

“yaar ruk iska chota sa dance hone de fir nikalte hai.”

“are meri girlfrnd sahiba late horha hai, dance fir kabhi dekh lena abhi chalo starting miss hui na to ek ek ko pitunga kamino”  kehkar usne sabko bench se uthaya aur legaya jate jate usne piche se Ankush ko jane ka ishara kiya aur us ladki se baate krne laga.

Ankush khayalo me kho gaya woh imagine krne laga hayeee ye to movie ka scene hogaya ek ladke ne mujhe 5 gundo se bachaya wowwwwwwwwwww…………… ye sochte sochte woh us ladke ko stare krne laga…. Gud luking, muscular energetic, active fair handsome usme woh sari qualities thi jo Ankush apne dream boy me dhundh rha tha par uske sapne ekdam se tut gaye jab use yaad aaya ke us ladke ne ladki ko apni girlfrnd bola tha and dono chipak chikap ke bhi chal rhe the.

Aur Ankush ka firse pehla pyaar shuru hone se pehle hi khatm ho gaya. Real life me wapas aake Ankush fir lecture ke liye chala gaya.

Ankush ka clg shuru hogaya aur fir uski kabhi ragging bhi nahi hui par us ladke ko woh hamesha ghurta rehta tha par woh chudail ladki hamesha uske sath chipki rehti.us ladki ke to bina jane bina pehchane Ankush nafrat krne laga tha.Ankush ko us ladke se frndship krni thi par ragging ke dar se woh kabhi uske pass nahi jata tha.

Simple daily life shuru hogayi uski aur ab usne facebook pe apni fake id bana li and he got his first online frnd…. NIDHI.

“Hie J “

“Hi Nidhi sorry par me girls me interested nahi hu”

“oh hello me konsa tumhe propose kar rhi hu and guess what me bhi ladko me interested nahi hu I m lesbo….”

“oh really… wow…  can we be frnds?”

“Sure”

Aise Ankush aur Nidhi ki frndship hui. Baton baton se pta chala dono ek hi clg ke students hai par Nidhi senior thi. Aur fir dono ne clg me  milne ka plan bnaya.

Ankush bahot nervous tha bcz woh pehli baar aise kisi frnd se milne wala tha. Par Nidhi bahot frank thi.

“hey Hie… Ankush…”

“ya tune kaise pehchana?”

“apna muh dekh kitna dara hua hai koi bhi pehchan lega tu Ankush hai…” aur nidhi hasne lagi.

Nidhi apne bare me bta rhi thi. “me basically to Alibaugh se hu par kai salon se hamari family Mumbai me shift hui hai.. chhuttiyo me kabhi jati rehti hu waha…. I dnt have gf par me ek ladki ko date kr rhi hu chances hai ke me committed hojau jaldi

so new in Mumbai? To tere to koi gay frnds bhi nhi honge and tere expression se to lag rha hai ke tu pehli baar mujhse hi mila hai.” Bolte bolte Nidhi ne Ankush ki taraf dekha to uska dhyan kahi aur tha, woh usi ladke ko ghur rha tha jbtk woh waha se chala nahi gaya.

“oye me kuch keh rhi hu tu sun nahi raha…….. kon hai woh ladka?”

“Nidhi pehle din is ladke ne mujhe ragging se bachaya tha”

“ohhhhhh dnt tell me u like him aur ab ye tere sapno ka hero ban gaya … aww tu bhi melodramatic hai???”

Ankush ne blush krte huye ha bola.

“hey bhagwan…. Abe tujhe pta nhi kya use to gf hai…”

“ha usi ka to rona hai yaar………”

“hehehhe tu bhi item hai Ankush clg me aate hi sabse famous ladke pe line marna shuru kar diya.”

“ab kya kare dil hai ke manta nahi” Ankush ne haste huye reply kiya.

“nautanki kahi ka….. cute hai yaar tu… hamari achhi jamegi… chal mujhe abhi jana hai lecture ke liye… aur ha sun kal inorbit mall me aana 12bje”

“woh kyu”

“are tu naya hai na tujhe apni gang se milwaungi maja aayega bahot… aajana time pe bye.”

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That day evening :

“…………………….,  and at last I  just wanna say you are worlds best Mom-Dad, and we are worlds luckiest children’s. Thanks for being our parents thanks god hume ye special gift dene ke liye”

Rishi apne parents ke 20^th Marriage anniversary ke party me bol raha tha. Rishi ke speech ne sabko speechless kar diya tha

 “and now cake cutting time. Mom-Dad please come on stage.” Rishi ke bhai ne rone dhone ka scene avoid krne ke liye bich me bol diya.

“hey mom meri speech kaisi lagi?” Rishi ne party khatm hote waqt pucha.

“Rishi, kya kapde pehne the tumne? And ye kya hath hila rahe the bolte waqt ladkiyon ki tarah pata hai sab log majak uda rahe the, tumhare papa ko guests ke samne kitni sharmindagi uthani pad rhi hai. Kuch sikh apne bhai se. Aur ha speech achha tha tera.”

Rishi ki aankhe nam hogayi mom ki baate sunke. Ekbaar fir hamesha ki tarah uske emotion ke badle uske body language ko importance diya gaya tha, aur ye apne family wale bole to aur jyada hurt hota tha.

Rishi  mood thik karne ke liye bahar khuli hawa me aaya aur tabhi use Nidhi ka call aaya.

“RIshi kya kar rha hai? Kamine 2din se call nahi kiya aur abhi bhi itta late uthaya” Nidhi aur Rishi best frnds the.

“are u knw na ghar pe function tha to usi me busy tha”

“achha chal koi nahi kal 12bje milna hai hamesha wali jagah pe” nidhi ne kaha.

 “ya sure, aur apne pratik  ko bhi bata de.” Rishi ne chidate huye kaha.

“us kamine ko? Aaj to Saturday  hai pata nahi kaha muh maar rha hoga. Chal me call krti hu use tu rakh ab. Bye..”

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“aah aah aah……….aaaaaaahhhhhhhh…………. ohhhh fuckkkkk……..”

Phone rings. 

“ are yaar is waqt kis gadhe ne call kar diya...”

“hey pagli thodi der ruk nahi sakti thi call pe call…. I was about to cum… fuckoff.”

Pratik ne irritating voice me kaha.

“ohhhwow  kya miane tera mood off kar diya? Thnk god chalo aaj ke din kuch to achha kiya maine…lol”

“excuse me dnt disturb me, tu ja na apne liye koi ladki dhundh and mje kr.”

“oh hello tere ye gande wale suggestions tere pass hi rakh tu maine bas remind krne ke lie call kiya tha ke kal milna hai 12bje.

“ok done”

Pratik ne phone rakh diya aur ladke ki taraf muh krke kaha “so continue?”

“ yaar tum bade maje dete ho…… chalo firse milenge kabhi… call me…”

Pratik, amir baap ki bigdi aulaad, bisexual tha aur sex seeker hamesha naye partners dhundhta tha. Uske life ka ek hi funda tha, gay logon ko finally girl ke sath shadi krni hi padti hai to kyu na shadi hone tak kuch maje kiye jaye, uski ek hi kamjori thi handsome ladke. Ek ye baat chhod di jaye to jaan chhidakta tha apne doston pe.

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Next Day :

Nidhi aur Ankush eksath mall aagaye aur apne permanent table pe baithkr baki logon ka wait krne lage.

Nidhi: “rishi, pratik me aur Rahul hum best frnds hai….ye hamara fix table hai hum 1saal se ekdusre ko jante hai and tbse bas yahi baithte hai its like our Adda….”

“oh that’s so nice” ankush replied

“yesss aur ab tum bhi hamare gang ka hissa hogaye ho :D” nidhi bol rhi thi tabhi Rishi aur Pratik aagaye.

“yaar ye kya hai itna time lagta hai kya aane ke liye hum kbse wait kr rhe hai” nidhi ne gusse se kaha.

“yaar tum ise kaho ye pratik hi late aaya isliye nikalne me time lag gaya” Rishi ne irritate hoke kaha.

“ha yaar actually me late utha to late hogaya u knw wat kal ki raat kya raat thi maja aagaya” Pratik btane laga.

“yuck… kitna besharam hai tharki kahi ka bade mje se bta rha hai jispe isko sharm aani chahiye” rishi ne bola.

“are sharm kyu? Sex is normal ok… tere jaisa nhi hu tulsi parvati types… jaise bda shadi krke kisi ladke ke sath suhagraat manayega……. Yaar bhai apna to funda hai… shadi to ladki ke sath krni hi pdegi to kyu na tbtk practice ki jaye” pratik shamefully bole jarha tha.

“sex thik hai par woh kisi special ke sath hi krna chahiye jaise ke me sirf mere bf ke sath ye feeling share krunga tere jaise nhi har kisike sath……… tum jaiso ki wajah se hi hamari community badnam hai” rishi explain krne laga.

“ohoo bda aaya bf and all… ye India hai yaha aisa kuch nahi hota aise sati savitri types rahega to koi bf nhi milega meri maan aur enjoy kr life”

“oh plz tujhe mere bf ke bare me sochne ki jarurat nahi”

“mujhe to taras aata hai pta nhi kon tera bf bnega”

“hey bhagwan dono shuru hogaye chup kro and yaha dekho apne group ka naya member, Ankush” Nidhi ne dono ko rokte huye kaha.

“Ankush, indono ke baton pe dhyan mat de ye hamesha jhagadte hi rehte hai par ekdusre ke bina rehte bhi nhi…. Dekh ye hai Rishi and ye hai Pratik.” Nidhi ne intro krwaya.

“Hi Ankush Nice to meet you” Rishi ne kaha.

“welcome to our group Ankush” Pratik ne kaha.

“Rishi ye le accounts ke notes ja mje kr” Pratik ne Rishi ko notes dete huye kaha.

“hey  thanks yaar ye notes me kbse dhundh rha tha” Rishi ne kaha.

“hey waise where is Rahul?” Nidhi ne kaha.

“are as usual pda hoga apne bf ke sath kahi… jabse committed hua hai kuch jyada hi busy rehne laga hai.” Rishi ne btaya.

Tabhi rahul aajata hai.

“hey guys hie… And welcome Ankush”  Rahul ne aate hi sabko wish kiya.

“aagaya romeo, chalo fatafat movie ke liye chalte hai late horha hai” Pratik ne googles pehente huye kaha.

Dinbhar enjoy karke sab wapas chale gaye.

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“hi diary… aaj maine naye dost banaye. Rishi… achha ladka hai thoda girlish hai par dil ka bahot achha hai.. Pratik… thoda bold and shameless hai par bahot helpful dil ka saaf hia, nidhi to bade bhai ki tarah hai aur Rahul…ummm… me uske bare me jyada jaan nahi paya… achha ladka hai par tut ke pyaar karta hai kahi uski ye strnght uski weakness na ban jaye bas yahi dar hai… overall me bahot khush hu ab mujhe feelings share krne ke liye bahot sare achhe frnds mile hai shayd metro cities ka yahi fayda hai…

Aur Nidhi ne to jate jate ek bahot imp baat bta di…. Mera woh ragging wala ladka woh clg ke piche wale ground me roj football khelne aata hai  woh bhi “shirtless”…wow ... Ab kal se meri shift shuru… hahhaha J gud nite”

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Dusre din se Ankush ka daily routine ban gaya subah clg aur sham ko football match. Woh us ladke ko chahne laga tha agar woh ladka uske pas se bhi gujre to ye nervous hojata heartbeats badh jate. Woh hamesha nidhi ke thrw uski details nikalwata par direct usse baat krne ki himmat uski kabhi hui nahi.

Dekhte dekhte Ankush, Rishi, Nidhi, Pratik and Rahul achhe dost ban gaye weekend sab sath manate ghumna movies hangout eksath.

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“ha rishi me just nikal raha hu ready hogaya hu time pe pohoch jaunga”  Ankush ne room ko lock lagaya aur nikal gaya.

Saturday tha so sabka plan bana tha mrng me movie and evening me sab pehli baar gay party me janewale the. Ankush excited tha and fast station ki taraf jane laga tabhi piche se awaz aayi,

“hey hi, do u have time?”

Ankush ne use pehchan liya woh wahi aadmi tha jo hamesha kisi na kisi se jhagadta rehta tha colony me.

“actually m in hurry bahar jarha hu… kyu?”

“woh actually  bhandara tha apne colony ke mandir me meri tarah se so prashad leke jate to mujhe achha lagta please..”  aaj us aadmi ko itna polite dekhke ankush shocked hogaya usne mandir ki taraf dekha to waha bahot bheed thi ankush sochne laga is akdu aadmi ke yaha itne log khane ke liye aagaye sach me mehengayi bahot badh gayi hai log khane ke liye kahi bhi chale jate hai.

“hum ekdusre ko nahi jante tum naye aaye ho na yaha… mera naam Anand hai” us aadmi ne kaha.

“ohh hi, par mujhe sach me late horha hai sorry”

“chalo thik hai par thoda sa prashad lelo mujhe bhi achha lagega” us aadmi ne kaha.

“aaj ye bhandara kaise?” ankush ne pucha.

“woh aaj bday hai na meri maa ka”

“maa?? Ohh nice kaha hai aunty?”

“ye lo meethai now you can go” us aadmi ne smile karte huye sawal tal diya aur Ankush bhi late horha tha to usne dhyan nahi diya woh waha se nikal gaya.

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Sham ko sab gay party chale gaye, party ek pub me thi. Sab excited the ki kaisi hogi party kaise log honge kya hoga kya nahi.

Ander jate hi sab shocked hogaye. Har taraf se drinks ki smell aarhi thi. Koi smoke kar rha hai koi drink kar rha hai… kuch logon ke kapde weird the and dance to ekdam vulgar. Koi kiss kar rha hai koi smooch kar rha hai aur koi to ………

“omg ye kya hai?” rishi ne kaha.

“omg ye kya hai?” Pratik ne kaha.

Dono ne ek hi dialog kaha par expressions and feelings  me north south itna difference tha, Pratik khush hogaya to Rishi ka mood kharab hogaya.

“are ye party hai ya cruising place :o”  Rahul surprising way me bol rha tha.

“are chhodo in logon ko… hum group me hai chalo drink krte hai dance krte hai dusron se hame kya lena dena…” Nidhi ne excitement me kaha.

“hey bhagwan kitna ganda hai ye shayd isi wajah se sab gays ko galiya dete hai ye dekhke to koi bhi galiya de” Ankush ne kaha.

“oh hello Mr reporter, straight logon ki parties to isse bhi gandi hoti hai, prostitution, sex rackets,parties waha bhi hoti hai hum to bas naam se badnam hai… ye log bas hame galiya dene ke reasons dhundhte hai aur hum khud unhe ye reason dete hai” Pratik bol rha tha.

“oye Mr Pratik rao pta hai tu kitna achha hai so better keep quite and lets go” Rishi ne uski baat katte huye kaha.”

Ab sablog enjoy kr rhe the dance and all. Dance karte waqt ek ladka Pratik ke sath jhum jhum ke dance kar rha tha ise dekhke Rishi ko bahot gussa aarha tha woh is baat se irritate hoke side me jake baith gaya.

“tu use batata kyu nahi” Ankush Rishi ke pass aake baith gaya aur bolne laga.

“kya? Kisko? Rishi ne pucha.

“yahi ki tu Pratik ko like karta hai” Ankush ne kaha.

“nahi yaar… karta hu nahi karta tha… jab frnds bane the tab uska frank helpful nature bahot pasand aata tha mujhe pasand krne laga tha ….shayd isiwajah se jyada jhagadta bhi hu usse taki usse nafrat kar saku u knw na sari bad habbits hai use…. Sabko samajhta hai help karta hai par dekho meri feeling nahi samajh paya. Aur me bhi kaise bolu u knw na kaisa jhalla hai woh uske samne apni feeling ki insult nhi krna chahta me… dost hai thik hai dil tutega to dosti bhi tutegi” Rishi emotional hogaya.

“chal koi na hame mil jayega koi aur chal dance krte hai sath me” kehkr Ankush Rishi ko dance floor pe legaya.

 Pratik ke sath dance krnewala ladka fir Ankush ke sath cheap hone laga yaha waha hath lagana and all and ekdam se pass akar bola, “hey I want smooch”

Ankush ne use dhakka de diya, “nhi me nahi”

“kya?” woh ladka haste huye bola, “kyu niche kuch nhi hai kya? Ya saale tu gay hi nahi hai?”

“gay hone ka ye mtlb nahi hota ke me sabke sath kuch bhi karu” ankush ne bola.

“hahahhaahaa hijda saala… kuch krna nahi hai to aise parties me aata hi kyu hai” woh ladka gande way me Ankush ki insult krne laga tabhi pratik ne uske muh pe jordar chamat mari.

“saale, ye mera bestie hai usko kuch bolega to saale kaat ke hath me de dunga samjha”

Fir  kuch logon ke interfare krne se jhagda band hogaya.

“chalo yaaro yaha se hum kahi aur chalke enjoy karte hai” Pratik bolke waha se nikalne laga.

Party khatm aur fir thodi der restaurant me bitane ke baad sab log apne ghar chale gaye.

“hie Diary, aaj hum gay party me gaye the kafi alag experience tha. Bahot vulgar party thi. Aaj pata chala ke aisi parties pe ban kyu hota hai. Party ka mtlb hota hai city ke apne jaise  naye logon se milna baate share karna par yaha to kuch aur hi tha. Parties ban nahi karni chahiye par ha yaha pe honewali aisi harkaton ko jarur ban kar dena chahiye. Par insab chijo me ek achhi baat huyi, Jis Pratik ko me sirf seeker samajhta tha aaj pata chala woh ek achha dost hai jo dos ke liye stand leta ha aur ye bahot badi baat hai… sach mano to aaj pta chala asli reason Pratik ka hamara closed frnds hone ka….. Gud nite J”

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Rishi party ke baad ghar lauta.

“hey rishi… kaha tha tu itne der tak… dekh time kya horha hai” Rishi ke dad ne pucha.

“me kaha jau kiske sath jau kab tak lautu iska explanation mujhe aapko dene ki jarurat nahi” Rishi ne arrogantly reply diya.

“jarurat hai, dad hu me tera and I have right to knw everything about u”  dad ne chillate huye kaha.

“dad nahi step dad…. Bhuliye mat” Rishi ne kaha.

“ha to tera baap to chala gaya tujhe chhod ke ab tu mere tukdo pe pal raha hai to mere hisab se chalna pdega”

“nahi, tum mere dad nhi ho tum sirf meri mom ke dusre pati ho…. Sirf dusre pati”

Tabhi rishi ki mom waha aajati hai aur chillane lagti hai “rishi mind your toung, ye tumhare papa hai respect karna sikho”

“ha dekho Rajni maine ise bas pucha ke itne late night kaha se aarha hai woh bhi sirf care hai isliye par ye bahot battamiz hogaya hai ulte jawab de rha hai” Dad ne mom se kaha.

“mom ye jhuth bol rhe hai”

“shut up, humdono tumhari care karte hai pyar karte hai isliye tumhe bolte hai sirf tumhe protect karne ke liye par yaha dekho pata nahi kin doston ke sath awaragardi karta rehta hai kapde dekho aur ye kya ladki jaise weist pe hath rakhke khade rehte ho… stop doing that”

“ohh really mom…  aap to mere bachpan se hi apna social work kitty parties me busy rehti hai mere liye time kaha tha aapke pass…….. mom aap chahti to mujhe protect kar sakti thi, aap mere closed rehti to shayd me aapko apna dard samjha pata… aap ek maa banke mere sath rehti to shayad me bach jata.” Rishi ne sad voice me kaha.

“bach jata? Matlb? Kya hua tumhe?”

“kuch nahi mom bahot nind aarahi hai gud nite” bolke Rishi waha se chala gaya.

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Dusre din Ankush room se bahar nikla to uske owner ne use awaz di,

“are Ankush tu kal ke bhandare ke liye nahi aaya woh Anand ka bhandara tha na mandir me”

“ha uncle woh me kal kisi kaam se bahar gaya tha”

“ok bahot achha khana bana tha waha and bahot bheed bhi thi”  owner ne kaha to Ankush ne apna doubt bol diya,

“par uncle woh Anand uncle to sabse jhagadte rehte hai fir bhi sab unke yaha chale gaye”

“are woh thode gussewala hai par dil ka bahot saaf aur achha hai… apne colony me to woh danveer karna ke naam se famous hai sabko help karta hai and sabki care bhi karta hai isliye to itna jhagadne ke baad bhi koi use kabhi buraa nahi kehta.”

“oh ye to mujhe pata hi nahi tha…. That’s great… chalo uncle me abhi bahar jarha hu” kehkar Ankush waha se chala gaya usne Anand ke ghar ki taraf dekha ghar ko lock laga tha pata nahi use Anand ki taraf ek alag hi koi chij attract kr rhi thi.

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Yaha sablog inorbit mall me ikattha hogaye.

“hey nidhi, tune itne urgently kyu bula liya hum sabko” Rishi ne pucha.

“guys ek problem hogayi hai hame Rahul ke room pe jana hai” Nidhi ne bataya.

“par aisa kya hua?” ankush ne pucha.

“uska break up hogaya hai  woh bahot jyada depression me hai, chalo jaldi” Nidhi ne bataya.

Sab rahul ke room pe gaye to waha Rahul apna hath katne jarha tha use dekhke sab ghabra gaye aur bhagte huye uske pass gaye aur use roka.

“pagal hai tu? Uske liye apni life khatm kar rha hai he dnt deserve ths yaar”  Ankush ne kaha.

“gadha hai saala khud se jyada woh importat lagne laga hai  tujhe” Pratik ne gusse se kaha.

Rishi ne Pratik ko ishara karte huye shant rehne ko kaha.

“rahul kya hua mujhe bata” Nidhi ne shanti se pucha.

“1saal hogaya yaar hamare relation ko tumhe bhi pata hai me usse kitna jyada attached tha yaha tak ke me tumlogon se bhi dur hogaya bahot pyaar karta tha woh mujhe par pata nahi kuch dino se woh ignore karne  laga tha maine kai baar pucha to koi jawab nahi diya usne, mere phone msg sabka jawab dena band kr diya tha and ab kal me use milne gaya to usne bataya ke ab woh mujhme interested hi nahi hai use kisi aur se pyaar hogaya hai… bolta hai ab aur kya chahiye shadi karega kya? India me aisa kuch nahi hota gays to hote hi hai bas shadi honetk use karo aur chhod do……. He used me yaar uska pyaar bas dikhawa tha kaise koi 1saal ka relation ek jhatke me tod sakta hai….” Bolte bolte Rahul ne Nidhi ko hug kar liya. Uska tut kar rona dekhke sabki aakhon me pani aagaya.

“saaala harami aisa bola tujhe.. ruk uska muh na fod diya na to mera naam Pratik nahi” Pratik gusse me bolne laga.

“hey tu ab complications mat badha filhal rahul ko hamari jarurat hai usko baad me dekhte hai” Rishi Pratik ko samjha raha tha.

Sabne milkar Rahul ko samjhaya aur woh sogaya. Unhe dar tha ke shayad usdin woh firse suicide try karega isliye Pratik uske pass ruk gaya.

“isiliye me ye pyar n all ke chakkar me nahi padta dekha itna khush rehne wala Rahul kitna depressed hogaya ke suicide tak pohoch gaya. Ye gay love movies ki baate hai yaar reality isse bahot dur hai… reality me gay relation 1-2saal se jyada nahi tikta…. Its all about lust only.” Pratik sabko bata raha tha jab woh sabko bahar chhodne gaya.

“yaar me nahi manta, koi ek insan galat hai iska ye mtlb nhi ke pyaar hi galat hai… pyaar to bhagwan ki den hai fir hum bhi to usi bhagwan ki den hai… aur Pratik tu ye jarur manega jab tujhe pyaar hojayega.” Rishi ne kaha.

“hehehhe mujhe pyaar to kabhi ho hi nahi sakta…. Chalo ab jao tum log gud nite”

Usdin sab chup the aur apne apne ghar chale gaye.

Ankush ke samne Rahul ka hi chehra aarha tha kyuki aajtk jis pyaar ko woh bhagwan manta tha usi pyar se tuta ek insan rote huye dekha tha usne. Ye sab uske liye bahot naya tha.

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Pratik dusre din apne ghar aaya.

“hey Pratik… kaisa hai tera dost ab? Ladkiya aajkal kuch jyada hi ajib hogayi hai na bade break ups horhe hai aajkal” Pratik ke ghar aate hi uski sis ne usse pucha.

“ha di woh to hia bechara bahot sad hai… khair woh chhodo aap batao ladka dekhne aanewala tha na kya hua uska?”

“are champu types tha yaar woh… par ek baat hai Pratik I need your help. Mujhe arrange marriage nahi karni me ek ladke se pyaar karti hu and usse shadi krni hai I need your help please”

Pratik ye sunke surprised hogaya, “omg didi aapne abtk bataya nahi… mujhe usse milna hai fir me decide karunga and fir papa se baat karunga…. And ek shart pe jab meri shadi hogi tab aap bhi meri help karoge…. Wow aapki shadi hogi fir to me bahot masti karunga aur koi jiju ki sis patake shadi kar dunga J”

“oh hello sapne dekhna band kar pehle ja aur naha le” Didi ne kaha.

Pratik hamesha se didi ke shadi ke sapne dekhta tha aur sochta tha me ye karunga me woh karunga aur khud ki shadi ke liye bhi bahot arman sajaye baitha tha.

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Ab sab dost milkar Rahul ko khush rakhne me jut gaye the and is wajah se ab Ankush ka football match dekhna band hogaya tha  us wajah se kisi ko pata nahi tha par Ankush ko ab koi miss karne laga tha.

Ek din Ankush college khatm hone ke baad bus stop pe khada bus ka wait kr rha tha tab usne dekha ke wahi ragging wala ladka bike se aarha tha green tshirt aur black jeans me bahot smart lag rha tha, dono ka eye contact hua aur us ladke ne Ankush ke samne bike rok di.

“hi, kaha jarha hai? Me chhod du?” us ladke ne kaha.

“san….. sanpada” Ankush ke muh se shabd nahi nikal rhe the khushi ke mare.

“ok chal baith me vashi jarha hu bich me tujhe drop kar dunga” us ladke ne kaha.

Ankush ne kuch socha nahi aur jakar uski pichli wali seat pe baith gaya. Uske man me laddoo fut rhe the khushi ke mare uchal rha tha ke jis ladke ko woh roj dekhta tha aaj woh uski bike pe baitha hai.

“whats your name bydway?” us ladke ne pucha.

“Ankush…. And whats urs?”

“Akshat….”   Usne kaha. Naam sunte hi Ankush ke man me laddoo futne lage,

“ohh nice name”

“thnk u…. waise maine notice kiya hai tu roj hamari football match dekhne aata hai na ground pe and kuch pdhta rehta hai… abhi kuch dino se tu aaya nahi” Akshat ne pucha.

“ha woh actually aajkal thoda busy rehta hu isliye nhi aata par me to aise hi aata hu waha baithne room pe bore hota hai to and waha thodi pdhai bhi hojati hai and thoda timepass bhi” Ankush ne bahana bana diya par Akshat ne use notice kiya ye baat usko bahot pasand aayi.

“ohh thik hai…”   fir aksat ne use studies and all ke bare me puchna shuru kiya and bato bato me sanpada aagaya. Pehli baar clg se pass room lene ka dukh Ankush ko hua.

“thank you” ankush ne bike se utarte huye kaha.

“for what?” akshat ne pucha.

“mujhe lift dene ke liye and us din ragging se bachane ke liye”

“oh come on formal hone ki jarurat nahi and waise bhi usdin hame sach me late horha tha movie ke liye so apna thanks wapas lele…” Akshat ne smile krte huye kaha aur bike start krke chala gaya.

“omg omg omg……”  Ankush ka to sapna pura hogaya woh nachte nachte room pe gaya aur usne sabse pehle Nidhi ko call lagaya aur sab details bata diye.

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Dusre din clg khatm hua aur Ankush ghar jane laga to corridor me Akshat apne frnds ke sath khada tha Ankush ne jate jate use smile di aur aage nikal gaya to Akshat ne piche se awaz lagai,

“oh hello… Mr Ankush” ankush ne piche mud ke dekha.

“yaar kabhi baat bhi kar liya kar tu to samne se jarha hai aur hi tk nahi kr rha” Akshat ne kaha.

“are nahi aisa nahi hai but u knw ragging ke dar se maine baat nhi ki warna…”   Ankush ka reply sunke Akshat jor jor se hasne laga.

“yaar tu bhi na……. chal dar mat koi ragging nahi lega teri me hu na… ab chal football khelte hai” Akshat ne kaha aur Ankush sochne laga jau ke nahi…

“oye ladki nahi hai tu jo itna soch rha hai and waise bhi to family ke sath to rehta nhi jo permission leni pde chal chupchap”  Akshat ka frankness and attention Ankush ko pasand aane laga tha. And football ke bahane ab woh Akshat ke group me bhi add hogaya and ab unki dosti strong hone lagi.

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“rahul ab ye kya hai tu pagal hai kya? Kyu jarha hia Mumbai chhodke dekh ekbar fir soch le” Pratik Rahul ko samjha rha tha. Rahul Mumbai chhodke jarha tha hamesha ke liye isliye sab use milne aaye the station pe.

“nahi yaar maine bahot socha hai par ab mera yaha man nahi lagta, jabse break up hua hai kahi bhi jata hu bas wahi baate yaad aati hai… jitna insab se nikaneki koshish kr rha hu utna hi insab me ghusta jarha hu.yaar me bhi pehle jaisa banna chahta hu use itna importance nhi dena chahta ke uske jane ke baad bhi woh mujhe hurt kr sake isliye chala jana chahta hu yaha se. jab me relation me tha bas wahi tha mere liye sabkuch apne aap ko to me bhul hi gaya tha par ab me khud ko time dena chahta hu apne aap ko explore karna chahta hu isliye mera yaha se jana jaruri hai… ghar pe family ke sath rahunga khush rahunga wahi achhi si job karunga and fir aage ki aage dekhenge”

“par Rahul………” Nidhi ne kaha.

“nahi Nidhi jane de use aaj usne pehli baar khud ke khushi ke liye koi faisla liya hai hame use support krna chahiye………. Tu ja Rahul par hamesha touch me rehna and agar kabhi man kiya to aajana Mumbai”

Rishi ne kaha.

“Rahul… will miss u alott yaar………… we love u sooo much” Ankush kehte kehte uski aakhon se pani aagaya.

“yar tum jaise dost to sabko mile, agar aaj me decision lene ke kabil hua hu to bas tumlogon ke support ki wajah se…….. will miss u alottt………. Mumbai se dur jarha hu par tumsab  ke dil se to nhi.” Rahul keh raha tha ke Pratik ne use tight hug kar liya aur fir group hug…

Train nikalne lagi, Rahul train ke door pe khada sabko bye kar rha tha yaha sabki aakhe nam hui thi. Unka ek best frnd aaj unse bichad raha tha aur woh kuch nahi kar pa rhe the sirf usko dur jate huye dekh rhe the…. Ek chapter khatm horha tha aur ek dost chhut raha tha…!!

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Sablog Ankush ke room me baithke lappy me gay parties ki pics dekh rhe the.

“hey ye dekh yaha Rahul kitna khush tha na” Rishi ne pic dikhate huye kaha. Rahul ko jake kuch din hogaye the aur almost sab normal horha tha.

“hey wait wait…. Omg ye kon hai?” Ankush ne pic zoom krte huye kaha.

“oye koi uncle se to hai tujhe uncles me kaise interest aane laga” Pratik ne chidate huye kaha.

“are nahi yaar ye to woh Anand uncle hai…. Nidhi remember maine tujhe btaya tha mere colony me ek uncle hai jo jhagadte rehte hai sabse.”

“omg tharki uncle” kehke Nidhi hasne lagi.

“abe chhod na hai to hai jane de chal nxt pic laga” Pratik ne kaha.

Par Ankush ke dimag me woh baat ghar kar gayi aur woh baar baar wahi sochne laga Anand uncle gay party me mtlb woh bhi …………..

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“me delhi se hu and aur ab yaha studies ke liye aaya hu” Akshat Ankush ko bata raha tha. Dono restaurant me baithke lunch kr rhe the.

“ohh aur teri gf bhi delhi ki hai kya” Ankush ne pucha.

“hahahhaa” Akshat ne haste huye kaha, “gdhe tujhe abtk nhi samjha kya me kbhi uske sath jyada ghumta nahi kabhi uski baat nhi krta tere samne means woh meri gf nhi hai”

“omg really?” Ankush ab curious hogaya.

“are ha woh actually humne deal ki thi clg khatm honetk dikhane ke liye committed rahenge bcz usko roj roj bahot proposals aate the and mujhe bhi and we both dont want any serious relation humdono ek jaise hai party sharty enjoyment and all so hum committed hogaye and woh irritation khatm hogayi sabko na na bolne ki and u knw ye sale engineering ke ladke bhi kamine hote hai I knw sab mere se itna kyu chipakte hai mere paise dekhke…. Par u knw tu waisa nahi hai that’s why I like you”

Ab ye sunke Ankush to ekdam khush hogaya use lag rha tha mano uske samne ka sabse bda obstacle chala gaya. Tabhi usne dekha ek garib aurat hotel ke ander aane ki koshish kr rhi thi unke sath ek chota beta tha par waiter unko ander aane nahi de rha tha.

“are beta yaha khane ki bahot jid kr rha hai aane do ander hamare pass paise hai” par waiter unhe aane nahi de rha tha bcz of hotel’s reputation.

“oye waiter,woh log mere sath hai aane do unhe jaldi” Ankush ne waiter ko awaaz lagayi.

Waiter ne unhe ander aane diya. “hey kitna cute bachha hai…. Kya khaoge bête”  Ankush ne pucha.

“chamocha” bachhe ne samose ki taraf ungli karte huye kaha. Ankush ne bachhe ke liye samose aur uski ma ke liye juice order kiya and bill uske bill me jodne ko kaha.

“ye roj roj piche pdta tha ke isi jagah khana hia isi jagah khana hai isliye roj ke kaam se thode paise ikattha kiye the aur aaj ise yaha laya tha… dekho kitna khush hai… aapka bahot dhanyabad” woh aurat Ankush ko bol rhi thi.

“are nahi aunty aisa kuch nahi nahi ye to bas is sweet ke liye… aapka beta bahot sunder hai” Ankush ne kaha. Apne bête ko satisfied dekhke us aurat ki aakhon me ek chamak aagayi thi aur undono ko dekhke Ankush ki aankhe khush hogayi thi.  Akshat kabse Ankush ko hi notice kar raha tha, “kya hua aise kyu dekh rha hai?”

“you knw that’s why u r my best frnd” Akshat ne smile karte huye kaha.

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Akshat ne Ankush ko uske room pe chhod diya and woh chala gaya Ankush lock khol rha tha ke use awaz aayi usne dekha to Anand ke ghar se ek ladka nikla woh bike leke chala gaya. Anand use see off krne bahar aaya tha to usne Ankush ko dekha, “hey chai piyega?”

Ankush ko uske bare me janna tha to usne bhi ha keh diya.

“aaja, make urself comfortable” Anand ne kaha and woh kitchen me chala gaya chai banane.

Ankush uske ghar ko dekh rha tha Hall me bade bade painting lage the and bich bich me family photos thi and sab photos me ek chehra pehchan wala tha… ha ye wahi tha jo abhi uske ghar se nikla tha.

“ye abhi jo aaya tha ye tumhara bhai hai kya?”  Ankush ne pucha.

“ha mera bhai hai kabhi kabhi aata hai milne” Anand ne bataya.

“fir aap family se dur kyu rehte hai?” Ankush ne pucha.

“bas aise hi mujhe akele rehna pasand hai” Anand ne kaha.

“aap mujhe bata sakte hai…. Maine apko ekbar party me dekha tha.”  Ankush ne himmat karte huye kaha.

“matlab tum bhi????” Anand ne pucha.

“ha” Ankush ne sharmate huye kaha.

“hmm…. Ab mere bare me batau to ha me gay hu ek bf tha mera bahot bade bade vaade kiye the usne mujhse lifetime sath rehna and all aur me use sach samajhke bahot aage nikal gaya uske sath. Uska support leke maine ghar pe bata diya ke me gay hu jst bcz mujhe ab uske sath rehna tha hamesha ke liye. Fir as usual family ne support nhi kiya jhagda hua and tabhi mere bf ne mujhe chhod diya kyunki woh mujhse bore hogaya tha use koi aur pasand aagaya tha fir me akela pad gaya familywalo ne bol diya shadi kar nahi to nikal ja ghar se… family ke khushi ke liye kisi ladki ki life spoil karna mujhe thik nahi laga isliye maine ghar chhod diya. Insab baton me time nikal gaya me 28 ka hogaya umar nikal gayi so fir bf hua nahi kyunki sabko 21-26 ke bich ke log hi chahiye aur ab me mature hogya tha. U knw gay relation 1-2 saal tk hi chalta hai aur gay life 26-27 saal tk uske baad aapme koi interest nahi leta aur ye to mujhe pata hi nahi tha isliye akela reh gaya family ne bhi rishta tod diya ab bas akela rehta hu pyaar ki hope chhod di hai akelapan katne ko daudta hai kabhi kabhi Maa ki bahot yaad aati hai par kya kare kismat hia par ye satisfaction hai ki maine kisiki life spoil nahi ki…… ab to mast akela rehta hu khud ke liye jeeta hu aur satisfaction ke liye sabki help karta hu khush hu”

Fir dono ne kuch der baat ki aur Ankush waha se chala gaya.

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Raat ke 11 baje the Ankush room me sorha tha tabhi door ki awaz aane lagi Ankush ne darwaza khola to Pratik tha and uske sath bada sa bag.

“Pratik??? Tu is time yaha kya kar rha hai? Dekh I have place but I am not interested in u” Ankush ne majak kiya par Pratik ne uspe respond nahi kiya “bkwas PJ” kehke woh ander aagaya aur bed pe aake baitha. Ankush ne notice kar liya tha ke woh bahot disturbed hai. Usne pani dete huye pucha,

“pratik kya hua? Itni raat ko ye saman leke?”

“I hate all… I hate my family I hate everyone” Pratik ne kaha. “par hua kya hai?” Ankush ne firse pucha.

“meri di ne mujhe uske bf se milwaya and woh wahi tha jisse maine 3-4 baar sex kiya hai. Woh bisexual hai and bahot ganda wala sex seeker hai and naturewise bhi bahot ganda hai. Me nahi chahta ke meri di uske sath rahe jo pata nahi kaha kaha muh marta hia roj. Isliye maine di se kaha ke woh achha ladka nahi hai use chhod de di ne gharwalon ko bta diya ab sab mujhse reason puch rhe the to maine sabkuch bata diya ke me gay hu and uske sath maine sex kiya hai and all to di bahot gussa hogayi and dad ne to mujhe ghar se hi nikal diya”

“omg…. Ghar se nikal diya? And tune bina soche samjhe direct bta kyu diya hum koi aur rasta dekhte us ladke se baat karte”

“nahi Ankush ab mujhe jo sahi laga maine kiya di ki life kharab hote huye me nhi dekh sakta tha… and maine us ladke se baat ki but woh bahot kamina hia bolta hai wow ye to gud news hai ab to biwi aur saala dono ke sath mje kr sakta hu me tab mujhe samjha ke ab mere pas yahi last option hai and mujhe pata tha uske bare me bataunga to khud ke bare me batana hi padega mujhe isliye bol diya” Pratik ne innocent way me bahot badi baat keh di aur kar bhi di.

“me koi part time job dekh lunga and fir rehna ka dekh lunga kya tbtk me yaha reh sakta hu?” Praatik ki awaz bhari hogayi thi and aaj pehli baar Ankush ne use udas and rote huye dekha tha. Gharwalo ki is harkat ne use puri tarah tod diya tha warna hamesha khush rehnewala Pratik aaj hara nahi hota.

“are pagal hai kya tu jbtk chahe tbtk reh sakta hai yaha samjha na” Ankush ne uska bad side me rakhte huye kaha”

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“wtf … Pratik, jbtk shadi na ho tbtk ladkon ke sath mje krke fir shadi ke baad biwi ke sath life spend krna ye funda tha na tera and di ki life bachane ke liye tune apni life sacrifice kr di…….. Ye wala Pratik kaha tha abtk….. Love u for this…” Nidhi ne Pratik ko hug krte huye kaha.

“and waha dekh yaar parents ko lagta hai sab meri wajah se hi hua hai, mujhe ghar se nikal diya… itna mushkil kyu hota hai gay ko accept krna… hate my parents” Pratik keh rha tha.

“nahi Pratik unki koi galti nahi hai, aaj dekh tune di ke shadi ke liye kitne sapne dekhe honge aur woh tbse jabse tu bada hua hai and agar ekdin woh aakar keh de ke woh lesbian hai woh shadi nahi krna chahti to? Tere arman nahi tutenge? Tujhe dukh nhi hoga? Gussa nhi aayega? Jab sapne tutte hai to bahot dard hota hai na fir soch hamare parents to hamare paida hote hi sapne sajana shuru kar dete hai and ekdin hum aakar keh de to unhe kitna bada jhatka lagega to obviously woh accept nhi krenge aur karenge bhi to time lagega…. Ye unka fault nhi hai ye fault hai ke hum minority me hai log hamare bare me nahi sochte islie kbhi unke dimag me aata hi nhi ke mera beta bhi gay hosakta hai… nafrat mat kr unse bas thoda samajh unki feelings bhi….. aur us ladke se nafrat kr rha hai tu aaj kyunki ab ye teri behen pe aagaya hai par tu shayd bhul rha hai ke tu bhi to waisa hi hai tu bhi jis ladki se shadi krega woh bhi kisiki behen hogi agar tu apne behen ke liye aisa ladka nhi chahta to teri biwi bhi tujhe deserve nhi krti….”   Rishi Pratik ko samjha rha tha.

“ha shayd tu sahi keh rha hai.... samajdar hogaya hai tu mere sath rehte rehte” Pratik ne majak kiya woh khud hi atmosphere light krna chahta tha.

“oh hello samajdar hu but tune kabhi notice nhi kiya huh” Rishi ne kaha.

“are Ankush teri love story kaha tak pahuchi kaisa hai hamara shirtless jiju” Nidhi ne chidate huye kaha.

“yaar shayari me batau?” Ankush ne bola,

“are irshad irshad” rishi Pratik aur Nidhi ne eksath hokar kaha.

“chupke chupke na jane kab woh dil me hai aaya,

Banke khushboo woh meri me samaya,

Uski har baat mujhko ab to lagti bhali hai,

Me kisi raah jau lage uski gali hai,

Meri yaadon me rahe… woh mere sath chale… banke meri parchaiii…

ha mujhe pyaar hua hai….. bas ikraar hai baki

thoda sa pyaar hua hai…. Thoda hai baki…”      Ankush blush karne laga.

“aaye hayeee kya baat hai” Nidhi ne kaha tabhi Rishi bich me bol pada,

“guys mujhe tumhe ek baat batani hai…. I met a guy and I think ke hamare bich kuch hosakta hai” ye sunke Pratik shocked hogaya.

“Omg omg… to kya tumdono relationship ke bare me soch rhe ho?” Ankush ne pucha.

“nahi filhal nahi abhi hum socch rhe the ke thodi dating kr le compatible laga to will move fwd” Rishi ne muskurate huye kaha.

“tu use date nahi kr sakta samjha” Pratik ne ekdam se react kiya and sabke question mark wale chehre dekhke fir explain krne laga,

“are mera mtlb aise thode hi hota hai ke mile dating ki aur pyaar… aise sochke pyaar nahi hota woh apne aap hojata hai so ye pagalpanti band kr aur use mana kr de samjha”

“oh hello ye dekho pyaar ki definition ab inse suno huh” Rishi ne kaha.

“ja fir mar jake uske pass fir wapas mat aana mere pass rote huye” Pratik ab gussa hone laga tha par woh gussa actually jealousy thi par woh khud ye baat abhi samajh nahi pa rha tha.

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Pratik ne ek hotel me part time waiter ki job le li par room me woh Ankush ke hi rehta tha itne paise nahi huye the ke woh alag se room le.

Ekdin Ankush aur Rishi Pratik ke hotel gaye aur dono baithke baate krne lage Pratik aate jate unse baate krta. Tabhi Rishi ki najar ek table pe padi.

“hey woh Nikhil hai na???”

“kon Nikhil?” Ankush ne pucha.

“are apne rahul ka ex bf” Rishi ne bataya.

“oh fuck ha ye to wahi hai and she must be his gf na dekh to kaise chipak chipak ke baate chal rhi hai dono ki” Pratik ne kaha.

“saala apne dost ko aisa hurt kiya ki woh yaha se chala hi gaya ab me ise nhi chhodunga” Rishi ne kaha.

“guys but r u sure na woh wahi hai?” Ankush ne pucha.

“obvio yaar itni baar to dekha hai use” Rishi ne kaha aur woh chair se uth gaya “abhi iski band bajake aata hu” bolke woh Nikhil k pass chala gaya.

“hey Hi Nikhil” Rishi ne politely kaha.

“hi sorry but maine pehchana nahi” Nikhil ne chair sidhi krte huye kaha.

“are yaar pehchanoge kaise kitna time hogaya milke tum to call hi nahi krte yaar us raat ko mile the tbse mile nahi…. Kya hua tumhe maja nhi aaya kya? But mujhe to bahot maja aaya plz yaar ekbaar fir milte hai na us raat ka nasha to abtk nhi utra” Rishi janbujhkr bahot feminine way me baat kar rha tha.

“what the hell Nikhil ye kya bol rha hai tumne iske sath?????????” woh ladki thodi bhadak gayi.

“are nahi babu ye kuch bhi bol rha hai me to ise janta bhi nahi jarur kisi baat ka badla nikal rha hoga” Nikhil ne samjhate huye kaha.

“achha me tumhe nahi janta??? Aaj ye nayi ladki mili to mujhe bhul gaya…… par isse better to us din wali thi yaar tum bhi na pata nahi kaha se late ho chalo sorry maine tumhe disturb kiya enjoy” bolke Rishi uthne laga to Nikhil ke gf ne use rok liya,

“tumhare pass kya proof hai ke ye aisa ladka hai”

“hey tum iske jhanse me aarhi ho kya” Nikhil ne tention me aake kaha.

“are nahi bas is ladke ko chup karana chahti hu me” ladki ne dheere se bola.

“proof chahiye??? To dekho 8010645894 ye tumhara hi no hai na… hindu ho but still tumne cut krwaya hai apna woh… uski size 6.5 hai and tumhari jangho pe ek til hai and aur proof chahiye ho to ye dekho apne so called true lover bf ki nude pic ab tum ise fake pic nhi bol sakti bcz tumhe body to samajh aa hi jayegi na” Rishi ne pic dikhate huye kaha.

Woh ladki ye sab dekha aur sunke Nikhil ko ek jordar tamacha mara sabke samne aur waha se chali gayi.

“mera naam Rishi hai Rahul ka best frnd jyada shocked mat hona ye mujhe usne hi diye hai tere details.. tumhe kya laga hamare dost ko hurt karoge aur hum tumhe chhod denge no ways……… aajke baad kisiko hurt krne se pehle unhe use krne se pehle 100 baar sochna nahi to ye details tumharee ghar tk pohoch jayenge……. Ab ye tamacha to yaad hi rahega hamesha, bahot pyaar krte the ne usse ab do explanation… and mera jo ukhadna hai ukhad le” Rishi ne gusse se kaha aur waha se chala gaya.

“omg I still cant believe u actually did it” Pratik ne khush hoke kaha.

“ha ye to krna hi tha warna itna bada bojh kaise kam hota…” rishi ne smile krte huye kaha tabhi uska dating partner aagaya.

“ja tera ashique aagaya” Pratik ne gusse me kaha. Use dekhke Rishi uske sath chala gaya.

“pratik r u sure tu jealous nahi hai” Ankush ne Pratik se pucha.

“tujhe koi kaam nahi hai kya ja na mujhe bhi kaam krne de nahi to boss chillayega” kehkar Pratik waha se chala gaya.

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Ab dheere dheere sab normal hone laga tha. Pratik apne life me busy hone laga ab woh change hogaya tha bahot. Random sex and all ab uski life se khatm hogaye the. Responsible hogaya tha woh. Yaha Rishi apne partner ke sath dating me busy tha…. Waha Ankush aur Akshat ki dosti pe naye naye rang chadh rhe the aur yaha ab Nidhi final year me aagayi thi…. Oops Akshat bhi to final year me tha ab… kuch dino me ab woh Mumbai chhodke jane wala tha.

“tu pagal hai kya? Ab to bata de use apne dil ki baat” Pratik ne Ankush ko kaha.

“ha  Ankush ab to tujhe btana hi chahiye nahi to zindagi bhar kashh kehna pdega” Nidhi ne bhi kaha.

“ye to me bhi soch raha hu yaar par samajh nahi aarha kaise batau bahot dar lag rha hai” Ankush ne kaha.

“but tujhe btna chhaiye………….. oh shit isko kya hogaya” Nidhi ne entry ki taraf dekhte huye kaha. Waha se rishi ne enter kiya bada ajib sa lag rha tha woh.

“kya hogaya Rishi r u ok na?” Nidhi ne pucha.

Rishi ne chair li woh baith gaya aur apne hath table pe rakhke apna face usne hathon pe tika diya.

“oye devdas hua kya batayega bhi” Ankush ne pucha.

“yaar woh ladka jise me date kr rha tha yaar woh mujhe sex ke liye bol rha tha roj roj maine roj xcuse banaya and aaj subah usko bata diya ke me itne jaldi physical relation ke bare me nahi soch sakta to woh gussa hogaya bolta hai ye sab nahi krna tha to mera time waste kyu kiya and bla bla…m so hurt yaar” Rishi bol hi raha tha ke Pratik ne use bich me kaat diya,

“ha aur ja uske pass marane apni… maine pehle hi bola tha usse dur reh samajh nahi aata na inhe ab dekh aise hi chahiye tujhe bhi nhi to line pe nahi aata tu”

“hey pratik yaar udas hai woh ab to aise na bol use” Nidhi ne kaha.

“nahi krne de use apni manmani fir aise hi log bola krenge woh kuch nahi bas me bolta hu to dikhta hai” Pratik ne gusse se kaha.

“pratik ab usne to pyaar ke liye chance liya tha ab tu usko sad nahi dekh sakta to use protect kar” Ankush ne Pratik ko chabi lagate huye kaha.

“ha woh actually me gussa hota hu bcz I care  for him dam it” Pratik ne kaha.

“Pratik ab to bol de yaar” Ankush ne kaha.

“ha  Rishi I care for u bcz yes I like u” Pratik ne blush karte huye kaha.

“owwww shooooo cute” Nidhi ne haste huye kaha.

“kamine tu pehle nhi bol sakta tha ye kha ma kha mera timewaste krwa diya us ladke ke piche gdha hai tu sachhi me kutta” Rishi ne kaha.

“dekha ye aisa hai dumbo isliye me kuch nahi bolta tha…. And ab thoda romantic reply bhi nahi krta u knw I hate u” Pratik ne gusse me kaha.

“owwww I love u too Pratik” Rishi ne smile karte huye kaha woh bahot khush hogaya tha bcz uska pyaar pura hogaya tha.

“haye kitna cute couple hai” Nidhi ne dono ka hath padka aur fir bari group hug ki…”

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Akshat ka clg khatm hogaya tha aur aaj woh Mumbai chhodke jane wala tha. Ankush use station chhodne gaya.

Saman train me chadhaya aur dono baith gaye train ko start hone me abhi time tha.

“jarha hu Mumbai chhodke ab pta nahi kab aane ka mauka milega. Delhi se hi MBA karunga and wahi job. Tujhe call karunga touch me rehna” Akshat Ankush ko bol rha tha. Ankush bahot udas tha woh chahta tha kuch bhi krke Akshat Mumbai me ruk jaye.

“achha hai will miss u alott” Ankush ki aankhe nam hogayi.

“tujhe kuch kehna hai?” Akshat ne pucha.

“nahi kuch nahi”

“ab to keh de jo itne salo se nahi keh paya” Akshat ke aise bolne se Ankush thoda shoked hogaya.

“kya?”

“yahi ki tu mujhe bahot like karta hai” Akshat ne kaha.

“woh to….” Ankush ko samajh nahi aarha tha woh kya bole.

“mujhe sab pata hai Ankush, tu roj sirf mujhe dekhne ke liye ground pe aata tha aur ullu ki tarah ghurta tha, me tere pass se gujru to tere expressions badal jate the aur jaise hi me waha se chala jau ek ajib si khushi tere chehre pe me hamesha notice krta tha. Jab tu pehli baar clg aaya tab ragging se tujhe bachana mera teri taraf badhaya pehla kadam tha par tu itna dumbo tha ke dar ke mare thanks kehne bhi nahi aaya isliye fir maine Nidhi ko tujhse milwaya par tu unsab dosto me itna busy hogaya ke firse mujhe bhul gaya isliye maine ek aur step badhaya and tere tak football practice ki info pohochayi. Teri fb id to maine kbki dekh rakhi thi. Fir tu roj mujhe dekhne aata to isliye fir usdin tujhe lift de di taki tu dosti ka hath badhaye… and thank god ke ustime tune mere plan ke mutabik frndship ke liye pucha. Fir tbse me tujhe jyada achhe se janne laga aur sach me tujhse pyaar hogaya mujhe” Akshat ne bataya.

“omg mtlb Nidhi ko sab pata tha fir bhi usne btaya nahi mujhe kamini use to dekh lunga me” Ankush ne haste huye kaha par abhi bhi woh shock me hi tha.

“oye usko kuch mat bol wahi mujhe tere sare updates deti thi and usne hi hame milwaya hai nahi to tu to itna dumbo hia na tujhse to dosti tk nhi hoti thi and mera seniority ka ego tha to me direct pehel bhi nahi kr sakta tha……. Aur tu kutte itni hint di bataya ke mujhe gf nhi hai sare dost kinare kr diye tere liye fir bhi tujhe nahi samjha koi itna gdha kaise hosakta hai tere propose krne ka wait krta to tu to kabhi nahi bolta” Akshat ne kaha.

Ankush ko abhi bhi ye sapne jaisa hi lag rha tha. woh Akshat ki baate sun rha tha and use link krke soch raha tha ke tabhi train ka horn baja. Ankush platform pe khada tha to Akshat train ki door pe. Jaise hi train chalne lagi Ankush ekdam se bol pada,

 “Akshat mat ja yaar abhi to mujhe mera pyaar mila hai kuch din mere sath bita……. I love u alott yaar”

Ankush ka finally I love u sunke Akshat train se utar gaya.

Ankush ab cloud 7 pe tha uske khushi ka to thikana hi nahi tha. Usne Akshat ka saman padka aur waha se nikalne laga.

“hey kaha jarha hai” Akshat ne piche se awaaz lagayi.

“koi sawaal nahi ab jaha me lejau wahi aana padega”

“chal yaar ab to tere marji se hi chalna padega” Akshat ne Ankush ka hath pakadte huye kaha.

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Ankush ne apne room ka door khola Akshat uske piche piche ander aaya aur usne door closed kar diya. Usne Ankush ko apni taraf khicha aur uske kamar pe hath rakhke kaha,

“kaisa lag raha hai?” Ankush ka dil teji se dhadak raha tha, dono ki saanse ekdusre se takra rahi thi.

Ankush ne apni bahe Akshat ke chest pe rakhke kaha, “aisa lag rha hai jaise mujhe dunia ki sari khushiya mil gayi ho…. Bas aise hi hamesha mere bahon me rehna”

“awww itna thanda sa propose…. Ab to sochke batana pdega” Akshat ne chidate huye kaha.

To ankush ne uske hath apne kamar se hata diye do kadam piche lete huye woh apne ghutno pe baith gaya,

“Jee ye chahe ye lamhe bas yahi pe ruk jaye,

Samne tum raho aur hum tumhe dekhte jaye,

Dil me hone lagi hia meethi meethi si hulchul,

Umar bhar raho jaise meri aakhon ka kajal,

Sath din raat rahe pyaar ki baat rahe,

Aur rahe kuch na baki….

Maine izhar kiya hai sun mere sathi….”

Akshat bhi ghutno pe baith gaya, “thoda sa hi pyaar hua hia…. Pura kar du….” Kehkar Akshat ne Ankush ko dhakka diya, ab ankush floor pe let gaya tha Akshat uske pass jake let gaya usne apna ek hath Ankush ke chest pe rakha aur uski aakhon me dekhne laga aur dheere dheere uske pass jane laga. Ankush ki dil ki tej hoti dhadkane woh mehsus kar rha tha… Ankush kuch kehne jarha tha ke Akshat ne uske hoth apne hotho me daba liye aur kiss karne laga. Ankush  apne dono hathon se Akshat ke balon ko sehlane laga…. Ha ye thi pyaar ki shuruat…

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Yaha Akshat- Ankush aur waha Rishi-Pratik…. Pyaar ful raha tha dono couples ke bich… ab inke group me ek aur naam jud gaya tha Akshat ka…. par yaha Nidhi akeli hone lagi thi.

“yaar mere ghrwale mujhe shadi ke liye force krne lage hai kehte hai abhi shuru krenge ladka dekhna to 1-2 saal to lag hi jayenge” aaj sab log apne usi permanent table pe baith ke baate kr rhe the.

“omg Nidhi to ab kya kregi tu?” Pratik ne pucha.

“yaar mujhe shadi nahi krni pata nahi kya kru soch rahi ho gharwalo ko bol du sab and yaha ek ladki ko me date bhi to kar rhi hu na uske sath kuch hojaye to humdono rahenge sath me”

“awww yaar ab to humsab ke ghar me hi shadi ki baate shuru hojayengi na” Akshat ne kaha tabhi Rishi and Pratik aagaye.

“Rishi tu mere se to baat hi mat kar samjha” Pratik ne kaha.

“are ab kya hogaya tumdono me” Nidhi ne pucha.

“ye ladka kal mere samne ek ladke ke sath flirt kar rha tha woh bhi mere hotel me huh” Pratik ne bola.

“nahi me flirt nahi majak kr rha tha bcz ye Pratik mere liye time hi nahi nikalta so bas use thoda insecure feel krwane ke liye hehehhee” Rishi ne haste huye kaha.

“woh mujhe kuch nahi pata bas ab mafi chahiye to kuch special krna pdega” Pratik ne kaha.

“special….ummmmmmmm………… Idea” bolke Rishi table se utha and food court ke centre me jake khada hogaya woh unke table se najdik hi tha.

“excuse me everyone… mujhe kuch kehna hai”

“omg ye kya kr rha hai awww mujhe sharm aarhi hai” Pratik ne muh chupate huye kaha.

“hehehhe tune hi chabi di hai na use ab tu hi bhugad” Ankush ne chidate huye kaha.

Rishi ne continue krte huye kaha,

“guys, me gay hu and mera partner aaj mujhse bahot gussa hai baat bhi nahi kr rha he wants me to do something special to maine socha ab isse jyada special kya hoga…..” usne Pratik ki taraf dekhke bolna shuru kiya aur waha baithe log ab use gaur se sunne lage,

“babu, me apni feelings express krne me thoda kachha hu par aaj kehna chahta hu ke abtk pyar mohabbat romance ye sare abtk mere liye sirf words the tumhare aane ke baad me inke mtlb samajh rha hu.. pyar kya hota hai ye me janta tha par pyaar karna tumne mujhe sikhaya, mohabbat sirf dard deti hai ye maine suna tha par is dard ko meetha tumne banaya… Romance filmo me maine dekha tha par aaj tumne meri life ek film jaisi bana di…. Tumne mujhe itna kuch diya shayd hi me iska kuch hissa tumhe lauta pau par aaj tumhe ek vaada karta hu ye pyar me kabhi kam nahi hone dunga… me ye nahi kehta ke mere sath tum hamesha khush hi rahoge par jab bhi udas hoge mujhe apne sath paoge… I love you Pratik… I love u soooo much……” Rishi ne Pratik ki taraf dekha to Pratik ki aankhe nam hogayi thi woh apne chair se uthke Rishi ke pass jane laga to sab logon ne taliya bajana shuru kar diya koi chilla rha tha koi gar ha tha us waqt mano pura romantic atmosphere hogaya tha waha..

“awwww so romantic… dekho gay hoke kitne romantic hai and tumne aajtk to mere liye kuch bhi nahi kiya aisa special huh”   ab waha baithe sab straight couples apne partner ka sar khane lage….ha woh inko dekhke jealous feel kar rhe the.

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“aagaye sahabjade jung ladhke” Rishi ghar aate hi uske dad ne taunt marte huye kaha and hamesha ki tarah uski mom kisi party me gayi hui thi.

“kya matlab” rishi ne pucha.

“Kya kya rangraliya mana ke aarhe ho inorbit mall se sab pata chal gaya mujhe… ye kya nonsense hai? Bas bahot hogaya aajke baad tum us ladke se nahi miloge ye sab band karo… tumhare is gande harkato se me meri ijjat kharab nhi hone de sakta samjha??? Aaj nhi balki abhi tum ye sab band karoge nahi to mujhe tumhari mom ko batana padega aur fir woh kya karegi soch lo…” dad ne gussa karte huye kaha.

“xcuse me? Maine aapse advice nahi mangi to plz aap mere life me interfare na kare aap mere dad nahi hai”

“ha me dad hu sautela hu par hu aur yaha wahi hoga jo me kahunga ye mera ghar hai…. Ye mat bhulo tumhe bachpan se maine pala hai ye khana pina aisho aaram mehenge kapde study ye sab meri paiso se horha hai warna raste pe bheek mang rhe hote upkar hai mera tujhpe…”

“upkar???? Meri mom se shadi ki hai aapne… jarurat to aapki bhi thi koi ehsaan nahi kiya… aur ye paise aisho aaram…… iske liye kimat chukai hai maine Mr so called dad… aapne yaha rakha mujhe taki aap mera fayda utha sake…. Ek baap kabhi apne bête ko sexually harass nahi karta kabhi unka fayda apni hawas mitane ke liye nahi karta…. Aapne kiya hai so apne aap ko baap kehne ka haq nahi hai aapko shayd ye sunke aapke dusre bête ko aapse nafrat hojaye…”

Rishi bolte bolte rone laga aur ab uske dad chup hogaye ekdam.  Rishi gusse gusse me waha se chala gaya ghar chhodke Pratik ke room pe. Ab dono eksath rehne lage.

“maine use kaha ke ye sahi nahi hai tumhari mom ko kitna hurt hoga to bolta hai waise hi kaha woh mere sath hai woh to apne life me mast hai aur mujhe apni life enjoy krni hai isliye me yaha nhi rehna chahta kehkar woh chala gaya ghar chhodke” Rishi ke dad ne uski mom ko bataya.

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“hey ye Akshat kaha hai aaj aaya nahi tere sath” Pratik ne Ankush ko pucha.

“are woh apne ghar gaya hai kuch dino ke liye jaldi aajayega par ye Nidhi kaha hai uska to no bhi nahi lag rha” Ankush ne puchaa.

“yaar sachhi me maine bhi usko kitna try kiya par nahi lag raha ghar pe lock hai jarur family ke sath picnic pe gayi hogi kamini aane do batata hu use” Rishi ne kaha.

Dekhte dekhte din gujarne lage jaha Rishi Pratik ka pyaar gehra hota gaya wahi Akshat ka contact ab kam hone laga. Pehle woh call karta dhire dhire uske call kam huye fir ms gaur fir ekdam se contact band hogaya. Yaha Ankush ka tention badhta gaya ke Akshat kaha hoga kya kr rha hoga woh phone kyu nhi utha raha kahi kuch galat to nahi honewala tha. Aur Nidhi ka bhi abtk kuch pata nahi chala tha.

Ekdin achanak Akshat ka call aaya, “oye kamine tu tha kaha abtk no call no msg nthng pata hai kitna dar gaya tha me tu Mumbai to aa fir dekh maar dalunga tujhe me samjha” Ankush excitement me bol rha tha.

“Ankush me Mumbai aagaya hu, milega abhi? Tere room ke passwale CCD me?” Akshat ne pucha.

Ankush fatafat ready hoke chala gaya.

“chal kya khayega bata jaldi, achha waise tu return kab aaya aur mere call kyu nhi uthaye ab uska badla to yahi hai aaj bill tu bharega and ab bol kuch tujhe itne dino baad dekhke me kitna khush horha hu aur tu dekh devdas banke baitha hai kya hua hai?” ankush ne pucha.

“ankush….. meri  15 din baad shadi hai” Akshat ne gardan niche krte huye kaha woh Ankush se aankhe nahi mila parha tha.

“hehhehehe ha bas bas ye pranks maine movies me bahot dekhe hai par me believe nahi krnewala samjha bachhu” Ankush ne kaha.

“Ankush… I am serious. Me shadi kr rha hu kal mujhe return jana hai… teri kasam” Akshat ki baat sunke Ankush ekdam se freeze hogaya. Excitement khushi sab eksath chali gayi uska dil joro se dhadakne laga uske muh se shabd nahi nikal rhe the. Sadma laga tha use.

“Ankush please mujhe galat mat samajhna me tujhe sab batana chahta hu mere pass sirf 1din hai aur me chahta hu me woh din tere sath bitau. Ek perfect day jiski memories leke jab me jaunga wapas to puri zindagi bita pau” kehke usne ankush ke hath pe hath rakh aur tabhi Ankush ne apna hath jhatak liya.

“yahi sab karna tha tujhe to ye sara drama ye sara natak kyu kiya pyaar and all ka”

“Ankush”

“nahi bas kuch nahi sunna mujhe log kehte hai na ke bisexual logon se pyaar nahi krna chahiye woh gays ko use krke chhod dete hai aur shadi ke time straight ban jate hai par maine unki nhi suni par ab lagta hai sun lena chahiye tha……….. I hate u Akshat me tujhe kabhi maaf nahi karunga iske liye…. I hate u” kehke Ankush gusse se wala se chala gaya aur yaha Akshat table pe baithke bas use jate dekh rha tha woh usko rokna chahta tha par chahkar bhi rok nahi paya.

Yaha CCD se bahar aake Ankush ka gussa aansuon me badal gaya woh wahi raste pe jor jor se rone laga.

“mere hathon ki lakeeron ne ye mujhse kaha hai,

Meri kismat me tera pyaar itna likha hai,

Bewafa tumko mana… bewafa hogaye tum,

Bich raste me lake mujhe daga de gaye tum,

Apni rahe hai juda….. me to tanha hi bhala…. Ja re ja o harjayee….

Thoda sa pyaar hua tha………….. kuch nahi baki………….”

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Ankush ab change hone laga tha choti choti baat pe chid jata. Akshat ki bewafai usse bardash nahi horhi thi use samajh nahi aarha tha woh gussa kispe nikale. Akshat bhi ab delhi chala gaya tha aur ab uski shadi thi.

“hello Ankush” Akshat ne Ankush ko call kiya.

“Akshat mujhe call krke disturb na kiya kr bye” Ankush ne gusse se kaha.

“Ankush plz ekbaar to meri baat sun le aaj meri shadi hai” Akshat ne kaha.

Shadi ka naam sunke Ankush bahot disturb hogaya. Jispe aajtk woh apna haq samajhta tha aajke baad uspe kisi aur ka haq hoga. Akshat usse dur jarha tha aur aaj ke baad to woh kabhi wapas bhi nahi aayega ye ehsas Ankush ko ander hi ander maar rha tha. Woh gussa jealousy se laal horha tha. Uske samne Akshat ki shadi uski suhagraat hi dikh rhi thi. 

Usne Akshat ka phone cut kr diya aur room se bahar chala gaya.

Use kisise apni baat share krni thi. Rishi-Pratik kahi bahar gaye the. Nidhi ka koi pata nahi tha.

Use kisiko hug krke bahot rona tha ander se bahot tut chuka tha. Aakhir usne sahara liya alcohol ka.

Woh usi gay party me chala gaya jaha sabne milke socha tha ke kabhi nahi jayenge.

Woh bar me baithke sharab pine laga aur nachte huye logon ko dekhne laga uski aakhon se pani aarha tha par nashe ki wajah se woh thoda relax feel kar rha tha. Usne itni sharab pi li ke ab usko hosh nahi raha aaspass kya horha hai woh kya kar rha hai.... use bas ek chij yaad thi……….”Akshat”

“Dil me kaate chubhoke usne badli hai raahe,

Bewafa ho gaya woh dil se uthti hai aahe,

Bikhre bikhre hai arman sare sapne hai tute,

Kiya jispe bharosa wahi dhaage hai tute,

Dard kaise ye sahu…………. Chup bhi kaise me rahu………. Ye nahi baat jarasi…

Maine to pyaar kiya tha tumne ki bewafaii…

Thoda sa pyaar hua tha kuch nhi baki……………….”

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Ankush ki aankh khuli, woh bed pe baitha, uska sir bahot bhari hogaya tha usne samne dekha to ye uski room nahi thi koi nayi jagah thi. Pehne huye kapde bhi uske nahi the ab woh dar gaya ke woh kaha aagaya hai. Tabhi samne se ek ladka aaya.

“tum uth gaye… ye lo nimbu pani sar bhari hogaya hoga na.”

“tum kon ho?” Ankush ne pucha.

“ha mera naam Aditya hai ye mera hi room hai woh kal raat ko tum bahot drunk the to….” Aditya ki baat Ankush ne bich me katte huye kaha,

“oh waah… me waha party me drunk tha hosh nahi tha tumhe laga achha mauka hai iska fayda uthate hai aur tum mujhe yaha leaaye aur fir pata nahi kya kya hua ke maine pehne huye kapde bhi mere nahi hai hai na”  Ankush ne uspe chillate huye kaha.

“what???”

“mere kapde kaha hai?”

“woh balcony me hai”

“ok”  Ankush ne kapde pehne aur woh waha se jane laga to uska kisi chij ko dhakka laga usne dekha to ek ladki ki pic thi frame me lagayi hui woh dekhke Ankush aur bhadak gaya.

“ohh ye kon hai teri gf? Waah mtlb tu bisexual hai… gf rakhta hai aur yaha ladkon ke sath… chii expected hi tha”  kehkar woh waha se nikal gaya.

“hey bhagwan ye kya ladka hai…. Itna gussa kis baat ka ke meri koi baat hi nahi suni usne” Aditya sochne laga.

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Ankush room pe jake fresh hua aur woh Pratik ke room pe chala gaya. Pratik kaam pe gaya tha Rishi hi tha ghar pe jaise hi woh room me enter hua usne usi ladke ko waha dekha.

“oh fuck ye ladka yaha kya kr rha hai” Ankush ne Rishi se pucha.

“are ye Aditya hai Pratik ka frnd hai Pune me rehta tha ab kuch dino se yaha shift hua hai” Rishi ne intro krwate huye kaha.

“ohh gr8 Pratik ka frnd hai…. Ye ladka mera picha krte krte yaha tk aagaya… Rishi jab ye yaha se chala jaye tb mujhe call krna me aajaunga mujhe tujhse baat krni hai” kehkar aur Aditya ke muh pe khunnas dikhake Ankush waha se chala gaya.

“yaar Rishi mera face dekh to kuch prblm hia kya” Aditya ne rishi ki taraf dekhke kaha.

“nahi to kyu”

“yaar ye ladka hamesha mujhe dekhke itna khunnas me kyu aajata hai mujhe samajh nahi aata.”

“are woh aisa hi hai thoda gussewala  u dnt worry jaldi thik hojayega” Rishi ne kaha.

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“mujhe ye red wala achha lag raha hai what say Rishi?” Ankush rishi aur Pratik shopping ke liye aaye the. Rishi use janbujhke shopping laya tha taki uska thoda man bhatak jaye.

“are bakwas hai ye dekh na blue wow kitna awsume hai” Aditya ne kaha.

“tu??? Tu yaha kya kar rha hai?   Pratik tune ise yaha kyu bulaya?”

“mujhe kisine nahi bulaya me bhi shopping krne aaya tha but coincidence dekh tumlog mujhe yaha mil gaye”

“look Aditya tum mera picha krna chhod do I m not interested in u” Ankush ne kaha.

“oh hello tumhe kisne kaha me tumme interested hu…  tum aur mere bf…. Chiii sochke hi dar lagne lagta hai me tumse dosti krne me bhi interested nahi hu samjhe”

“ohh gr8 to tum jao apne raste aur me jata hu apne raste… gud bye” bolke Ankush waha se jane laga to use waha koi pehchanwala dikha, usne gaur se dekha, ek ladki thi… ha ye to wahi ladki hai, Akshat ki so called gf.

“hey hi Ankush kaise ho? Long time no see ha” us ladki ne Ankush ko pehchana aur baat krne aagayi.

“ha bas life chal rhi hai tum batao kaisi ho?” ankush ne kaha.

“bas yaar thik hu job chal rha hai boring….. bydway hwz Akshat? Usse baat hoti hai kya? Mera to contact hi tut gaya bas last time tab baat hui thi jab uske dad ko heart attack aaya tha.”

“what? Heart attack??? Kab?”

Shayd aapz 6months back… tujhe nhi pta? Woh bahot serious the and shayd uske baad kuch shadi fix hogayi thi uski”

Us ladki ki baat sunke Ankush freezed hogaya aur ab uske dimag me khayal aane shuru hogaye,

“kahi ye reason to nhi tha uske shadi krne ka…. Kya woh sach me dhoka tha? Kya mujhe usse baat krni chahiye? Kaisa hoga woh? Kaha hoga woh?” ye sab uske dimag me chal rha tha.

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“tum nahi ho yaha pe, tera ehsas magar hai…

Dil ki deewar suni kya tujhe iski khabar hai,

Koi aahat hoti hai yunh lage  tum aaye ho,

Bhulkar sari baate khushiya laye ho,

Jab mera tuta bharam…. Teri parchhai thi gum… reh gayi hai tanhayee…

Yaad sau baar kiya hai tum nahi aayee…..

Thoda sa pyaar hua tha kuch nahi baki…………” 

 Ankush nashe ki halat me tha aur uske dimag me wahi baate chal rhi thi jo us ladki ne batayi thi. Woh dhokebaaz nahi hai to shayd woh apni biwi ko chhodke mere pass wapas aasakta hai ye hope ab Ankush ke dil me jal chuki thi. Woh inhi bato me tha ke uske samne koi aate huye dikha, usne dekha to woh Aditya tha… jaise hi Adi use dikha woh uske pas gaya aur usne Adi ko tight hug kr liya aur jor jor se rone laga…. Uska dard ab bahar nikalne laga tha aur use aise tutate huye dekh Adi shocked hogaya.

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Ankush ki nind khuli subah hogayi thi aur usne dekha to woh Rishi ke room pe tha par room me koi nahi tha uske kapde side me pade huye the aur un kapdo ke pass kisi aur ke bhi kapde pde the. Tabhi Adi room me aaya aur Adi ko dekhke Ankush firse laal pila hogaya.

“tu yaha? No doubt tere jaise log to aise situations dhundhte hi rehte hai chipakne ke liye. Teri himmat kaise hui mujhe hath lagane ki apne aap ko samajhta kya hai tu…”

“oye tu kya bol rha hai ye sab me to ….”

“ha rehne de achhe se samajhta hu aur bahot dekhe hai tere jaise ladke mithi mithi baate krenge aur fir bed me ghus jayenge aur fir tata bye bye sex seeker kahi ka…. Dikhata to aise hai apne aap ko jaise bda pyaar me believe krnewala suljha hua ladka hai par real baat to me janta hu pub me jata hai waha ladke dekhta hai aur unke nashe ka fayda uthata hai last time bhi tune mere sath ye krne ki koshish ki thi… jab ustime kuch hua nahi to piche piche bhagne laga par mind u me waisa ladka nhi hu tujhe mil jayenge sex ke liye hazaro ladke par koi tujhse pyaar nahi karega… tujhse pyaar krke kya marna hai use……”

“Ankush, pagal hogaya hai kya ye kya bol rha hai” Pratik ne use rokte huye kaha.

“are tujhe nahi pata isne kya kiya…ye sab bisexuals na….” Ankush bol rha tha ke Pratik ne firse uski baat kaat di,

“Ankush that’s it yaar abtk hum tujhe, tere gusse ko frustration ko jhelte the kyunki hame pata tha tu bad phase se gujar rha hai par ab nahi ab tera gussa logon ko hurt kar rha hai…. Tu samajhta kya hai apne aap ko sirf tujhe hi dukh hai puri dunia me, tu hi prblm se deal kr rha hai, tu akela devdas hai yaha, ek ladke ne tujhe dhoka diya to kya uski saza sabko dega tu… ha woh hai bi to kya hua sab ekjaise hote hai kya…. Bahar nikal insab se itna gussa itni nafrat thik nahi hai, tujhe kya lagta hai tere sath badi nainsafi hui hai tujhe kisiko bhi kuch bhi bolne ka right mil gaya… aajke baad tu Adi se baat nahi karega uske pass bhi nahi jayega kyunki tu uski frndship ke layak hi nhi hai”  Pratik gusse me bahot kuch bole jarha hai. Inki baate ke bich Adi waha se chala gaya.

“Pratik tu itna over react kyu kr rha hai” Ankush ne pucha.

“Ankush… kya hogaya hai tujhe? Tu pehle aisa to nahi tha fir ab kyu itna jhagdalu hogaya hai.. kuch nahi kiya adi ne tere sath. Kal raat ko tu nashe me dub chuka tha behosh hone laga tha to usne mujhe call kiya aur hum tujhe yaha le aaye raat hogayi thi jyada isliye woh yahi ruk gaya. Aur tu bina soche samjhe use itna bol gaya. Woh nahi hota to pda hota tu kisi nali me. Tujhe dard hai samajh sakta hu par Adi ne jo dekha hai life me utna tune nahi dekha to tu use kuch bol nahi sakta. Ha woh bi hai to kya Akshat ki sari saza uska gussa tu Adi pe nikalega kya.” Rishi bol rha tha.

“mtlb? Aisa kya hua hai uske sath” Ankush ne pucha.

“Adu pune me rehta tha aur ek ladke se bahot pyaar karta tha, dono bahot khush the ekdusre ke sath aur fir dono ne decide kiya ke woh live in me rhenge.. Adi ke bf ki job Mumbai me lag gayi aur isliye Adi ne apna ghar chhod diya aur woh Mumbai aagaya par ek accident me Adi ke bf ki death hogayi. Ab woh bilkul akela hai ghar wapas ja nhi sakta aur yaha akele rehne ka man nhi krta isliye holiday ke din timepass krne ghumta rehta hai aur aise me hi use tu mil gaya. Uska dard hum mese koi samajh nahi payega par woh kabhi kisiko apna dard nahi dikhata… hamesha hasta rehta hai majak krta rehta hai, par me janta hu woh ander se kitna tuta hua hai woh dikhata nahi kabhi par aaj teri baton ne use bahar se bhi tod diya…” Rishi bta rha tha.

“omg ye mere se kya hogaya…………. Pratik, kaha milega mujhe Adi… mujhe usse mafi mangni hai” Ankush ne Pratik ki taraf dekhte huye kaha.

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Pratik ne diye address pe Ankush gaya kisi Orphanage ka address tha. Ankush ander gaya to waha ek ped ke niche ground me Adi baitha hua tha aur bachhon ko khelte huye dekh rha tha. Ankush uske pass jake baith gaya. Adi ne Ankush ko dekha aur fir bachhon ko dekhne laga aur bola,

“dekh in bachhon ko kitne masoom hai na, kon keh sakta hai inke dekhke ke ye anath hai, ekdusre ke sath rehke bhi itne akele hai… hum jin maa baap bhai behen ke sath jhagadte hai pyaar krte hai unhe inhone kabhi dekha hi nahi hai... fir bhi dekh unhe chehre kitne khile huye hai… kya kisika gham inse bada hosakta hai? Fir hum kyu itne depression me rehte hai. Hame sambhalne ke liye to hamari family hai par inhe kon sambhalta hoga, inki galtiya kon batata hoga… akelapan kitna darawna hota hai na” Adi pehli baar emotional hogaya tha.

“I am sorry Adi maine kuch jyada hi react kr diya bina soche samjhe kuch jyada hi bol gaya… I am sorry yaar please” Ankush ne mafi mangte huye kaha par Adi ko uski jarurat nahi thi.

“its ok Ankush I can undersnt.. kisike achanak chale jane se kitna dard hota hai me samajh sakta hu… ‘piyush’ mera bf… ek anath ladka tha bahot bade bade sapne dekhnewala… uske akelepan ko maine najdik se dekha hai aur aaj woh mujhe hi akela krke chala gaya. Me dukh nahi manata kyunki use pasand nahi hai ye sab bas yaha aajata hu use mehsus krne in bachhon me… use chote bachhe bahot pasand the hum ek bachha adopt bhi krnewale the par………. Woh chala gaya…  achha ek baat bata tu bisexuals se bahot nafrat krta hai na?”

“ha par tujhe kaise pata?” Ankush ne pucha.

“bas teri baton se laga… par kyu? Akshat ki wajah se na?” Adi ne kaha.

“ha”

“nahi ye lagat hai kisi ek ke galti ki saza to sabko nhi de sakta tere sath usne dhoka kiya iska ye mtlb nhi hai ke sab waise hi hai………… bydway me bhi bisexual hu kya tujhe me bhi galat lagta hu? Kya me bhi waisa hu shadi honetk mje aur fir ladki…. Nahi… maine mere bf ke liye sabkuch chhod diya tha ye to aajkal ke gays bhi nhi krte fir maine to kisiko kuch nahi kaha fir tujhe bhi nahi kehna chahiye….  Waise break up hua kyu?”

 “woh mujhe nahi pata… bas maine usse contact hi tod diya… gusse ko nafrat me badal diya taki me use bhul pau aur move on kr pau” Ankush ne bataya.

“yahi to galti ki tune aur shayd isi wajah se tu itna gussa krta hai tune sabkuch apne ander chupa rakha hai. Aise rishte adhure rakhega to woh kabhi khatm nahi honge aur hurt tujhe hi hoga better ye hai ke tu usse ekbaar baat kr le sari baate clear kr le aur fir rishta tod de fir shayd teri nafrat kam hojaye aur tu pehle jaisa ban jaye…. Tujhe ekbaar to usse baat krni hi padegi…. Ekdam se toda hua rishta kabhi khatm nhi hota aur hum usse kabhi bahar nahi nikal pate” Adi ki baate Ankush ko sahi lag rhi thi.

“baat to sahi hai to ab me kya karu” Ankush ne pucha.

“ekbaar mil usse baat kar dhoka dene ka reason puch aur fir ye rishta hamesha ke liye khatm kr de… abhi call kar use” Adi ne kaha.

“hi Akshat…. Me Ankush… mujhe tujhse ekbaar milna hai Mumbai aayega?” ………………………

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“ha tune sahi suna, dad ko attack aaya tha ICU me admit the tabhi unhone mujhse vaada liya tha ke me shadi karu… attack bhi unhe meri wajah se hi aaya tha kyunki maine apne bare me unhe bta diya tha… uswaqt mujhe nahi samajh aarha tha ke me kya karu par fir socha meri life dad ki life se jyada menhengi nhi hosakti… uswaqt me na bolta to pata nhi kya hojata… mujhe laga tha shayd tu samjhega par tune to kuch suna hi nahi…. Bas life ne ek alag turn le liya papa ne ek promise me mujhse meri zindagi chin li aur maine bhi haste haste apni lash bicha di……… kya tum mujhse abhi bhi nafrat karte ho? Par karni bhi chahiye maine dhoka diya tujhe… dil toda hai tera… life spoil ki hai teri… aur isbaat ke liye me apne aap ko kabhi maaf nahi kar paunga” Akshat bol rha tha.

“jab mujhe laga ke tune mujhe dhoka diya hai tbse maine tujhse bahot jyada nafrat ki hai pyaar se bharosa uth gaya mera, apnea p ko change kr diya maine, kosta tha hamesha apne aap ko ki maine tujhse pyaar kyu kiya par aaj mujhe tujhpe proud feel horha hai ke mere pyaar ne apne mom dad ke zindagi ke khatir apne aap ko kurban kr diya… woh hara nahi hai usne dilo ko jeeta haii…….  Meri ek baat manega” Ankush ne pucha.

“kya?”

“apni life achhe se khushi se bita… apne partner ko woh sari khushi dena jo woh deserve krti hai… use kisi chij ki kami mat padne dena…. Warna woh bolegi Ankush ne to apne bf ko kuch sikhaya hi nahi bas meri image kharab hojayegi… bas tabhi me tujhe maaf karunga”  kehkar dono smile karne lage. Ye kehna Ankush ke liye kitna hard tha ye bas wahi samajh pa rha tha par woh nahi chahta tha ke insab me uski biwi ki life kharab ho. Bol to woh raha tha par fir bhi uske dil me abhi bhi chances the ke Akshat uski wife ko chhodke uske pass wapas aaye.

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Ab yaha Pratik, Rishi, Ankush ke group me ek aur member add hogaya tha Adi. Ankush aur Adi ab achhe dost ban gaye the par abtk unke jhagde khatm nahi huye the dono choti choti baato pe jhagadte gussa krte aur firse thik hojate.

Apne rishte ko break dene ke baad ab Ankush thoda satisfied aur shant hogaya tha ab uski chidchid khatm hogayi thi.

“are woh mera dost hai na Deepak, aaj usne mujhe bahot cute way me propose kiya u knw it was different mujhe bahot achha laga” Adi Rishi ke room pe baithke baate kr rha tha.

“kya? Propose? And fir tune kya kaha use?” ankush ne pucha.

“kuch nahi maine to waise mana kr diya but woh abhi bhi mera closed friend hai” Adi ne bataya.

“closed frnd? Mtlb kitna closed?” Ankush uski frndship status janne me kuch jyada hi interest dikha rha tha.

“mtlb ke jaise tumlog ho waise hi”

“waah mtlb ab hum sab jaise hogaye common aur hum soch rhe the hum special frnd hai” Ankush ne chidte huye kaha.

“are aisa kab kaha maine…. I mean cute hai sweet hai woh but mana kr diya na maine ”

“nhi Ha keh de na  to fir yaha kyu aata hai ja na usi closed frnd ke pass jo cute bhi hai”

“Ankush tu aise gussa kyu horha hai yaar tu to mera best buddy hai..”

“ha rehne de dialog na suna mujhe khair mujhe koi baat hi nahi krni tujhse samjha”

Adi jaanbujhke Ankush ko aise hi gussa dila deta hai aur uske maje lete rehta hai.

“chalo ab mujhe kaam hai jana hai bye guys” kehkar Adi waha se nikalne laga.

“ha to roka kisne hai ja nab hag yaha se wapas mat aana ab plz” Ankush ne kaha.

“hahahaha ab to jarur aaunga kutte” kehkr adi chala gaya.

“yaar tu usse itna jhagadta kyu rehta hai Ankush” Pratik ne pucha.

“ha ye pyar ki pehli sidhi hai na Prats isliye hum bhi to aise hi ladte the yaad hai na” Rishi ne pratik ko kaha.

“pyaar no ways… I hate him really…….. I hate him…” Ankush ne kaha.

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Adi apne kaam se jarha tha raste pe koi tha bhi nahi bas gine chune kuch log chal rhe the to kisine Adi ko dhakka mara aura age chalne laga,

“oye dikhta nahi kya khali raste pe bhi dhakka dete ho” Adi ne uski taraf dekhke kaha to usne piche mud ke dekha. Ek hijda tha jo rote rote jarha tha usne salwar kamij pehni thi aur bahot udas lag rha tha.

“sorry sir” us hijde ne politely Adi ko kaha aur mud ke jane laga.

“hey wait ek preity woman ki aakhon me pani? Kyu?” Adi ne usse pucha.

Usne kuch socha aur bola, “suno kya tum mere sath thoda time bitaoge? Dt worry me tumhe paise dungi… plz me bahot lonely feel kar rhi hu”

“are ha kyu nahi and paiso ki jarurat nahi hai” Adi ne kaha aur dono ek jagah jake baith gaye.

“mera naam Shoma hai… Hijda hu… par yaar sach batao kya isme meri koi galti hai? Jis bhagwan ne aap sabko banaya hai unhone hi hame bhi banaya hai fir humne itna ganda vyavahar kyu hota hai… raste se jao to log haste hai ajib najar se dekhte hai ‘chakka..chakka” chidate hai bahot ganda lagta hai… hamara bhi man krta hai baki logon ki taraf normal life jiye par yaha to paida hote hi gharwale chhod dete hai fir padhai bhi nhi kr sakte job bhi nhi isliye hamare pass ek hi option rehta hai bheekh mangne ka aur usme bhi sab bolte hai ye chakke to bas bheekh hi mangte hai par aap logon ne hame kabhi mauka hi to nahi diya kuch alag krne ka…

Ab waqt aagaya hai ye sochne ka ke hum hijde bhi insan hai koi ajuba nahi… history utha ke dekh lo hum kinnaro ne mehnat majduri krke naam kamaya hai par ab har jagah bas atyachar hai… koi hamare bare me nahi sochta ke hame bhi shiksha di jaye samaj me ijjat di jaye naam diya jaye adhikar diya jaye. Jo dekho woh hasta hai bolta hia hijda hai bhikh mang bas woh bhul gaye hai hamare sine me bhi dil hai hame bhi dard hota ha..i”   Shoma bol rhi thi aur uski aakhon se continuosly aansu aarhe the ye dekhke Adi ko samajh nahi aarha tha ke woh kaise use chup karaye fir usne kaha,

“Shoma tumhe ek kahani sunau?”

“kahani?”

“ha pata hai bahot saalo pehle jab bhagwan insan ko bana rhe the tab unhe ek doubt aaya ke ye sab insan to ekjaise dikhte hai fir mere special insano ko log kaise jan payenge isliye unhone kuch logon ko alag banaya aur ab ye baki straight log tumhe dekhke isliye jalte hai kyunki tum bhagwan ke special insan ho aur woh bas ordinary isliye woh tumhe pasand nahi krte aur isiliye bhagwan ne tumhe ek aur vardan diya hai ke tumhari kahi baat sach hojati hai… to dekho problem tumme nahi hai unsab me hai jo tumhe buri najar se dekhte hai.”

“ye jhuthi kahani hai na” Shoma ne pucha.

“ummm… sach kahu to ha me jhuthi kahani hai”

“fir bhi mujhe achhi lagi… mujhe achha lag rha hai ab maine tumse baate share ki”

“ur always welcome dear” Adi ne smile karte huye kaha.

“chalo ab me chalti hu aur ye mera mobile no le lo jab bhi tumhe jarurat padegi ye shoma tumhare liye apni jaan bhi de degi kyunki tum ab mere dost ho aur hijde jaan pe khelke dosti nibhate hai”

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Sunday ka din tha ab sab Ankush ke room pe ikhattha huye the. Sabki baate chal rhi thi tabhi Rishi ka phone baja.

“Hello???”

“H..hh…hello Rishi?”

“omg Is that Nidhi?”

“ha rishi”

“nidhi kaha hai tu itne dino se kitna contact krne ki koshish ki thi tujhe aur ghar bhi lock hai hame na batake kaha chali gayi thi tu” Rishi sawalo pe sawal kiye jarha tha.

“rishi me sab baad me bataungi pehle please I need ur help… Alibaugh ke pas revdanda hai waha plz kal raat 8 bje aajana mujhe lene me pohoch jaungi plz aajana its urgent aur ha is no pe call mat karna kuch bhi hojaye tujhe meri kasam hai”

“ha nidhi par hua kya hai tu itna kaap kyu rhi hai aur ye kiska no hai tu abhi hai kaha?” rishi puchte puchte hi phone cut gaya.

“ye nidhi kon hai?” Adi ne pucha.

“hamare group ka ek member… hamari best frnd… par kuch din pehle ekdam se gayab hogayi thi” Pratik ne bataya.

“par ye sab kya hai? Usne waha kyu bulaya? Woh thik to hai na? kuch hua to nahi hoga?” Ankush ne pucha.

“yaar mujhe bahot dar lag rha hai woh bahot dar dar ke bol rhi thi bahot ghabraye huye the and muh se awaz bhi nahi nikal rhi thi pta nahi kya hua hai…. Kal jana padega revdanda.” Rishi ne kaha.

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Rishi nidhi ke lear aagaya, uski halat bahot kharab thi. Ro ro kar aankhe suj gayi thi body pe zakhm the use dekhke Pratik aur Ankush ghabra gaye.

“Nidhi tu ja bed pe jake soja aaram kar” Rishi ne use ander wale room me sula diya aur woh bahar aagaya.

“Rishi kya hua?” Pratik ne pucha.

“babu bahot bura hua hai m totally blank ke ab aage kya kare” Rishi ne kaha.

“par hua kya hai jaldi bata na” Ankush ne pucha.

“Nidhi ke ghar uski shadi ki baat chal rhi thi to usne ghar pe bata diya ke woh lesbian hai to uske gharwale use sadhu ke pass legaye unhe laga ye puja path se thik hojayega aur un sadhuo ne 1week tak Nidhi ka rape kiya gharwalo ki marji se ye kehkr ke isse aapki beti thik hojayegi” Rishi ne bataya.

“what the hell yaar ye to……… mere pass to words hi nahi hai” Pratik shocked hogaya tha ye sunke.

“Nidhi…. Tu thik hai na? dekh dar mat ham sab tumhare sath hai ab kuch bura nahi hoga sab achha hi hoga hum fight karenge” Ankush Nidhi ke pass gaya aur use dilasa dene laga.

“fight? Kiske sath aur kyu Ankush… unhe to koi fark nahi pada ke unki beti dard me hai ab unke khilaf ladke me jit bhi jau to harungi to me hi” Nidhi to puri tarah tut chuki thi.

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“omg itna sab hogaya ye kitna shocking hai sunne ke liye” Ankush ne Adi ko sab bata diya.

“mujhe samajh nahi aata ye ladkiyon ko accept krna itna mushkil kyu hota hai” Ankush ne kaha.

“ha dekh na koi love marriage kr le to ladke ko accept kr lete hai par ladkiyon ko nhi, ghar pe kuch galat hojaye ladkiyo pe dosh…. Unhe koi bura kahe to ladkiyo ka fault aur koi achha kahe to ladki spoil hogayi hai….. kitni ajib society hai hamari” Ankush bol rha tha tabhi Adi ne kaha,

“ha yaar par mujhe to ladkiya bahot achhi lagti hai aur me chahta hu meri bhi ek beti ho”

“oh really how sweet” Ankush ne reply kiya.

“ha yaar aur me uska naam Princess rakhunga…. Use sari freedom dunga use jo krna hai woh kare bahot ladli hogi meri Princess”

“oye sari freedom kyu… spoil hojayegi woh… nahi ghar ke kisi ek ka dar to hona hi chahiye tabhi bachhe line me rehte hai warna to bigad jate hai” Ankush ne kaha.

“koi nahi meri beti hai uska jo man hoga woh karegi”

“ha to badi hojane ke baad aise bigad jayegi na ke fir smoking drinking short skirts parties ye sab shuru hojayega uska”

“ha to uska man hoga to woh pehnegi skirts usme kya”

“nahi kam kapde pehno to ladke ghurenge use”

“aankhe na fod du unki”

“kis kis ki aankhe fodega tu aur fir woh boyfrnd leke aagayi to kya krega”

“to kya muh tod dunga us ladke ka”

“ha ha bada ideal dad hai na tu……. Nahi aisa kuch nahi hoga tu nahi bolega to me use restrictions lagaunga ye sab nhi chalega jyada ka pyaar achha nahi hota.”

“ha ha tu to bas sab pe chillaya hi kar pata nahi mera kya hoga”

“oye hoye dhang se rahega to kuch nahi hoga warna tujhe bhi pitunga aur teri beti ko bhi”

“ha kabhi pyaar se baat na kariyo tu mujhse bas pitai hi krna hai na”

“ha to pyar ke time pyar aur jyada itraya to maar”

“ye achha tarika hai pyaar jatane ka”

“gusse bhi to pyaar ki nishani hota hai na”

“achha?????????” Adi ne Ankush ki aakhon me dekhke kaha.

Ab pura sannata cha gaya tha aur dono ekdusre ko dekh rhe the.

“woh to me teri Princess ki baat kr rha tha…. Ummmm….”   Ankush clear krna chahta tha par uske pas koi words nahi the.

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“kya? Rape? Is ladki ka aur woh bhi lesbian hai isliye”

“ha sir ji” Rishi ne kaha. Sablog police station aaye the FIR likhane.

“me tumlogon ko achhe se janta hu late night parties krte ho daru pike aur hojata hai raat ko sabkuch aur fir subah hosh aata hai to akal thikane aati hai aur fir bhagte ho rape hogaya rape hogaya… chalo jao yaha se” Police ne kaha.

“are ye aap kya keh rhe hai? Sach me rape hua hai aap FIR to likhiye”

“are chalo bhago yaha se warna homosexuality ke basis pe ander daal dunga sabko. Hame yahi kaam hai kya tum hijdo ke piche bhage…. Jao chalo nikalo” Police ne unko bahar nikal diya.

Nidhi apne dosto ko lekar police station gayi thi ye baat un rapist ko pata chal gayi. Yaha Police FIR likhne ke liye ready nahi thi aur waha woh log ab inko pressurized krne lage the.

Nidhi ab ghabra gayi thi par Rishi Pratik Ankush use sambhal rhe the.

“yaar agar hum chahte hai ke hamari case strong ho to hame support chahiye taki police jhuk jaye strong support chahiye like media ya apne community ka support” Ankush sabko bata tha.

“guys me kisiko janta hu jo hamari isme help kr sakta hai” Adi ne kaha.

“kon?” Ankush ne pucha.

“wait me call krta hu”

“hello Shoma?”

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Dusre din Shoma apne 15-20 saheliyo ke sath Police station aagayi.

“kya re sir ji FIR kyu nahi likh rha tu? Ab agar nahi likhega to dekh yahi hum sari sakhiya kapde utar ke nachengi fir jo teri publicity hogi na bas har jagah tu hi tu dikhega.fir apne sahab ko dete rehna reason”

“chalo re saheliyo utharo sari”

“are ruko ruko me FIR likh rha hu” kehkr police ne FIR likhna shuru kr diya.

“thank u so much Shoma tum nahi janti aaj tumne hamari kitni help ki hai” Adi ne kaha.

“are chal re hero tere liye to jaan bhi de dungi ye kya chij hai” Shoma ne kaha.

“ahm ahm Adi tere ashiqon ke kya kehne” Ankush ne Adi ko chidate huye kaha.

“are chal kamine” Adi ne smile krte huye kaha.

Kab kaha kon kaise jarurat ke waqt kaam aajaye kuch keh nahi sakte isliye hamesha sabki help krte rehna chahiye.

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“hey Rishi gud news hai pata hai Didi ki shadi fix hogayi hai” Pratik haste huye ghar aaya.

“oh really wow great news” Rishi sunte hi khush hogaya.

“sun na chalega ghar didi se milne?”

“are puchne ki baat hai kya pakka challenge…. Aur isi khushi me aaj me puranpoli banata hu”

“aati hai na tujhe? Kuch ajib to nahi banayega na?” Pratik ne chidate huye kaha.

Thodi der me Adi aur Ankush aagaye.

“hey wow aaj to alu ke parothe dikh rhe hai khane me” Adi ne dekhke kaha.

“oye kamine alu ke parothe kis angle se dikh rhe hai tujhe ye puranpoli hai” Rishi ne gusse se kaha.

Ye sunke Nidhi jor jor se hasne lagi. Aaj pehli baar itne dino baad Nidhi ko sabne haste huye dekha tha.

“Chalo hato Rishi babu me banati hu” kehkr Nidhi banane ke liye chali gayi.

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“didi aapne ekbar call bhi nahi kiya itni khushi ki baat thi” Pratik ne didi se kaha.

“ha achhe din me teri yaad krke apshagun krna hai kya?” Maa ne kaha.

“maa aap aise kyu keh rahi ho” Pratik ne kaha.

“tu sachme hamare bare me sochta to is ladke ko leke yaha nahi aata pata nahi hamare pith piche kaha kaha muh marta hoga…. Nikal ja abhi ke abhi warna tere papa aagaye to dono ko dhake mar ke nikal denge ghar se” Maa ne kaha.

“Didi have a happy married life… bahot khush rehna life me ke kabhi kisiki  jarurat hi na pade” Pratik ne didi ko kaha aur woh dono waha se nikal gaye.

“kuch nahi Pratik sab thik hojayega ye gussa hai jyada din tk nahi rahega” Rishi ne Pratik ki gili aankhe pochte huye kaha.

“nahi Rishi ab aisa lagta hai maine bahot badi galti paap kr diya jo bata diya ghar pe… me mar bhi jaunga to inhe koi fark nhi pdega…… gay hona sach me itna bada gunaah hai kya ke woh 22saal ke relation ko khatm kr dega.”

“Pratik ab iska jawab to mere pass bhi nahi hai…” Rishi ne kaha.

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FIR likhne ki wajah se ab woh rapist aur Nidhi ke dad bhi arrest hogaye.

“meri ladki characterless hai uska in 3 ladkon ke sath chakkar chal rha hai aur jab hame ye pata chala to ab ye ulta humpe aarop laga rhi hai…. Pata nahi kitne ladko ke sath gulcharre udati hai ektime me aur dekh lo abhi bhi unhi ladkon ke sath reh rahi hai”

Nidhe ke dad ne police station me kaha. Ye sunke Nidhi ab puri tarah se tut chuki thi woh room pe aayi aur rone lagi…

“Rishi ab mujhe kuch nhi krna kuch nhi kehna me ub chuki hu ab is life se mujhe marna hai plz me mar jana chahti hu maine pehle hi kaha tha mujhe koi insaf nahi chahiye ye kaise keh diya unhone” Nidhi bahot ro rahi thi jitna pain use rape ki wajah se nahi hua tha usse jyada aaj horha tha.

“nahi Nidhi jin logon ne tumhare sath bura kiya hai unse haza to hum deke hi rahenge fir chahe kuch bhi ho aur agar ab tum piche hatogi to sablog tumhe hi galat samjhenge sir uthake jine ka haq nhi khona chahiye Nidhi aur tum roti kyu ho hum sab hai na tumhare sath dekh Me hu Pratik hai Ankush hai” Rishi use samjha rha tha.

Kaise waise samjha samjha ke Nidhi sogayi par yaha sab bahot tention me the ke ab hoga kya.

“yaar kuch na kuch to krna pdega case ko strong banane ke liye…. Hame koi witness chahiye par kon” Ankush soch rha tha.

“hey guys ek insaan hai jo shayd hamari help kr sakta hai agar usme thodi insaniyat bachi ho to” Pratik ne kaha.

“kon?”

“Nidhi ki mom…. Unhe to sab pata hai aur Nidhi unki beti hai agar woh witness ban jaye to hamara case bahot strong ban sakta hai.” Pratik ne kaha.

Waha sablog jamanat pe chhut gaye evidence na hone ki wajah se.

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Ankush, Rishi aur Pratik ab Nidhi ke ghar aagaye unki mom se baat krne.

“aunty aap ekbar bhul jaiye ke woh lesbian hai bas itna sochiye woh aapki beti hai aur ek bahar ka aadmi aake aapka fayda uthake aapke beti ke sath itni gandi harkat krta hai kya fir bhi aap unhe support karengi?”

“dekho mujhe ye sab nahi sunna tum log jao yaha se Nidhi tumhare sath rehke hi aisi hogayi hai insab ki jad tumlog hi ho…. Chale jao warna uske papa aagaye to fir pta chalega mujhe behlane ka kya fayda hota hai tumhe” Nidhi ki mom ne kaha.

“aunty thik hai hum chale jayenge bas bura is baat ka lag rha hai kea apse ye ummid nahi thi. Ek maa kya hoti hai shayd aapko pata hi nahi. Jab ek ladki ko bahar prblm hoti hai to woh ghar ki taraf bhagti hai par jab gharwale hi aise ho to woh kaha jayegi…. Par koi baat nahi Maa ne bhale hi muh fer liya ho par uske dost abhi bhi hai uske liye…. Farz kijiye agar aapke sath ye sab hua hota aur aapki Maa ne aisa kiya hota to aapko kaisa lagta? Woh roj ek nayi maut mar rhi hai plz use ekbar aake apne hath se mar dalo taki woh dard khatm hojaye aur aapko jit ki khushi mil jaye”  rishi ne kaha aur sab waha se jane lage tabhi Nidhi ke papa waha aagaye.

“ye log yaha kyu aaye the?”

“kuch nahi mujhe manane aaye the ki me unki side se gawahi du”

“kya? Ab to pani sar se upar jarha hai kuch karna pdega”

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Yaha Ankush Adi se milne uske room pe gaya to usne dekha Adi shirtless hoke bed pe leta hua tha aur Dipak uski pith ki malish kr rha tha…

“oh sorry maine tumlogon ko disturb kr diya” Ankush ne gusse se kaha. Ye sab dekhke woh bahot gusse me aagaya tha.

“are Ankush koi disturb nahi kiya tune aaja woh meri pith me bahot dard horha hai to Dipak daba de rha tha.” Adi tshirt pehente huye bola.

“ha maine kaha kuch bola kro jo krna hai…. Me jarha hu mujhe kaam hai” Ankush ne uthte huye kaha.

“hey bhagwan is ladke ko meri har baat se itni chid kyu hojati hai ruk me use dekhke aata hu” Adi ne Dipak ko bola aur woh room se bahar aagaya Ankush se baat krne.

“ab kya hogaya tujhe?”

“kya hogaya? Tu pagal hai? Woh wahi hai na jisne tujhe propose kiya tha? Fir tu uske samne shirtless kaise hosakta hai…. Huh thodi sib hi akal nahi hai…”

“are it was just backpain yaar bahot horha tha mujhe and Deepak waisa ladka nahi hai he is very nice by heart”

“ohh to ja na usse hi baat kr waise bhi mujhe kuch kaam urgent kaam hai me jarha hu”

“oh no kidding r u jealous?”

“kon me? No ways bcz u knw I hate u specially tere jaise logon ko”

“what do u mean by mere jaise?”

“means tere jaise seeker… woh Deepak achha hoga but dnt knw abt u”

“oh come on……. Bhad me ja tu bye” kehkr Adi waha se chala gaya room me.

Ankush thoda aage gaya to Adi ka call aagaya.

“hmm pta tha ab sorry bolne ke liye call kiya hoga………. Ha Hello” Ankush ne phone uthaya.

“Ankush……. Rishi ke room me aag lag gayi hai……”

“what?????????????”

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Adi and Ankush room ke pass pohoch gaye. Nidhi bahar se chilla rhi thi and tabhi Rishi room se bahar nikla.

Pure building ko aag lag gayi thi. reason pata nahi chala tha kuch logon ne milke Rishi ko bahar nikala tha use jyada kuch hua nahi bas kuch jagah kharoch aayi thi aur saans ful gayi thi. Use ambulance me dala to Ankush adi uske pass gaye….

“Ankush… Ankush…. Pratik ko call kar uska phone nahi lag rha tha kabse…. Jaldi plz….” Rishi ne Ankush ka hath pakda tha woh chhut gaya…. Rishi ko ambulance hospital legayi.

“hello… hello…. Pratik awaz aarhi hai kya?” Adi ne Pratik ko call lagaya.

“hello Adi…… kya hua? Hello…………..” aur ekdam se phone cut gaya.

Thodi der baad Pratik ka call aaya Adi ne uthaya.

“ha hello Pratik kaha hai tu?”

“hello me Amar bol rha hu ye Pratik ka mobile hai kya? Aur aap unke kon?” ye ajib se awaz sunke Adi ghabra gaya.

“ji ye mera dost hai kya hua aapke pass uska phone kaise?”

“ji actually aapke dost ka accident hogaya hai use hum city hospital me lejarhe hai aap yaha aajaiyye aur unki family ko bhi inform kr dijiye”

Adi ne Nidhi ko Rishi ke pass hospital me bhej diya aur woh Ankush ke sath city hospital chala gaya. Waha jake pata chala ke Pratik ki on the spot hi death hogayi thi.

“Adi…. Nhi ye kaise hosakta hai… ye nahi hosakta… ye pratik nhi hai na…. Adi bol na kuch plz… ye Pratik nhi hai na……. ab hum Rishi ko kya batayenge Adi……………..” Ankush Pratik ki dead body dekhke rone laga tha aur Adi use sambhal rha tha. Adi bhi tut chuka tha par woh ro nahi raha tha use Ankush ko sambhalna tha aur Rishi ko bhi……..

“Ankush sambhal apne aapko tu hi aise karega to Rishi ko kon sambhalega” Adi Ankush ko chup kara raha tha.

Rishi ko undono ne kuch nahi bataya woh use hospital leaaye aur Pratik ki deadbody dikha di use dekhke Rishi roya nahi… uske dil ko bahot bada sadma laga tha. Sab chahte the woh roye bahot roye apna dard bahar nikale par Rishi bas Pratik ke chehre ko dekhe jarha tha bina palak jhalkaye. Uske muh se word nhi nikal rhe the chup hogaya tha woh bilkul mano uski zindagi ruk gayi thi.ek ek krke woh sare pal uski aakhon ke samne aarhe the jo usne Pratik ke sath bitaye the.  Ankush use rone ke liye provoke kr rha tha par use koi fark nhi pd rha tha.

“Rishi…. Pratik mar chuka hai dekh Rishi teri life khatm hogayi hai ab to role” Ankush bole jarha tha. Tabhi Adi kin ajar ek ladke pe padi woh inhe dekhe jarha tha. Jaise hi Adi ne use notice kiya woh chup gaya par Adi ne uske jyada dhyan nahi diya.

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“ye sab kya horha hai hamare sath…. Kyu horha hai…. Ek ek krke sab dost chute jarhe hai… kahi ye hamare gay hone ki saza to nahi derha bhagwan hame…” Ankush bahot depressed hoke baat kr rha tha.

Adi Rishi Ankush aur Nidhi firse wahi mall me table pe baithke baate kr rhe the so that Rishi ko purani baate yaad aaye aur woh pehle ki tarah normal hojaye. Bato bato me Adi kin ajar fir us ladke pe padi woh unhe kai dino se follow kr rha tha aur aaj ye coincidence nhi ho sakta ye sochke Adi utha waha se aur uske pass chala gaya

“hey tum kon ho aur hame itne dino se follow kyu kr rhe ho?” Adi ne pucha.

“mera naam samar hai Pratik mujhe janta tha aur shayd ye log bhi mujhe jante hai mujhe aap sab se kuch baat krni hai par samajh nahi aarha kaise kro” us ladke ne kaha.

“chalo mere sath waha baitho aur jo kehna hai kaho.” Adi use sabke pas legaya.

“tum??? Tum wahi ho na Pratik ki didi ke boyfrnd jo sabko dhoka de rhe the? What the hell tum yaha kya kr rhe ho? Get lost” Ankush ne kaha.

“plz meri ek baar baat sun lo mujhe Pratik ke accident ke bare me kuch batana hai” Samar ne kaha.

“accident ke bare me? Kya kehna hai?” Nidhi ne pucha.

“Pratik ka accident nahi hua tha use 4 logon ne milke mar dala aur fir car se kuchal diya accident dikhane ke liye”

“kya???????? Par tumhe ye sab kaise pata?” Adi ne pucha.

“actually Pratik apne ghar gaya tha tab uski mom ne use nikal diya ye baat mujhe pata chl gayi thi isliye me Pratik se baat krna chah rha tha… baat kya me use chidane ke liye milna chahta tha and us din sham ko woh jab ofc se wapas aarha tha to maine socha use akele me baat krunga jaha bheed na ho aisi jagah par wahi 4log aagaye car me baithke aur me chup gaya aur unhone pehle use bahot mara aur fir car se uda diya”

Ye sunte hi Rishi ki aakhon me pani aagaya… gussa nafrat uski aakhon me dikh rhi thi.

“kon the woh log? Tum jante ho unhe?” Ankush ne Samar se pucha.

“nhi me nahi janta”

“kahi woh Nidhi ke …..   bcz usi din Rishi ke ghar ko aag lagi aur waha Pratik ke sath ye sab… ek hi time pe woh coincidence  nahi hosakta jarur unhone case khatm krne ke liye kiya hoga. Par unhone to Nidhi ko bhi marna chahiye par Nidhi to….. hey Nidhi jab ghar ko aag lagi tab tum kaha thi?” Adi ne doubt nikala.

“tab actually me bahar nikli thi me soch rhi thi ye sab meri wajah se horha hai isliye me insab se dur chali jau to sab thik hojayega  par me bahar nikli aur thodi aage gayi to maine aag dekhi”

“isiliye Nidhi bach gayi aur Rishi ko thodi chote aayi. Ha 99% ye unhi ka kaam hai….. Samar kya tum witness banoge?”  Adi ne kaha.

“nahi yaar ye to bas mere dil pe bojh tha mujhe nind nhi aati thi isliye maine bata diya taki tumhe reality pata chale… kisiki maut pe hasu itna bura insan nhi hu me bas ye police ke chakkar me mujhe nahi fasna sorry but I cant….. bye” samar waha se chala gaya.

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Sablog room pe wapas aagaye.

“ye sab meri wajah se hua hai meri wajah se Pratik humse dur hogaya…. Nafrat horhi hai mujhe khudse” Nidhi bol rhi thi tabhi Rishi uske pas gaya,

“Nidhi ye rone ka waqt nhi hai hame fight back krna hai Pratik ki maut ka badla lena hai… galti tumhari nhi hai par ab hume unhe unki galti ka ehsas krwana hai… ab rone ki bari hamari nahi hai unki hai… hame ab kuch karna hai” Rishi ne kaha to rote rote Nidhi ne Rishi ko hug kr liya.

“guys mere pass ek idea hai gunah kabool krwane ka” Adi ne kaha.

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Adi Ankush Nidhi aur Rishi nakli police ke sath Nidhi ke ghar chale gaye.

“are tumlog yaha kya kr rhe ho? Inspector sahab aap yaha kaise?”

Nakli inspector ne kaha, “dekhiye hum aapko arrest krne aaye hai”

“kyu?”

“Pratik ke murder ke jurm me?”

“kya? Pratik? Me kyu marunga use… nhi ye galat hai”

“uncle ab jhuth bolke koi fayda nahi…. Sare proof aapke khilaf hai” Rishi ne kaha.

“kaise proof?”

“aap 4 log the aapne aapne Pratik ko pehle bahot pita aur fir car se kuchal diya aur ye sab raste par jo shopkeepers the unhone dekha aur unhone gawahi di hai” Rishi ne kaha.

“nahi kuch bhi…. Iske bare me mujhe kuch pata hi nahi hai jhuth bol rhe hai sab ye sab jhuth hai” Rishi ne sach sach bata diya ye dekhke Nidhi ke dad ghabra gaye ab unke paseene chhutne lage.

“kyu ye jhuth kyu hia? Kuch aur hua tha kya?”

“tumlog kya bol rhe ho mujhe nahi samajh aarha…. Ye sach nahi hoskta”

“are uncle un shopkeepers ne jo car ka no bataya woh bhi aapka hi no hai ab aur kya proof chahiye aapko? Adi ne kaha.

“mera no bataya? Aise kaise? Tumlog jhuth bol rhe ho… ye ho hi nhi skta”

“ha aisa hi hua hai” inspector ne kaha.

“nhi ye sab jhuth hai…. Aisa ho hi nhi sakta”

“to kya sablog jhuth bol rhe hai?”

“ha sablog jhuth bol rhe hai”

“aisa kaise keh sakte ho aap?”

“bas ye jhuth hai”

“par kyu?”

“kyunki us road pe koi shops thi hi nhi…. Aur hum 4 log nhi 3 hi log the” and ha finally ghabarahat me Nidhi ke dad ke muh se sach nikal hi gaya.

“achhaaaa” Rishi ne rahat ki saans li.

“ab ye sab record ho chuka hai aur itna proof kafi hai aapke khilaf investigation shuru krne ke liye… aap fas chuke hai uncle aur ye koi asli police nhi hai nakli hai… asli police to aapke ghar ke bahar hai jo aapka wait kr rhe hai” Rishi ne kaha aur woh bahar nikal gaya.

Nidhi bahar aarhi thi to uski najar uski maa pe padi, “maa aap kehti thi hamesha ke mere jaisi ladki bhagwan kisiko na de…. To me aaj kehti hu aap jaise parents bhagwan kisiko na de… sirf lesbian hone ki wajah se aapne meri life barbad kr di aur use chupane ke liye khud ki bhi….”

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Ek proof se investigation shuru hogayi aur dheere dheere Pratik murder aur uski link se Nidhi ke rapist  bhi arrest hogaye aur ab unke khilaf case shuru hogayi thi. Nidhi ki Maa sarkari gawah ban gayi aur yaha Samar ne bhi gawahi dene ke liye ha bol diya. Ha ab indoston ki jeet ki shuruat hogayi thi par ye kaisi jeet thi jisme woh sabkuch haar rhe the….!!

“yaar ab lawyer ki fees kaha se laye ab to jyada paise bhi nahi bache” Ankush ne kaha. Tabhi darwaze pe koi aaya tha Rishi ne dekha to woh Pratik ki didi aayi thi.

“didi aap yaha?”

“ha, me tumhari help krne aayi hu ye thode paise hai… tumhe jarurat padegi… Pratik ko to hum bacha nahi paye par ab samajh aagaya hai ke woh galat nahi tha hum galat the samar ne hame sabkuch bata diya” Didi ki aakhon me aansu aagaye.

Rishi ne ek deep saans li aur kaha, “Didi thanks aapki help ke liye par me ye paise nahi le sakta… aap sab logon ke pyaar ke liye Pratik kitna tadapta tha kitna rota tha maine bahot najdik se dekha hai… bahot bold free minded tha woh chahta to chup rehke apni life jee sakta tha khushi me par usne khud se jyada aap ko importance diya par aap nhi samajh payi use… kash aap use ek gay kin hi ek loyal ek brother kin ajar se dekhti jisne aapki life ke liye khud ki life sacrifice kr di. Pata hai didi ek anath ladke ka dukh koi samajh nahi sakta par family hone ke baad bhi anath wali life bitaya mtlb marke bhi jinda lash banke rehna…. Me bahot khush hu ke aapne Pratik ko maf kr diya par sorry me aapse help nahi le sakta”  kehkr Rishi ne hath jode aur Didi wala se chali gayi. 

“rishi agar tumhari mom aaye to kya tum unhe bhi aise hi bologe?” Ankush ne pucha.

“meri mom kabhi nahi aayegi Ankush woh bachpan se meri wajah se sharminda rehti hai woh nahi aayegi”  

“tum apni mom ko sab bata kyu nhi dete”

“bas nahi batane ki himmat hoti… mere stepdad ne sirf mere sath sautelapan dikhaya hai par mom aur unke bête ke sath woh bahot pyaar dikhate hai…. Bas me meri wajah se unki life kharab nhi krna chahta.. warna mera chota bhai bhi apne dad ko chhod dega aur bina dad ke life kaisi hoti hai ye mujhse alawa kon samjhega… waise bhi me unke family me ek unwanted member tha jiske liye kisike pass time nhi tha I wonder woh mujhe yaad bhi krte honge…???” Rishi ne smile krte huye kaha par uska dard uski aakhon me jhalak rha tha.

Tabhi Nidhi waha aai… situation light krne ke liye Rishi ne chillana shuru kr diya.

“yupieeee finally hum jit gaye Nidhi humne dikha diya ek ladki ki ijjat ijjat hi hoti hai fir chahe woh straight ho ya lesbian……..”

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“hey Mandir… ander chaloge?” Adi ne Ankush se pucha. Dono shopping kr rhe the tabhi unhe mandir dikha.

“ye mandir? Yaha to me bahot aata tha… par tum bhagwan me believe krte ho?” Ankush ne pucha.

“kyu tum nahi krte?”

“nahi…. Agar bhagwan hote to kya woh unke bachhon ko itna dard dete? Agar unhe gays ko banana hi tha to woh waisi society kyu nhi banate… bas yaar koi bhagwan nhi hai hote to shayd woh hamare aansu dekh pate hamara dard kam krte”

“hmmm… mujhe nahi pata bhagwan hai ya nahi hai bas mandir me aake mujhe shanty mehsus hoti hai isliye aajata hu me yaha” baat krte krte dono mandir me jane lage.

Darshan karte waqt mandir ke bahar Ankush ka dhyan gaya aur woh shoked hogaya. Usne waha Akshat ko dekha aur uske hath me ek bachha tha. Use dekhte hi woh uske pass chala gaya.

“Akshat????”

“omg what a surprise Ankush me aaj tujhe hi call krnewala tha.. me subah hi Delhi se aaya hu… kaisa hai tu?”

“ye bachha???” Ankush ne pucha.

“yahi batana tha tujhe Ankush, ye mera beta hai last month hua… biwi ander puja kr rhi hai”

Ankush ne bachhe ko hath me liya bahot cute tha Akshat ki tarah dikhta tha. Use dekh Ankush ko undono ki baate yaad aagayi woh dono milk eek bachha adopt krnewaale the. Ankush ki aakhon me pani aagaya. Akshat ke wapas aane ki last hope bhi ab chhut chuki thi.

“me apni life me aage badh chuka hu Ankush jaise ke tumse promise kiya tha… ab tumhari bari hai… aage badho open ur heart firse pyaar kro kisiko mauka do… life bahot khubsoorat hai ise waste mat kro… me nhi deserve krta ye sab… nhi jee sakta me is guilt ke sath… plz Ankush normal hoja pehle jaisa wahi Ankush jo pyaar me believe krta hai jo nauty hai jo zindagi jeena janta hai”

Tabhi Akshat ki wife aagayi. Ankush ne baby iski wife ko de diya, “bahot cute bachha hai aapka” kehkr woh waha se nikal gaya.

Bahot confused feelings thi uske dil me, Akshat ka baby dekhke woh bahot khush bhi hua tha kyunki yahi to woh chahta tha ke Akshat aage badhe apni life me sukhi hojaye par dusri jagah woh bahot dukhi tha ke ab usne Akshat ko hamesha ke liye kho diya tha ab uska Akshat pe koi haq nahi tha aur ab uska rishta sachhe mayne me tut chuka tha.

Uski aankhe nam hui thi dil me tufan tha aur tabhi samne Adi aagaya, “hey ekdam se kaha chala gaya tha tu? Aur woh kon hai?” Adi ne pucha.

Ankush ne kuch nahi kaha aur ekdam se Adi ko hug kr liya aur rone laga….

“Ankush kya hua???? Akshat???”

Akshat ka naam bolte hi Ankush ne use aur tightly pakad liya so Adi samajh gaya.

“ro le Ankush aaj ye rishta isi mandir me chhod de hamesha ke liye… ro le jitna rona hai.”

‘chahaton ka ye sila khub tumne diya hai,

Apni dunia basa li mujhko tanha kiya hai,

Ye bata de hamare pyaar me kya kami hai,

Meri palkon me dekho aaj kitni name hia,

Jaise suraj ye chupa…….pyaar mera hai rutha….. reh gayi hai tanhayeee………..

Kaisa ikrar tera tha … kuch nahi baki……….

Thoda sa pyaar hua tha…………………………..kuch nahi bakiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii’

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“ummm…. Tu bata r u in love? And if yes thoda sa apne pyaar ke bare me bata…” Rishi ne Adi se pucha.

Aaj Adi ankush rishi aur Nidhi milke truth and dare khel rhe the dare ke dar se Adi ne truth liya aur bechara fas gaya.

“yes I m in love… mera pyaar……. Bahot sweet hai, cute, duniadari ke bare me jyada nhi janta, choti choti baton se bahot khush hojata hai… koi use bada sa gift de to woh itna khush nhi jitna jitna agar koi aur uske favorite rasgulle la de to ya panipuri khila de… itna simple hai ke 2meethe bol bol do dinbhar khush rahega par gussa aajaye to sakuch sar pe utha lega… mujhe kisi aur ke sath dekh le to aag babula hojayega par jab humdono hi ho to kabhi dhang se baat bhi nhi krega…. Hamesha naak pe gussa bahot kam bolega aur aankhe sidhe dil ka haal batayegi…. Sabki care krega aur dusron ko dukhi dekhke rona shuru kar dega……”

Adi bol hi raha tha to Ankush ko samajh aagaya ki woh uske bare me bol rha hai ye dekhke Ankush ko gussa aagaya.

“stop it… ye kya hai? Tune apne aap ko samajh ke kya rakha hai? Mtlb 1-2 baar achhe se kya baat kr li me tujhse pyaar krne laga? Oh ha kal maine hug kiya tha to tujhe signal mil gaya hoga ab ye to ready hai kuch bhi kro man jayega fasa lo ise aur fir man bhar jaye tb chhod do tum logon ko samajh kyu nhi aata ye itna aasan nhi hai….u… u… just get lost u knw I hate u …”

“bas yaar bahot hogaya mtlb ke ye kya hai tu har baat ka gussa starting se mujhpe kyu nikalta hai? U always took me for granted and ab mujhe sikha rha hai…. Aur itna tragedy queen na dikha apne aap ko.. is dunia me sirf tu nhi hai jise dukh hai jiska dil tuta hai….”

“oh ya… then get lost”

“ha well mujhe bhi nhi rehna yaha jaha sirf tu aur tu hai baki koi aur nhi… sirf teri bbaate tere vichar teri taklife aur dunia jaye bhad me” kehkr Adi waha se gusse se chala gaya.

“Ankush what’s this?” Nidhi ne Ankush se pucha.

“kya hua?”

“mtlb hum abtk samajhte the tera dil tuta hai isliye tu thoda disturbed hai par ye kya kbtk aisa chalega? Kbtk tu kisi ek ki saza sabko deta rahega? Tujhe kya haq hai ki tu kisiko hurt kare?”

“Nidhi tune dekha nahi woh mere bare me keh rha tha..”

“kya usne tera naam liya? Kya kaha usne? Kuch ganda bola kya?”

“par ………..” ankush ke pass words nhi the.

“aur kya galat bola usne… ha he loves u and u too kitna jhuth bolega tu apne aap se… damn it sabko dikhta hai”

“nhi Nidhi u r wrong… I hate him”

“achha fir kyu bandhe rakha hai tune use apne aap se?”

“mtlb”

“mtlb ye ke tujhe uske choti se choti baton se prblm hoti hai… woh kisike karib jaye to tu aag babula hota hai woh tujhse ekdin na mile to tujhe gussa aata hai… uski pasand napasand ka tu khayal rakhta hai… usko chhod ke tune kbhi khana nahi khaya…. Bar bar uspe bhadakta rehta hai kisika bhi gussa uspe nikalta rehta hai… tujhe woh pasand nhi to uske bina tera koi kaam kyu nhi hota… kya hai ye sab Ankush ye pyaar nhi hai????????  Jab woh tujhe pasand hi nhi to uspe itna haq kyu jatata hai tu?”

“woh haq jatana nahi hai nafrat hai” Ankush ne kaha.

“nahi Ankush woh nafrat nhi woh jealousy hai woh dar hai… mujhe pata hai tujhe dar lagta hai na firse purane din wapas aajaye to tu kaise deal krega kaise apne aap ko sambhalega…. Par ekbaar thande dimag se soch kya Adi unladkon jaisa hai? Kya woh kabhi tujhe dhoka dega? Tere behoshi ke halat ka usne kabhi galat fayda nhi uthaya kya woh tera fayda uthayega??????? Ye sab samajhne jitna dumb to tu nhi hai ye me janti hu……….

Dekh Ankush life har kisiko dusra mauka nhi deti par tujhe de rhi hai… dil ke darwaze khol ye dar nikal fir dekh ye zindagi kitni khubsoorat lageli….woh ladka tere sath hamesha khada raha hai fir woh khushi ho ya gham…. Aisa ladka kismat walo ko milta hai… Ekbaar apne dil ki awaz sun par itna late na kr ke dil me rehna wala insan dil chhod ke chala jaye hamesha ke liye… fir pachtane ke alawa koi rasta nahi rahega.”

Ankush nidhi ki baat sun raha tha aur Ander se agree bhi tha par dikha nhi tha woh attitude tha ego tha kyat ha pata nahi par woh ye sab sunke waha se chala gaya.

Yaha Adi bhi gusse se chala gaya.

‘Dil jala hu bahot me sari dunia jala du,

Uski rahoo ki sari roshni me bujha du..

Mujhe chahe jamana aur use ye dil chahe,

Mujhko thukrake kaise chain se woh reh paye,

Mujhko tanhayee dase…. Mujhpe dunia ye hase… pyaar ki hai ruswayii..

Maine aitebar kiya tha…. Na raha baki……..

Thoda sa pyaar hua tha………………………………………………………….

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“Namaste Didi, Me Rishi hu”  Rishi ek aurat se coffee shop me milne gaya.

“are hi Rishi… tujhe mujhse kyu milna tha?”

“aap lesbian hai aur meri ek frnd bhi lesbian hai me bas janna chahta tha unki aage ki life ke bare.. me gay hu apne bare me decisions lesakta hu par uske bare me nhi lesakta samajh nhi aata uske liye kya better hoga”

“hmm… lesbian…. Bahot difficult life hoti hai unki… ladki ko hamare yaha devi ke roop me dekhte hai.. devi, maa, biwi, behen par koi unhe homosexual ke room me dekhna hi nhi chahte… gays ke bare me bahot discussions hote hai maine dekha hai aajkal par lesbian ka naam bahot kam jagah lete hai… waise bhi ek ladka kuch krta hai to ladke ka naam kharab hota hai par ek ladki kuch kare to pure parivar ka naam kharab hota hai isliye kabhi koi open up hone ke bare me sochta bhi nhi… maine bhi apne life me kabhi ye himmat nahi ki. Dar is baat ka bhi lagta hai kyunki ek ladka to akela reh leta hai par ek ladki nahi reh sakti… log akeli ladki ko despo for sex types mante hai ke ye to aaram se pat jayegi kuch bhi krne degi kyunki akeli hai aur aise hi ladkiyon pe ye log mardangi dikhate hai. Bahot gandi najar se dekhte hai aise logon ko dekhke hi lagta hai achha hai hum straight nhi hai inki tarah gande to nahi hai…… aur fir isi dar se ghar pen a bata sake na jata sake aur fir shadi hogayi…………..

Shadi ke baad wali life to aur buri thi… pati ke liye sabkuch karo……. Jis rishte ko log pati patni ka pyaar kehte hai woh baat mere liye legalized balatkar tha……….”

Ye sab sunke Rishi Nidhi ke liye ghabra gaya…. Kya hoga uska future…? Akeli ladki ko to samaj jine nhi dega aur fir aage kare to kya kre…. Usne bahot socha… woh room pe gaya to Nidhi khana bana rahi thi.

Rishi ne jate hi Nidhi se pucha, “nidhi… mujhse shadi karogi?”

Ye sunke Nidhi shocked hogayi.

“ye kya keh rhe ho tum? Aur plz agar mujhpe taras kha rhe ho to chup hojao”

“Nahi Nidhi maine bahot socha… see na tum akeli reh sakti ho aur na me.. life me partner ki jarurat to padti hi hai… fir hum ekdusre ke liye perfect partner hai no expectations aur waise bhi humne apni apni life me bahot kuch dekh liya hai to us tarah se bhi hame life nahi jini…. Logon ke bhi muh band hojayenge aur hamari life bhi track pe aajayegi…… aur hame kisi aur ki jarurat bhi nhi pdegi… what say banogi meri dulhan????????”

“Rishi… r u sure? Dekh fir kuch physical relation ko leke baate to nhi hogi na?”

“are nhi pagli humare taste alag alag hai to no prblm aur waise bhi ab ye sab chija kaha matter krti hai. Aur do best frnds life partners ban jaye isse better aur kya hoga… life simple hojayegi.”

“Rishi yaad hai humne shadi se bachne ke liye ekbaar yahi solution nikala tha ke gays ko lesbians se shadi krni chhiye and dekh humdono ki hi shadi horhi hai”

“ha so r u ready?”

“ummm… ha waise bhi ab life se kuch nahi chahiye mujhe” Nidhi ne kaha.

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Ankush bahar jane ke liye nikla… ab roj uske dimag me wahi baate chalti thi Nidhi ne kahi hui… 2-3 din se woh kisise mila bhi nahi tha aur na hi Adi se baat hui thi… woh ander guilt feel kar rha tha ke usne usdin sach me over react kr diya.

Woh bahar nikla to usne dekha Anand ke ghar me bahot bheed thi. Use doubt hua usne jake dekha to use pata chala ke Anand ne suicide kiya tha poison khake. Ye dekhke to Ankush pura hil gaya.

Hamesha hasta khelta rehnewala Anand suicide kaise kar sakta hai….. kya hua use achanak se…

Usne waha ke logon se pucha to kisiko kuch pata nahi tha par sab suicide note ke bare me bol rhe the. Usne woh note dekhi aur padhne laga… usme likha tha,

“Maa, sabse pehle sorry me ye kar rha hu aapki di hui is anmol life ko khatm kar rha hu… par mere pass koi aur rasta nhi dikh rha hai… jaise jaise umar badh rhi hai ye akelapan katne ko daud rha hai… aaj me samajh rha hu ke aap hamesha shadi krne ke liye itna force kyu krti thi… aapki jagah aap bhi thik thi ke itni badi life akele katna bahot mushkil hai partner ka hona jaruri hai…. Par me us baat ke liye regret nhi krta aaj mar raha hu to ye satisfaction hia ki maine kisi ladki ki life barbad nhi ki……..

Pyaar ekbar aaya tha meri life me firse par maine uspe bharosa nhi kiya warna shayd aaj situation kuch hoti… shayd aaj me akela na hota…….   Indino aapki bahot yaad aati hai… me nhi chahta ke aap mujhe accept kre, mujhe pyaar kre… bas itni si ichha thi ke ekbar aapki god me sar rakhke bahot rona tha sare gham bhulake aaram se sona tha……… bas ek baar……… kash woh mauka mil jata……

Ye zindagi bahot buri hai mom akelapan roj marta hai isliye aaj hamesha ke liye marne jarha hu…

Bye………. “

Note padhte waqt ab Ankush sirf Adi ki yaad aarhi thi. Jab bhi woh khush hota ya dukhi hota use hamesha adi hi sambhalta tha…. Ha ab use pyaar ke bare me sab clear horha tha. Usne tabhi Rishi ko call kiya,

“Rishi Adi kaha hai?”

“use hi call krke puch na…”

“uska no out of reach aarha hai isliye to tujhe call kiya na… bta na jaldi”

“are woh aaj Jaipur jarha hai abhi to shation ke liye nikal gaya hoga 1ghante baad uski train hai”

“ohh Jaipur train…. Mujhe pata hai chal bye”

“are par hua kya itni gadbad kyu….    Le phone cut gaya is ladke ko to koi samajh nahi sakta” khkr Rishi ne phone rakh diya.

Ankush ab station ke liye nikal gaya… raste me use Adi ne truth n dare me kahe huye ek ek shabd yaad aarhe the aur woh ab unhi shabdo pe muskura rha tha Sharma raha tha.

Woh station pohoch gaya…. Woh bhagte bhagte platform ki taraf gaya… pasine se pura gila hogaya tha woh par jaise hi platform pe pohocha……… train uske samne nikal gayi……

Ha ab usko ehsas hua ke usne pyaar ko samajhne me bahot der kar di… uska pyaar firse adhura reh gaya…

‘jane harbar mere sath kyu hojata hai,

Me jise chahta hu mujhse woh khojata hai,

Isme meri khata kya koi mujhko bataye,

Pyaar krne ki saza kyu dil ye paye,

Jaise suraj ye chupa…. Pyaar mera hai dubaa…….. reh gayi hai tanhayeeee…..

Thoda sa pyaar hua hai…….. thoda hai baki…………

Thodaaa saaaaa pyaar huaaa haiiiii……. Thoda hai bakiiiiiii….’

Ankush train ko dekhe jarha tha aur uski aakhon se aansu aane lage. Train chali gayi to woh piche muda to usne dekha platform pe ek ladka bag leke bhagte huye aarha tha…

“omg…..omg….omg…………” kehke Ankush jor jor se hasne laga.

“are tu yaha? Yaha kya kr rha hia? And ye aankhe gili kyu hai teri? Aur itna pasina pasina kyu horha hai?”

“are kuch nahi woh bas aise hi”

“aww aww aww…….. got it… dnt tell me tu mujhe rokne ke liye aaya tha? Sach  me? Haaaa warna tu yaha kya krta… haye itna pyaar mar jawa gud khake soniyo”  Adi ab Ankush ke maje lene laga.

“oh hello jyada na ud  tujhe rokne ke liye nhi aaya tha me yaha me to woh bas ek dost aarha tha isliye”

“achha to dost kaha hai?”

“woh nhi aa nhi rha tha jarha tha use chhodne aaya tha me ab train chali gayi ab wapas jarha hu bye”

Bolke Ankush jane laga.

“ahm ahm Rishi ka call aagaya tha mujhe” Adi ne piche se kaha.

“dhatttt……………..” kehte huye Ankush Adi ki taraf muda aur sir khujane laga aur bola,

“hmm… pehli baar tere dumb hone ka fayda hua hai…”

“mtlb?”

“mtlb ke tu late aaya aur teri train chhut gayi”

“hehehhe oh woh hahahha waise bhi me sirf 2din ke liye jaipur jarha tha koi permanent shift nhi horha tha gadhe jo itna mar marake station aaya hai……….. aur ab aagaya hai to chal propose kr”

“xcuse me…. Propose aur me? No ways…. And waise bhi hate u….”

“kya??????? Ja fir me nhi aarha”

“chal drame na kr chal nhi to me jarha hu akele”

“ha to chala ja ab to me bilkul nhi aarha… mtlb meri to koi value hi nhi aur itni akad kis kaam ki ke propose bhi na kre aadmi huh”  Adi wahi baith gaya.

“tu chahta hai me tujhe propose karu?”

“ha aur abhi abhi yahi” Adi ab adke baith gaya.

Ankush ne smile ki aur Adi ke samne khada hogaya usne yaha waha dekha to log jyada nhi the kyunki abhi train gayi thi kuch log the clg students and all…. Fir woh apne ek ghutne pe baith gaya Adi ke samne aur bola, “Adi”

“omg omg Ankush what r u doing me majak kr rha than hi nhi mujhe ajib lag rha hia” Adi ne kaha par ab Ankush kaha uski sunne wala tha use apna pyaar izhar krna tha…

“Adi… maine bahot sunder ladke dekhe hai par tere jitne khubsurat dilwala ladka nahi dekha… tujhse mohabbat krna mere liye khuda ki ibadat ke barabar hai… me  nhi chahta ke hum romeo Juliet laila majnu bane kyunki woh to juda hokar amar huye the, me to tere sath zindagi ka har ek pal jeena chahta hu… Radha Krishna ji ko pyaar ka bhagwan kehte hai par me unki tarah bhi nhi banna chahta kyunki juda hokar bhale hi hame log pujenge par woh mujhe gawara nahi… mujhe tere sath is dunia ko old hote huye dekhna hai… kaho doge mera sath…….?????”

Waha pe baithe clg students ke liye ye bahot achha drama tha sab indono ke pass aakar chillane lage,

“say yes say yes……”

Adi ye sab dekhke amazed hogaya…………  aur usne dheemi awaz me kaha, “yesssss”

Yes sunte hi Ankush ne use tight hug kr liya……. “thanks mere liye itna special krne ke liye” Adi ne Ankush k kaan me kaha.

“Thanks…. Mujhe firse zinda krne ke liye” Ankush ne kaha…………

Aur sablog clap krne lage………

‘Maine chaha hai tujhko, tu meri zindagi hai…

Wahi hai meri khushiya jaha teri khushi hai..

Ab na tadpega ye dil aah lab pen a aaye..

Me kabhi bhi na rounga chahe kuch bhi hojaye..

Meri takdeer ho tum… ha meri heer ho tum… ab na hogi judaaiii…

Tumko dildar kiya hai o mere hamrahi………

Ho thoda sa pyaar hua hai……. Thoda hai hai baki…….

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Kuch saalo baad :

“gay… A life of curse???? Is sawal ke sath maine apni life ki shuruat ki thi par abhitk mujhe uska jawab nahi mila…… kyunki log kehte hai bhagwan se kabhi galti nhi hoti to usi bhagwan ne hi to hame banaya hai to hum bhi koi galti nahi hai…. Insaan hai aur utna hi haq rakhte hai jitna ki baki log….

Mujhe mere bhagwan ne bahot kuch diya… gay life hai par mujhe world ki best partner di hai… aise best frnds diye hai jinhe dekh koi bhi mujhse jealous hojaye… I must say I am the most lukiest person in the world… to me apne life ko curse nahi keh sakta…….” Rishi bata raha tha.

“to sir aap itne bade activist hai… social worker hai aapko insab ki prerna kaha se milti hai kya aapne pehle se ye socha tha ke aapko ye sab krna hai?” reportner ne pucha.

“nahi pehle to me bahot jhalla sa tha… par fir ek farishta meri  life me aaya usne mujhe aise chua ke meri puri dunia badal di……. Log pyaar krna sikhate hai usne mujhe pyaar nibhana sikhaya… aur aaj bas usi ki sikh leke me aur meri patni mehnat kr rhe hai ke ek aisi dunia banaye jaha koi ladka ye sawal na kare……. Gay a life of curse??? ”

“pati parmeshwar ji chale hame late horha hai” Nidhi waha aayi aur Rishi ko lejane lagi.

Dono apne ghar aagaye… Nidhi kitchen me arrangements dekhne chali gayi to Rishi apne bedroom me chala gaya.

Doorbell baji. “suniye ye laila majnu aagayeeeeee haiiiiiiii” Nidhi ne rishi ko awaz lagayi Adi aur Ankush aagaye the.

“tumdono hamesha ki tarah late hi aaye ho”

“are ye Ankush hai na ise to pata nahi itna make up krta hai ab kise patana hai ise pata nahi” Adi ne kaha.

“oh hello late kon utha tha aaj… mtlb Sunday ke din to iske ander kumbhakaran aajata hai”

“ye dekho shuru hogaye dono chalo chup baitho aur help kro meri” Nidhi ne kaha.

“bydway Rishi kaha hai?” Adi ne pucha.

“Bedroom me hai” Nidhi ne kaha.

Yaha Rishi bedroom me window ke pas khada hoke bahar dekh rha tha aur khud se baate kr rha tha…

“Happy birthday Pratik…… love u alottt….” Rishi ki aakhon me aansu aagaye. Usne window ke door pe hath rakha tha to use ehsas hua kisine uske hath pe hath rakha hai…. Usne side me dekha to Pratik waha khada tha usne Rishi ki taraf dekha smile ki aur bola, “I am proud of u my love”

Tabhi Nidhi waha aagayi, “suno chalo woh dono aagaye hai aur Pratik hamara wait kr rha hai…”

Rishi nidhi ke piche piche room ke bahar nikalne laga usne piche mudke dekha to koi nhi tha par woh ehsas bahot khubsubat tha….

“omggggggg…………..awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww”   Ankush ekdam se chillaya.

“abe oye nautanki chilla kyu rha hai” Rishi ne pucha.

“ye dekho kon aagaye…………. Rahul sahab…..”

“Rahul tu aagaya…………….. ab to Pratik aur jyada khush hoga chalo cake cut krte hai” Nidhi ne kaha.

Sab eksath aakar cake cut krne lage “ Happy bday to dear Pratik”

“I miss u pratik” Rishi ne kaha to sab ne use roka aur eksath chillaye,

“we all miss u Pratik……… love u alottttttt………..”  Rishi Pratik ko miss kr rha tha use aise dekh Nidhi ne uska hath thama aur uski taraf smile ki to Rishi ko thoda relief feel hua.

‘Chahe gham kitne aaye… hausla na tutega,

Sath janmo ka hia ye pal me kaise chhutega,

Tere palkon ke aansu apne palkon pe lungi,

Imtehan ke pal me sath me na chhodungi,

Ye tumhe yaad rhe….. hum to hai dard ke sathi……

Thoda sa pyaar hua hai…. Thoda hai baki….!!’

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Sabne jaha se shuru kiya tha bahot dur nikal aaye the. Ab woh nadani woh immaturity nahi thi. Jimmedari, family ye sab baate matter krni lagi thi…….. bahot kuch dekh chuka tha unhone ek hi life me.

Pyaar, parivar, dosti…….. sabke mayne samajhne lage the……….

Aaj bhi woh mall ka table unke sachhe aur atut rishte ki gawahi deta hai…….. aaj bhi waha unki hasi gunjati hai………….. bhale hi kuch logon ne sath chhod diya….par unhone jo kahaniya banayi jo zindagi jii woh aaj bhi ye log yaad krte hai…………….

Ye ek mukammal mohabbat ki, atut dosti ki miasal kayam krnewali kahani thi jo is bheed bhaad wali dunia me sabse bekhabar thi par apne aap me ek dunia thi…

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